Being True To Yourself!!

I've just realised that it has been such a long time since I type about a topic. Actually, I cant really remember, have I ever typed about a topic before even? haha.. Ok, this is no different from my other posts la. yeah? It is just that I have been pondering lately (a few years!!)...

What does it really mean to be true to yourself? Why are there so many people who simply cannot enjoy just being themselves? Is it so important to be someone else? Or, to even try to be someone else? Don't people know that their insincerity to others (and themselves) is so obvious to some? I don't know if everyone sees that insincerity, but I do (or at least I think I do). And sometimes (or most of the time), it just irks me. hmm.. I really wonder, does it irk me cos I am judging others? or is there something that needs to be changed? or is it both ways?

I mean, when u try to be someone, though others may seem to like the "fake" u, dont u feel that u owe something to your true self? how do u feel really? it is kind of frustrating, yet I cant do anything. I know I can help me be true to myself (or at least try). but as for others, there is nothing I can do is there? haha.. let's see, am I ranting or am I making a point? lol.

sometimes, the thing I fear is that I become the person I despise. how?

hmm...

Homework homework homework....

yes! that is all my life is going to be about during the next few days. okay, I am exaggerating, although that shouldn't be the case. I have every single piece of homework untouched, except for the two lit essays that we have handed in so far, and our journal entries. Not something I am proud if, but, beat that! goodness. I cant believe the trouble i am in right now. but somehow, the complete stress I was feeling these days isn't affecting me so much now.

It is probably due to the fact that I know my time was well spent, and it was not due to my complete laziness that nothing was done. okay, I was not the most hardworking person this holidays. But it was really the busiest holiday I've ever had. BUT BUT BUT, no regrets there AT ALL! It was one of the most fulfilling and enriching holidays of my life, as well as one of the most enjoyable. yes yes, I admit, all my holidays have been enjoyable. who wouldn't enjoy a break away from sch rite? yupp. Thank God! I am so glad for holidays. Despite the mad rush, having mere hours of break in between each phase of holidaying. haha.. It was fun!

And now, 2007 is approaching. Hmm.. I'll be thinking about my resolutions for next year. Although, i don't usually base my day to day life around those goals. haha! But no harm planning and trying rite? I cant remember all my 2006 resolutions, but I know I should have accomplished most of them.

Caroling was awesome for me. I mean, not the best ever, and the fun was not as "high". But it was special. Firstly, JM made it! =) secondly, there were so many "new" people. As in, PGO people came too! that was really nice. And the sleep over, got to talk to Jane quite a bit.and a Christmas visit from Li Ju! (highlight!) It is amazing how I look back, and just marvel at how I can still be close to my pro sch friends when I hardly see them at all! It's awesome, really.. Oh yes, and comm Sera with Jeff. ahh.. may all your wishes, prayers and dreams come true =)

Merry Christmas! 9 more days of Christmas to go!! :D hee...
On the 1st day of Christmas my true love gave to me..................... (eee! I hate that song! wahhaa)

Happy Christmas All !!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :)

woah.. these few days have been so good yet so painful. hah! good for the soul, painful for me pockets =( but, its the season of giving! so, its been a joy!hahaha...

Cant wait for this week's activities to happen! it's gonna be fun fun fun! =)

See u all. sorry this is so short, but I am not in the "expressing mood". haha!

Later~

1st piano less with new teach...

For those of u who actually READ my blog! haha.. remember that time when I was talking about having a change in piano teach to a private teach? yupp. this morning was my first lesson. JUST now in fact. my worries were not founded =) for me, there is good news and bad news. well, good news, as I've said, she's not scary, fierce and all that. She's nice, easy to talk to-approachable.

The flip side? hmm.. perhaps it is just human nature to dislike certain types of changes? mayb it's just anthea nature. heh. oh wells.. perhaps I am jus not used to this different style and character. I kinda miss the "old way". "kinda" is an understatement actually =( but I know I cant afford the time, going back and forth places during my A'levels next year.This would be the best arrangement.

But seriously, mayb I am just being plain unadaptable. I dont know. I mean,what more can I ask for right? all my fears have already been "taken care of". cant be too demanding eh? haha.. sigh~

okay, just needed to get this off my chest. hols are a mad rush. tata for now.

Island of Friends...

What is "Island of Friends"? It's the name of the upcoming camp that Saints for Christ is running with Saints Fitness. While I am rather upset about how messy, last minute and rushed this camp seems to be, it has thought me several things, and I am grateful for those lessons learnt. What have I learnt? Read on..

1) The impossible is only impossible if u tell yourself it is!
2) 14 heads put together work MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH...... better then ONE! haha :)
3) A LOT of planning and work goes into planning a camp. (Thanks to all the wonderful commanders who plan camps for us every year! small scale is tough enough, talk about BIG scale! gosh. eternally grateful!!)
4) No matter how busy we are, there are times to take a break and INHALE!!!

ok la.. I dont know what else I have learnt.

This week and the week before, Ruying got to stay over. so, happy me :) we talked till the wee hours in the morning again! really missed that! and the next day had meeting!! ahhh!!! almost died. but I survived!! lol. it is good to have sleepovers and have heart to heart talks :)

Ok, here's my update. have to leave the house soon. meeting gracie poo to pass her consent form and packlist. haiz.. up till now, I've not been to ubin for a single recce yet. WHAT TO DO??!!

oh wells, later!

*Yawns*

I am kinda bored, or should I say, jus plain lazy. HA! Well, I actually planned to do intensive practicing for my OP today, for like, an hour? then I wanted to eat lunch, then go to the library to just relax and read. I planned to leave the house at 1230pm today, but I am still at home now, and it's 130pm. haha! I think I will go la. It's jus a matter of time. When i type this finish, when I finish my lunch (yes, Im still eating it), and when I get changed and all. Mayb I wont even go out after all. Very lazy. Ok, see how la.

Practiced for OP jus now. Hmm.. am I too soft? am I swallowing my words? am I making sense? am I still being too boring due to my nerves? argh! somebody SAVED me!! I cant wait for OP to be over. I cant wait for the entire PW to be over and done with!! Lord, sustain me! sustain us!

Yesterday was my long long long camp com mtg. Shaun and David were being annoying by continously calling me on my mobil when they were right in front of me! naughty ah u two!! ask wan lin to stare at u all then u know. then we went fro tau hui. it was nice to sit there and jus relax. Kevin was talking about studying together later during this year. Im all for it man! without external pressure, I will jus be lazy and not get anything done. especially when november is considered a no holiday season for me this year. =(

ANYWAY, will most prob be gg out with family tonight since it's conrad's last paper. yay! Cant wait to get out of the house, especially when its not for the purpose of work of any sort =) hee..

Alrightey, later~

Goodbye Piano at Yamaha =(

Today is my last day having my piano lesson at Yamaha. I know this is for the best, especially in the academic sense. It saves all the travelling time, and also the frequent re-schedulings. Initially, I didnt think too much of it. I mean, my teacher's nice, not picky, and very accomodating. But to stop piano and have it in my home instead, I was ok with the idea cuz I am convinced I need that extra time and convenience.

But today, I was kinda sad. Like sitting there waiting for Elliot's turn to be over, I looked around and was like, "hmm... never going to be waiting here anymore" that kind of feeling. It was sad la! I am not too certain why also. In some ways, I am a little afraid of what my next teacher will be like. haha.. I mean, I dont really know what I'm losing and what I'm gaining. Know what i mean? haiz~ oh well.. at most, I can go back to yamaha after my A'lvls ya? sigh~

Anyways, gave my teacher something for the first time. haha.. Usually will contemplate giving him something for teachers day, but always never got around to doing it. regret? haha.. prolly I guess. hmm..

Feeling all kind of mixed. Like, what will my next teacher be like? Is she very strict? Will she be as nice as my piano teach? ha! it's funny somehow. my next teach would be wan's piano teacher actually. but talking to wan still doesnt paint me a picture lehz. lolz. Nevermind. what will come will come. Lessons would probably start next year. cuz nov and dec are packed to the max! no time.

Ok, I shall end here. nothing much else to say already. later~

RUYING: My family has plans to meet u in Auzzie!! hope to see u there yeah? that would be ultra cool la! :D hee..

My Weekend...

how was my weekend? EVENTFUL! =) I felt that it was well spent, and I enjoyed myself. WHY? Cos I got to do lots of things and I wasnt cooped at home. Not that I dont like my home, just that too much time in the same can drive me to the verge of insanity.

ok, let's start with Saturday. I woke up in the morning and attempted to study a bit of chinese. but it didnt work out. barely read through one chapter and it was time to get ready to leave. Went to meet Ruying! =) oh wells, decided to just consult lao shi with whatever I did during the week. Met Ruying at toa payoh and I was late! haha.. ok, I admit I am kuku. I mean, I always thought toa payoh was super near ma! haha.. ok, mayb only Ruying knows what I am saying.

Anyways, we ate a lot of snacks cuz we couldnt think of anything else better to do after watching DOA. and for the record, I would say DOA was the most uninteresting SHOW I watched since the day I was born, excluding sesame street. haha! nah, I think I am exagerating. or am I? :D hee.. oh wells.. both of us decided, NOT WORTH OUR MONEY!! they should be paying us to go thru that torture actually. oh wells :/

After all the eating and chatting and walking around (in what seemed like circles), met Ruying's family for dinner, then we were off to Sheraton for chinese consultation! haha.. I was afraid I woulf get lost, so we made our way there like at 7.30pm? in the end, it was SO NEAR! goodness.. haha.. so since we were so early, we decided to walk to the bus stop closest to Sheraton and chat somemore. but some irritating person was smoking and we were suffocating, so we walked back to the bus stop at the mrt station. Just when we sat down, lao shi texted me to say he was in the cafe already. oh wells, walk back to Sheraton lo. haha! It always seems that when Im with Ruying, we always walk a lot! haha.. prolly cuz we are so blur I guess. :D hee.. or is it jus her? hee... *imagines the look on Ruying's face and laughs* hee.. JUS KIDDING!

Ok, so consultation went on till about 9.30pm. Ruying got to ask questions too! hehe.. my dear, studying for Chinese does help!! MAY YO BE CONVINCED! haha.. It was quite relaxing. jus ask all the questions that I had "stored up" during the week. and yupp, that was about it! haha.. thanks loads to lao shi. Hopefully I can remember all that I learnt. (Ruying! Dont say anything!)

Next, sunday! Jonathan got his gold medal of achievement! and Lio and Chang Xiang got their bronze. CONGRATS guys!! It was so nice to see a whole section of pple clad in the RR uniform. cool!! :) Proud to be a ranger! haha..

After church, I had pw meeting. PW mtg became a chit chat session also. haha.. sometimes I jus think my pw grp can be so cute. somehow la. dont really know why also. It's like, jus a group of pple who are so different in different ways beinig thrown together and having to work together. hmm.. =)

ok, I'm super tired. gg to sleep le. then tmr, I shall mug somemore!! hahhaa.. GOOD NITE FOLKS!!

Ruying: this time the post not very random HOR? :D hee.. and u owe my lao shi 100bucks! lol

random random random...

Should my posts from now on be simply random? haha.. prolly just me and my emotions going cuckoo.. haha.. why ah?

Anyways,

Random thought for today: many think I am calm and in control. but that's prolly cuz they've never seen me thrown in hot water! haha..

I was jus thinking la. cuz in sec sch and all, I get the "she has a kind of confidence about her" kind of comments. but am I really confident? NO!! haha.. not really la. or at least I dont think so. what think u? hmm..

Oh well, this is suppose to be random anyways. =)

In ending, I just wanna mention, chinese is driving me nuts! haha.. never studied to hard before. sometimes, I just fear that all the hopes of doing well will come crashing down on me. but, safety lies in the shadow of HIS wings rite? yupp =) Daddy God is always in control. so, Chinese, NO BIG!! haha! (0.o are u kidding anthea koh!!) hehe..

Random things I simply Love =)

Hee.. feeling random and reflective again.. hehe =D

1) The feel of strong winds at my fingertips

2) The light patter of a drizzle on my skin

3) The smell of rain before it comes

4) The "scenery" just before a thunderstorm

5) The sound of thunder from a distance


ok, that's it for randomness.

MOVING ON......

haha.. have u ever wondered... ... when do u truly know a person? there are always times when u feel u thoroughly know someone. but how would u know if what u know that person to be were his/her true self? Am I making sense?

Well, I guess u never truly understand one till u see a contrasting side of that person right? oh well.. hehe..

that's all for my randomness now. buaiz~ =)

my tag board's down..

hey all~ looks like my taggie board is down.. anyone knows why? it's like some advert thing. Anyway, anything, jus leave a comment instead of a tag ok? for those with eyes big enough to know how to leave a comment =) hee...

in short, today was good! fun, more relaxing, but I'm still totally shagged~ =) adios amigos!!

random memory...

If those times were just a dream, I wish it never ended...

If those things you said were true, I could actually believe in them...

If you really kept all your promises, I wouldnt be so careful at present...

If you were unreal, I would be happier...

Somehow it seems, it would be best if u were just a pleasent dream. Hmm..

1/2 of promo papers BACK!

ok, so I have testimonies again!! :D hee.. let's start from the lousiest subject of the day..

Math. well, I was exactly devastated cuz I was expecting worse. I got an E. well.. u can say the grade is the same as my common test. however, the difference is that, common test, I actually got an S grade. but they moderated and gave me 1/2 a mark more, hence my E. so, overall, for the whole year, math, I got an E.

Next, econs. I got a D grade. Hmm.. Well, I am satisfied. Previously, for CT, I got an S grade, and this round I was aiming for about a D. So, God granted and blessed. Thank God!! =) overall, it averaged to a D.

Lastly, CHINESE!! man. ok, I hope I am not being insensitive or anything. as in, I am assuming hardly anyone reads my blog also. at least, pple from my class la. so, yeah.. CT, I got an E grade. for promos, I got....... A!!! haha.. who says pigs cant fly? who says Singapore is not snowing? who says water is not dry? haha.. ok, ignore what I jus typed. I was just totally in awe when I got my results. was like, tears of joy really felt like they were coming on. Such happiness and amazement that I couldnt describe. and Gracie bak gua was being such a darling la! for the first time in my life (if I recall correctly) a friend tells me "I am so happy for you". haha.. ok, so overall, I got a B for chinese.

Oh ya.. I was just thinking just now. what I said was not true. I did well in chinese before! PRIMARY 1 and 2! haha.. but since Primary 3, erm.... well..... ahhh..... hmmm.... yeah... u get my drift :D hee......

and God blessed gracie dear too! Praise the Lord!! and yes dear, I AM HAPPY FOR YOU!!

and to whoever (from A4) reads my blog: hey guys, hang in there aite? we will make it through. and I always believe, no matter what happens, God always has a plan (for those of you who believe there is a God. I DO!) :D yupp.. so, no matter what, let's not give up hope ya? we'll make it through somehow.

and on the things I missed out yesterday. hmm.. I realised I've not blogged for so long, I kinda forgot what is usually written on ones blog. lol.. then it struck me before I went to bed. What happens in the day!! wow!! retarded rite? hee :D that's Anthea pok for u la! haha..

ok, so yesterday, we were making door gifts for open house. It was funny sitting beside Dave. he is jus artistically insane. haha.. it's not the time for being artistic dude. its time for mechanical work. haha! but in the end, he got the hang of it. yupp.. like, at the end of the day. haha.. but his artistic designs were really not bad k.. just that, we cant give those away since they were not standardised! haha..

alright, I will stop here.. today, God taught me something. nursing a grudge/wound? NO!! REJECTING that LIE of the devil! argh!!! SHOOOOO!!!!! go away devil!

hehe.. okie, sorry.. later guys~

I am back to blog!!

ok, so promos have been over for a while. hmm.. not that long. probably about a week? somehow, I know it's over, but we all know what comes after every exam/test right? yes. results! haha.. oh wells. what can be done now right? so, I'll just wait and wait and wait....... until we get back our results. I wana know if I can be promoted!!ahh!!

haha.. ok.. well, suddenly I cant really think about anything to blog now.. how come ah? ok.. I shall be random then.

1) recently, I've been printing a lot of chords. but it does not mean I went or managed to play all those songs! haha

2) TAN WAN LIN! I HATE YOU!! heeeee :D see la.. who ask u.. keep bullying me. =( aiya! u don even read my blog. no fun le!

3)I am still so so tired

4)I feel happy and I dont really know why

5) some things that we should not think about, reject thoughts about those issues!! amen!

6) I'm gonna have my dinner.

bye!! haha.. sorry I cant think of anything I really wanna write about.

It's been such a long time!!

Hey guys! Ima back to blog again! hahaz.. sorry its been such a long time. as usual, busy with sch, life, etc etc..

Yesterday had to lead in worship. I was quite nervous and all. But God reminded me, it's about HIM, not me! Gracie poo played the guit for me. Thanks dear! ok. I shall stop thanking you (as u requested. last time, I promise! haha) ok, it was quite scary, but thank God it was ok. I dont know how I led. but oh wells, it aint about me! :)

Then, we had worship conference with COR. it was awesome! Personally, I've not felt HIS prescence fro so long although I wasnt feeling depressed or anything. probably worn out and felt far away ba. then b4 the svc, God told me to have a heart of expectancy and I believed that He would touch me. and guess what! He did! Praise the Lord!! It was so good to be in His prescence once again and just kneel before His throne of grace and cry my heart unto Him. He is so wonderful! Amen!

Today, went to subway with JM! I was not productive. haiz.. but I wont say it was a wasted afternoon la. I replied to RUYING's letter! yeah! will pass it to you tmr dear! it's gettin longer and longer =) hee.. its so nice to be in subway again. I miss it so much. haha.. and got to spend time with JM again. she was so much more productive la. I only managed to finish my geog tutorial. she did math, econs and chem! gosh* haha..

besides that, dunno what else to say. ahha.. stil very tired. I guess I'll be off now. In the mean time, u guys out there take loadsa care yeah? love yas!! God bless you all!

it always comes back to me
unexpectedly
makin me feel this way
those memories locked away

sick...

haiz.. Im sick. I hate hate hate to be sick =( *pouts* For the first time in my life, I have a super super pain headache, and a sleep didnt help. really couldn go to school. Had to go doc on my own though. Super pain, didnt feel well. Tired, etc etc.. I hate this feeling. =(

Today, I've slept a total of about 18hours already. ha! I hope it helps. =) tmr gg back to school, but I dont think I can do any work. still got econs test on thurs. haiz. how? it's a lecture test somemore. I hope it'll be cancelled. Im really in no state to study.

Tmr got chinese test. see how ba. I hope I'll feel better later. then can study a bit. but medicine will make me drowsy. see how la. too sick to think too much also.

to my wonderful friends, grace, steffi and wan lin: thank you for all your care, concern, and prayers! It really encouraged me today even though I was super unwell =)

To God be the Glory!! =)

I've got a testimony! I've got a testimony! and I HAVE TO share it!! cuz it really amazes me! :D

ok, where shall i start? alright, I'll start where all thing start. yup! the BEGINNING! haha.. ok, so I was told on sunday that I had to do scripture reading on thursday (today). yeah. I was about to freak out. then God reminded me that He wanted to teach me something in my 2 years in SA.

Anyways, I said ok, decided to prepare on wednesday since I was at a funeral then. Then I kept praying through the week cuz i was very scared. Like, really really scared. let's jus say speaking in front of my entire cohort is not something I am exactly like comfrotable with? u know, hundreds of people, speaking into a mic, reading aloud? etc etc? yeah, u get my drift.

Then, my dad reminded me, it's not about u! It's about God. Pray for the non-believers that they will understand what you read and learn from it. So, I decided to shift my focus. then i prayed over the versus and for the pple that morning. But I WAS STILL VERY SCARED.

This morning, during morning worship, Anna shared 2 verses, and they were applicable to me emotions and my thoughts at that moment! wow!! Isn't God amazing? then I rushed out of the LT to go prepare after morning worship. I was like, ok, what come may. God will use me. All I have to do is to STOP thinking about myself.

Then when I went up there, there was some guy reciting the pledge again and again. Even though I dont know him, he talked to me. he kept thinking he forgot a line of the pledge. haha.. It made me laugh.So I laxed for a while. After the actual reciting of the pledge, I was like, ok... now is the time. Breathe in, go!

So, I read from my paper. My legs were trembling la! then by the time I was reading my prayer, I felt that my whole body was trembling. All the time, my stomach felt super constricted and I was feeling super nervous. But I just did what i had to do, taking in deep breaths again and again. Ok, then I was feeling kinda down after reading it. As in, for a moment or two. Cuz I felt that I didnt succeed.

but when I went down to join my class, they said I seemed pretty confident. And msK even encouraged me. I was like so thankful la! It appears that the raging nervousness I felt inside of me didnt show much. Praise the Lord! i really hope people were really listening to the scriptures read, and I heard they understood. =)

oh ya, I left out one thing! I woke up sick! so my nose and throat was blocked the whole early morning! so, I sounded nasal (so gracie poo said :) haha.. it didnt exactly help my "confidence". haha.. but it went alright.

To God be the glory!! ~

Praise the Lord!!

prayer really really works! amen! I was so scared and decided to pray. end result? I'm still alive! ok, mayb I sound like Im talking rubbish. but I dont wanna say exactly what happened la.. anyways, it was another miracle! Praise the Lord! =)

This weekend is super burnt. AGAIN! haiz.. so busy.. I don even think I can go for band practice today. see how ba..

Really short post today. later~

Here I am... AGAIN!!!

helloooo... can u believe it?! I'm actually blogging. AGAIN! see, miracles do happen! haha.. well, one thing I've learnt recently is, everyone has the same amount of time and work NEVER ends. really. so, it's how you priorities and MAKE TIME for things.

An example would be my kor, when he was in college and uni, he still wrote to me. I was thinking, he was definitely a thousand times more busy then me! so, how come he could send me letters and cards, and I cant even reply to my dearest RUYING's letter? haha.. then I was thinking, and I decided, I didnt reply cuz I didnt MAKE time. so, yeah.. I've decided to try to MAKE time to do things that I wanna do. Am I any free-er? NO! No doubt everyone has their skool/work responsibilities. but what happened to social responsibilities? hmm.. just the things I've been thinking about this past week la =) sorry if I sound incoherent. I'm quite tired.

anyways, moving on... know what? know what? last nite, elliot lost his skool handbook, so I was kinda looking a lil for him and also finding something else. cant rmbr what I was searching for, BUT BUT BUT, I FOUND ALL MY PLANETSHAKERS CDs!! yeah!! haha.. after losing half of them for over a year, I finally found them! praise the Lord! =) I was so happy la! haha.. that means I found all my PS Cds this month! one half found last week I think. haha.. so happy! :) Praise the Lord. my lil bro, unfortunately was not so fortunate. he could not find his handbook at all.. *gasp* haha.. Ruying, u spread ya messymessness to him rite? haha.. MUST be! :D

to U: I am super angry and kinda hurt. I bet u dont know. know what? the anger u made me feel today took my friend 7 years to make me feel that way! u took like, one month TOPS! haiz.. but I'm gonna pray about it and I know somehow I may forgive u. argh! I jus don get u, u know that! nvm.. I jus wanna let go. it's not good for me, not good for u, not good for ANYONE.

alright, now that I've got it of my chest, erm... what should I say next? oh ya! today, it rained, like STORMED all of a sudden. haha.. I was so so happy. that really made my day. the weather is truly unpredictable! =) It was so strong and the wind was so strong such that it looked like a snow storm, but when the snow has not become snow yet. know what I mean.. it reminded me of my U.S. holiday trip last year. when the snow storm was going on outside the lodge and we were inside drinking hot choco and stuff =)

oh yes! and I have one more thing to thank God for! I was put in charge of settling food for SFC tmr rite? then I was quite scared that it will be too last minute cuz we only found out on mon! but PTL!! everything was settled today, and we even got variety sia! thank God! Jana, Hui Ru and Eunice, thanks u guys! hopefully all will go well tmr! thanks again! :)

wait wait! one more! lots of blessings to count today. the week b4, Raksha lost her mp3 and she was so sad la! then I went home and prayed that she will find it. When we were chatting, she kinda said, things that have to be gone will be gone. so, yeah.. anyway, I went home and prayed for her during my quiet time! guess what?! she found it!! I'm so happy for u Rakrak! haha.. I know how it feels to lose smth. and I really dont like that feeling! take care!

Charlene: I'll be praying for u! u may not be a Christian, but if u do somehow read this. Trust in God ok? dont worry too much, and please DO take loadsa care. if need be, quickly seek help.

okies, I'm off for now.. see when the next miracle happens and I'll blog again! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

woohoo!! today is my lil bro's birthday! He's jus turned 9 yrs old! haha.. well, we celebrated it yesterday. children's parties are quite fun sometimes cuz there are so many cute cute children! haha.. yesterday, dad asked me to lead in a game. well, honestly, I am always unsure of how to lead lil children in games? cuz it can be really hard to get their attention! haha.. but it turned out fine enough. dad helped me to gather the children, then I jus started to lead. They were excited and stuff, and I didnt even need to do anything! haha.. yay!

there was so much good food that mum cooked! unfortunately, I was feeling too tired and not hungry. haha.. so, jus pinch a lil food here and there, then watch tv, talk to ruying, see who else to talk to and stuff.haha.. well, SO MUCH LEFT OVER! goodness.. when it comes to cooking, I think my mum is superwoman. haha..

oh ya! and Hannah is such a cute lil darling u know! she was one of the last few to go home, so she wanted to play with me. then I played with her for a while, but had to do homework. so, I told her I have to do work. but she still wanted to follow me, so I told her: can, but cannot disturb ok? she was such a good girl la! haha.. she just asked for pen and paper, then she sat on her own and started drawing for me a picture. so sweet!! she's K2, so u can imagine her drawing.. ok ok, mayb u cant. haha.. well, it was an angel heart. u know, a heart that is an angel? yeah.. :D haha.. I was so happy. she's so cute. really! =)

today. I was so not ready to go to school for such a long day. thank God, one teacher was absent. so my day ended like, almost 2 hours early!haha.. it was a good break altho we still had assigned work. tonite, I'm so going to dive into bed and snooze for a long long long time..haha..

And I went for piano today, not knowing its a term holiday at yamaha. haiz.. so i stood there for 20mins waiting.. then still no sign of my teacher, so decided to ask the counter. then aha! found out it was a term holiday. lol.. ok lor.. so, yeah.. in some ways, it was good timing again, cuz I have not practiced my pieces for about half a month already. haha.. I definitely must find some time to go pratice..

now, its like natural to sit in front of the piano and jus play chords and sing.. so its like, I always forget to pratice my tau gehs.. haha.. oops! hee.. =) alritey, my bro wants to use the com! ciao for now =) God bless u all!

Planetshakers "concert"!!

yeah!! Past two nites, went to expo for the planetshakers "concert". It was good! It's like u can really see the band worshiping. as in like, I jus felt it was a lil different from FOP in some sense. but I wont elaborate la. however, on the first nite, the pple behind me were like more crazy about the band then God. if u know what I mean.. but, i don wanna judge la. God sees the heart, all I hear is their SCREAMS** haha.. then on the 1st nite, met like almost all my JC2 SFC seniors. They were like, in front of me. so, said hi and all that.

Last nite, went with Rung and Ruying. haha! Rung: I admit I am rather easily amused, but u ARE funny! haha.. seriously, I never knew that fruits MUST have seeds! haha.. but I am sure seedless grapes are fruits! :D hee.. then last nite, the preacher was very funny. but overall, I prefered the 1st nite's preacher. somehow, I kept praying throughout the thing that pple will come to know God.

when I looked around, I saw quite a number of malays. I was so happy! it's like, what great oppotunity!! I hope they enjoyed it, and I pray many gave their lives to Him.. okok, I gtg le. gotta go church soon.

Ruying!! see ya soon! then I can see u in your formal clothes! =D

I'm back!!!

haha.. so so so so so so sorry for not posting for so long! haha.. It has been super hectic and rush rush rush for things.


Well, quick update.


Last sunday, got to see kor! He came out of NS for the weekend. Bo tak suites you kor! haha.. =D hee..


Guess what happened today? my form wanted to see us. then we were all kinda like fretting. thinking, what did we do this time? haha.. guess what she did?! haha.. she gave us a secret Recepie banana choc cake! woah! haha.. so huge la! so the class sang birthday songs to ourselves. woohoo! haha.. chinese teach looked embarressed that we are his class. haha.. so funny. then he was like turning red and all that. haha.. The cake was yummylicious! haha.. I like SR la.. =)

ok, then it has been a loooong day also..

after taf running after school, went to caf to meet some SFC pple. people keep asking me not to let others bully me! hmm... I'm that smiley meh? tim wan and pris keep asking me to give an angry face. haha.. so funny. I cant act la.. Haha.. mayb one day.. hmmm...... dunno la! haha.. I guess I will say I can be nice to people. But if someone clearly tries to take advantage of me being nice then I may not be so nice any more.. I think la.. haha.. what say u? hmm..

anyways, CANT WAIT FOR FOP!!!!! yay!! haha.. Ruying, see ya tmr =) hopefully can have sleepover.. haha.. yeah!! It's gonna be an awesome time of praising HIM! yeah! cant wait cant wait cant wait!! =D and what's more? next friday got PLANETSHAKERS!! yeah! haha.. so excited =)

Oh ya! we had chinese debate today. haha.. it was quite funny. So many english words!! haha.. so many ideas to express, too little chinese vocab! ahhh!!! haha..

alritey, I gtg.. see when my next update will be ba~ =D See u all, and God bless!

phew...! Thank God!!

Woah.. so scary.. the caterer for tmr sent me the invoice and the price was said to be $476.70!! oh noo!!! I like, panicked! then I was praying through out the past hour or so. So, called to enquire bout the amount and told kevin about it. Then called to see if can cancel and if the 50% will be charged or not. thank God!! Indeed He answers prayers. After this entire hour or so, the lady said that they shouldnt charge us cuz we only confirmed the thing today. Phew~! Praise the Lord!

And then we were contemplating calling in pizza. then blur blur me go and call and order on the spot. argh! so dumb rite? Dont know what I was thinking la! Never even ask anyone. Anyways, Kevin called to say put it on hold. So, I did. and thank God! EUnice found someone to cater for us. wow! haha.. really really thank God. I'm jus super super reliefed. haha..

Kevin and eunice, thanks a mil. So sorry you all have to settle it in the end. so so sorry =)

hmm.. dunno if you all will see this anyways, but if you do, I'm really really sorry.. and Thank you, THANK GOD! =D

SC commendation rehearsal

Today there was a rehearsal for tmr's SC commendation. I must admit it was SUPER long.. haha.. but it was ok la.. talked to sfc pple that I've never spoken to b4. It was quite alrite.. Besides the fact that I was super tired that is. =)

haha.. today was a wonderful day! haha.. we only had math tutorial and econs lecture. the rest of the day was free! wow! haha.. PTL.. had a good time jus hanging around.. haha.. it was quite boring actually.. but ok la.. =) good rest..

ok la.. I gtg eat dinner.. see what else I can update next time..later~

Air Pistolling!

YEAH!!!!! I never knew air pistolling would be so fun! haha.. yeah! I passed! haha.. ok la.. many people also passed. and those who didnt, it could have been a problem with the pistol also la. Cuz there was one pistol that was like super super OFF one la. haha.. and one of the triggers even got 'blown off'. I have no idea how it happened.

Well, my arm was aching like mad by the time the 10th shot was to be done. but yay! I can still feel my arms! haha.. It was nice.. Ok, comparing it with the one I got to shoot once in US, it is a totally different experience! In US, I was shooting a rotten orange in uncle mike's fron yard! haha.. It was so fun! like, a REAL pistol with a REAL bullet! lol.. this time, although it was only lead pallets thing, it was still quite fun. there was no deafening sound when we clicked the trigger, so, no worries about that. haha.. =) yeah.. but the good thing about the air pistol is that there is no recoil. hee =D I know i know, mayb I'm jus plain lousy,.. haha.. but oh wells.. I'm a beginner! =) spare me! haha..

I was just reflecting how different the settings in US and sg are. US, I was shooting in the open, no other accessory besides the ear muffler thing and the pistol. SIngapore? We had the air pistol, a table top, a target board thingy, air conditioned room, chairs to sit on behind for theory part of lesson and we didnt even need the ear muffler thing. haha.. US was so close to nature, I loved that. yet, in singapore, despite all the "comfort" of that confined space, it rocked la!! haha.., :D

okie.. I didnt expect this update to come so soon.. but I thought, since I'm here, I might as well do it.. when I can still rmbr how I felt during the thing, might as well blog about it rite now.. haha.. okie okie.. I'm SUPER tired. was tired since the moment I woke up this morning. haiz.. haha.. so so so so tired..

last paper on tues. thank God for my SUPER NICE math tutor. she's meeting me on monday for me to consult her.. so nice rite? haha.. I hope to clear ALL my doubts which by now, is almost everything! ahhH!!! save me! okie.. wish me all the best for my math paper.. It is suppose to be a subject I can score at. NOTE: SUPPOSE to be.. SUPPOSE.. haha.. :D

Thailand mission trip part 2

haha.. ok ok.. I know it's been another million years since the last time I blogged. Sorry pple =) Well, here's the fill in for the rest of the mission trip.

ok ok.. Ruying, I know you want me to say this.. BANANA POCKY ROCKS!! haha.. yes. Banana pocky. I miss it.. Well, when we went to macro, we went to buy snacks as well rite? The great thing is.. they sell the snacks in BULK! haha.. so, Ruying dearie bought a whole box of banana pocky. Well, 20 boxes inside to be precise. haha.. and it has lasted since we came back until last week. She still has a box I think.. Ruying.. hor?? hahaha..

ok.. I dont really rmbr what else I wanna say..

Anyways, life recently has been rather hectic.

Well, exams are here and my studying was really rushed. thank God it is only one term's work. So, it is quite ok. A lil rush, but managed to finish studying so far. not so thorough, but did study a fair bit =) last paper on tuesday. after that can celebrate a while.

JM! I MISS YOU!! cant wait to see u and your camera. haha.. congrats on making your Panorama a success with the team. God bless u all!

Ben: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! :) see ya soon.. after exams that it. haha..

Thank God for the rain today. It really made my day. When I saw all the dark clouds in the morning and felt the strong wind blowing, it was like, woah! haha.. Oh ya, and I emjoyed walking in the drizzle today. It was nice to feel the rain on my skin.

Just now, I was waitin at the bus stop. then my nephew walked pass me and said 'bye aunty'. haha.. funny boy la.. hmm.. makes me sounds super old.. nvm! I know I'm young =) haha..

okie.. I'm going to eat my lunch soon.. take care you all!

oh ya, High School Musical Rocks! haha.. who watched? Raise ya hands up in the air =)

later!

Thailand mission trip 2006

Yup! as many of you know, I went for a Thailand mission trip! It was AWESOME!! well, I will post what I wrote for my essay that I handed in for rangers. haha.. Cuz I'm a lil lazy to repeat the whole thing. so, yeah.. the following is my essay.. read on! =)

As a group representing Bethel Royal Rangers outpost number 1, we went to Chiang Rai for a mission trip from 16th June to 21st June 2006. God is good and He blessed us with a safe and quick journey from Singapore to Chiang Mai airport and from there to Chiang Rai. The van ride from the airport to Blessings church was approximately three hours. It was a good time to take short naps, take pictures of the beautiful scenery, and reflection.
Through out the trip, we had to travel around a lot. The first day was spent on buying of our logistics from Macro. The snacks there were so cheap; we all could not resist buying! We bought chocolates and sweets that we estimated would last us for the next five days or more. These did not come on a packet or two but boxes! So each of us bought some snacks each while looking out for the logistics for craft as well. The girls then decided that the craft we had initially planned needed to be scraped as we could not find the materials we wanted. So, we improvised! We decided to decorate cups and mini bottles instead of wristbands. The children in the various villages enjoyed it when we taught them how to decorate it and they made such lovely decorated cups too! We also bought balloons that could be twisted into shapes for the children. That was our back up craft that we had in mind.
Thank God the children had fun decorating their own little cups and also putting on the balloon hats that some of the commanders made. At Ayo Village, many children put the balloons in their mouths and ‘tasted’ them. It was a good thing none of them bit it till it burst. At least I did not see anything of that sort occurring. It was nice seeing the children having so much fun with the balloons and just playing with it in their different ways.
Next, it was amazing how the language barrier was overcome through the use of body language and hand signals. One thing I learnt was that a smile is a language that does not need to be taught. It does not matter if you smile at a child or an adult; they all reply you with a smile. In my opinion, a smile is an expression of friendliness and approachability. When I smiled at the children, they started opening up and smiled to me whenever they saw me for the rest of the day. Their smiles never fail to amuse me and bring warmth to my heart. Despite the simplicity of their lives, you can see the joy on their faces and in their eyes.
I really thank God for the children and how wonderful they are. One thing they taught me was the heart of worship. Looking at the simple way they worship and sing their hearts out to God, it really touched my heart. God reminded me that He does not look at our physical appearance but He looks at our hearts. When I saw a little boy about the age of two singing his heart out to God, it moved me and I was tearing. You could really see the Holy Spirit moving by looking at how the orphans were worshipping God wholeheartedly. I have never seen such pure and innocent love and worship unto God. So this is what it means to have childlike faith.
God is so so good! Through out the entire trip He watched over us. I remember how we were playing games and He provided such good sunny weather. Just when we finished our games and finished giving out the goody bags, it started to rain. What great timing! God is so good. The weather through out the trip was wonderful. It was never too hot or too cold. He sent sufficient sunshine and rain. And at all the perfect times too! I remember the sound of the heavy rain approaching during debrief at the end of the day. It was like the sound of a waterfall. Soon the heavy rain came down. It was so refreshing!
I am really grateful to have been given the opportunity to go for this mission trip. Really thank God for all the wonderful people who planned this trip for us too. This trip has taught me a lot and has opened my eyes to a lot of things. Really thank God for being with us and leading and guiding us. It would be good to go every year! =) Praise the Lord!

Leaders' Retreat 2006

It was such a wonderful time being found in the prescence of God once again and just letting Him speak in you life through all the sessions and His word. It was amazing..sometimes, when you are in His prescence, you just forget all that's around you and you feel His wonderful love. It's such a wonderful feeling..

some people dont believe in God cuz they cant see Him. well, if someone touches your heart and is always there for you. If someone is always a conforter, ever forgiving and loving. It is hard to reject Him and say He's not real. Dont you agree? some may say 'but God has never touched my life. so why should I believe Him?' Well, did you allow Him in the first place? God is a God of love, and not a God of force. He gives us the free will to choose. He does not force us to love Him. He just loves us unconditionally and waits for us to reciprocate that love.

I really thank God for the leaders retreat. Pastor Danny was such a blessing and he is such an annointed speaker who is so lead by the spirit. He has shared so much and prophecied so much. My prayer is that one day I'll experience what it is like to be THAT close and in tuned with the Holy Spirit. It is such a wonderful thing to see what is being done in auzzie alone. If that could happen in Singapore? WhhhOOO!!!! We'll be on FIRE. I earnestly pray that day will come. well, Christians, lets all pray and interceed for our generation! :)

haiz..

gonna get scolded by her again tmr.. I am bracing myself. but somehow, we are never ever prepared are we? there is always something we missed, something we did not forsee, something that is lacking. haiz.. anyways, the comfort lies in the fact that God is in control.

These few days are a bit.. erm.. down.. yeah.. wont elaborate.. Well, let's just unite in prayer that all who need comfort are comforted, and all who need love will be loved. yeah?

ok, besides that, all other things have been ok.. God granted me the desires of my heart 3 times this week! haha.. to be exact, almost 5. haha.. anyway, they were very small things, but it really made my day. or should I say, days. haha.. and thanks to all the wonderful pple who were there with words of comfort and encouragement. I really appreciate it. =)

jm: hey, once again, I am so sorry I had to keep changing my mind. Well, that day was also really a bad day for me as you know by now. But I wanna apologise for u having to run around ordering and canceling my order. I understand ya frustration. Was really hoping I could be there for your very very first performance. will TRY MY VERY BEST to be there for the next one yeah? miss u!

alright, I will just end here. next update.. hmm.. I dont know when.. soon I hope.. hols are coming!! Tmr there's SFC camp. I dunno if I'm looking forward to it. hmm.. but if we can survive AJTC, what could SFC camp do to us rite? haha.. me rather.. ok, lets see.. at least I dont think we have to do outdoor cooking.. yay! haha.. no dutch oven.. although, it was quite fun.. hee =D

okie.. take care! bye..

mr z: your pm coming NOW! haha..

weary...

Hey all.. I am sorry.. I know it's been a million years since my last post. ha.. well, this week has not exactly been the best of weeks. but what can I expect rite? It's gonna be like that for the next 2 years unless something happens.. nvm.. dont wanna dwell.. lemme just say these past few days were full of tiredness, irritation, tears, anger, etc etc.. yet, I thank God. There are other things that have been so wonderful for this week.

1) We won Rugby champ!
2) We won hockey yester!
3) I have a wonderful class and MOST teachers are nice
4) daily p n w is spirit lifting =)
5) Yesterday cmdrs came to my place. enjoyed the company
6) I enjoyed my piano lesson
7) the week is coming to an end
8) cmdr elaine getting married this weekend
9) Godma came back from holiday safe and sound
10) SO MANY MORE

see, my life isnt that bad.. haha.. God is amazing.. He gives trials, yet he blesses with so much more so you dont get tooooo overwhelmed.. =) It was overwhelming at the moment, we are in the process of trying to do smth.. or so I hope.. let's just pray and see how things go.. I am so looking fwd to the weekend =)

btw: please keep me in prayer ok? thanks dearies.. =) later~ see u all in the next million years.. haha..

Project work

yeah! yesterday we had our very first pw meeting at my place. PTL! it was good! we did not really progress in terms of our GPP. but we had time to help each other with our idividual PIs and to refine to one that we chose to do as our group PI. I think it is really cool that our group could jus click like that. haha.. looks like all our fears, or rather, all their fears are unheard of now. hahaha.. =) thank God.

Hamidah: now u have a new found friend! haha.. :D
YiJie: haha.. so so so so sorry I got you so lost.. :D
Nicole and charlene: glade to have u gals over. :D

yupps... and PTL for the 3 nights of Bible emphasis last week. although it affected my study time a lil, I dont regret it at all.. they were 3 refreshing and interesting nights, looking at the word. wonderful..

yupps.. that's about all I wanna say.. will update again another time.. :) happy labour day everyone! now I've gotta eat and start labouring academically. lol..

AJTC get2gether, sports day, blah blah blah..

ok, upon request.. haha.. no la, I wanted to blog about it also, just too lazy.. AJTC get2gether was wonderful! haha.. ok, I dont know if everyone felt the same way. but I know I enjoyed it. haha.. we had food and chat. most of the time it was only one person talking. haha.. but it was hilarious. all the funny school jokes and camp jokes were coming free flow. haha.. super fun! thanks to my maid and mummy who cooked. simple dishes to eat. well, over all, totally enjoyed having that group over at my place. nice to meet all of u guys agaiN! =)

ok, today was sports day! we won the champion house!!! yeah!! yeah!! yeah!! haha.. ok.. this is like after how many years? =) yeah! great job to allthe pple who ran, jumped, throwed, etc etc! =) haha.. after that went with worm and chicken to PS. we ate and I watch a movie with chicken. we watched take the lead. it was soooo nice! personally, I loved it. =) so so so so so so love it. haha.. went to watch movie although I was broke because got this movie voucher thing to use. haha.. I know, sounds dumb to some pple.. but it is gonna expire, so quickly use lor. haha.. I mean, how often do u get to pay 4.50 for a tix? hee.. =D

and today, I found out my econs teach is an ex ex senior! haha.. yeah! Cedarians unite! it was such a wonderful suprise. I hope she gets posted back to SA and teaches us again. haha.. we have so much fun learning from her. haha.. =) unfortunately, I found out that I failed my econs test. =( it is so so saddening. well, tmr will get the paper back. so, gonna see where my mistakes or lack of knowledge were. oh wells, very sad la..

alrightey, going off now.. see u all! =)

Overnite cyling...Yeah!!

YEAH! We did it pple! 50km! haha.. It was indeed a brand new experience. have never gone without sleep to cycle such a distance before. also, this is my first time cycling on the road as well.. initially it was a lil scary. but after that got use to it and futhurmore, the roads were so empty. It was also a wonderful feeling when we cycled back to east coast park and it was so empty and serene. We just cycled on whichever lane we wanted. haha.. felt like, so much freedom and space. I also had time to think things over and resolved what was bothering me that day. wont mention about that la. Cuz I thought it over le.

Ruying: not all the time shoving things on the shelf will resolve it. That's y I decided to spend time to think about it. =) thanks for being there though. thanks..

ok, we started cycling at 11.55pm and we finished at 6am? about there la.,.haha.. we had supper at changi village. thank God for giving us good weather. know what? when we stopped to eat, it rained, then when we finished eating, the rain stopped. isnt god amazing? haha..

alright, I have loads of homework to catch up with.. gtg le.. later! =)

These days..

Have been blogging less and less yeah? yups. school work is really piling up. ans as my teach said, it's not just about completing the work now. it's about keeping the pile at a relatively low level. So true. Yet I know I am not working hard enough. Tiredness is my bad excuse. I always tell myself to work hard during the weekends, then something comes up. I just finish what is due the next day and leave the rest to accumulate. not that I am very free and procrestinate like in sec school as much. It's just that, school hours are sooo long and on top of that have piano and SFC.

Dont get me wrong, I am definitely NOT complaining cuz these are kind of my outlets for stress. (whatever little of that that I should be having now) haha.. yup! I am not exactly breaking down. in fact, I am pretty fine actually. my laziness adds to my well-being. if you know what I mean. I am now waiting to have geog bridging lecture. school ended at 1.15pm for me. but it only starts at 5.30pm. SO LATE! haha.. but nah, I dont exactly mind. It kinda forces me to do certain things that I have to do. (this not being an essential one la. haha)

ok, so yeaterday we got into our project work groups. haha.. I am in the same group as my nephew! lol.. PW doesnt seem to be going well at all. so many drafts have been rejected and now I realise how lousy my first draft was. now I realise my second one was not much better. It's like, I think I have put in enough thought, yet after being reprimanded as a class then I realise what I left out.

today, had econs test. I did not finish studying! ahhh!! well, studied most of it la. but not thoroughly. I so hope I dont get a C or worse still fail. but I know what is done has been done and I cant do nething about it. so, no point brooding rite? but I cant help stealing a thought or two for it. haiz~ nvm.

on the bright side, I got back my math quiz, earlier this week I think. and I think I was 2nd in class. yay! together with my nephew I think. haha.. lol.. I thought I was going to fail! lol. in the end, it was ok la. it was an A. yes. but the teach already told us it was an easy quiz. so, no bonus there. it waqs simply expected. haha.. oh well.. my folks were glad! :)

ok, going to have overnite cycling on fri and AJTC get-together this sat. I hope and pray that everything turns out fine. overnite cycling attendance may not be too good. especially for the O'level pple. dont worry guys! you all can do it de! Elhannah! esp u yeah! =) love yous and see you on sat. =) I wonder what we will do for the get-together. it;s at my place. but only having some food. activities? nil. hahaha.. we'll see how things go and see when I can blog again. later!

small world!

haha.. I find this super amusing and surprising! haha.. to think my distant nephew is my classmate! I only found out on saturday. I was like, amazed. haha.. couldnt wait to tell him on monday. lol. so I told him this morning. saw an expression on his face I've never seen b4. dunno how to describe also la.

haha.. then so cute. borrow things from me say thank you aunty. haha.. now almost the whole class knows, and some are saying how I should step over him. so mean rite! haha.. it's just such a small world! haha..

anyways, it's been a nice day, thank God for the wonderful showers of rain. well, I was kinda looking fwd to ME, but the teach didnt show. dunno y also. so, ok lor. haha.. was in some sort of a dilemma today, told lio. but ok la. told daddy also, and I've decided not to brood over it since I do not have a serious conviction over this matter. like what my distant nephew said, (haha.. sounds funny) gotta think if it's worth it. and perhaps it was.

Good friday..

last nite went to trinity to watch their good fri drama. it was really good and I enjoyed myself. PTL!! so many rededications and salvations. It's amazing what Jesus did for us on the cross isnt it? well, by the time I reached aljunied. it was already 11pm. haha.. then went to meet mum, dad, conrad, elliot, weili, lio, uncle chong po, uncle jason, aunty irene, luana, and their cousins. haha.. ok la, didnt know they were there, but we went to eat. it was their supper, my dinner. lol. I was ilegally eating twisties on the bus on the way to trinity. lol. =)

ok, the drama was great! great voices, and smart way of infusing the sermon into the drama. PTL! it was a good time. thank you antoinette. I really liked it. =)

ok, yester afternoon, I went out with JM. too bad we were not able to catch a movie. JM! yes, next week must go! haha.. or else our vouchers will go to waste. haha.. we plan which day ok? but my nxt week very busy. see how ba.

yesterday it was pouring like mad and JM, being the stupid girl she is, never bring her brolly AGAIN. haha.. then bring guitar summore. SMART la! haha.. (yes JM, I just insulted u) =D hahaha..

okie.I'm off now.. gtg do PI. haha..

Live concert!

yeah! praise the Lord! Live concert was a success. Praise the Lord for the many salvations and rededications. =) It was good and the think the band did a great job too! great!

I never knew u were from SA! haha.. it's nice to meet familiar faces. It was a nice time talking to you too. =) see u around.

yesterday, played my new guit until my left index finger is sore. One whole night already and it's still sore. *ouch* but yeah, I am happy with it. as zelig said, it's nice to owna new instrument. especially now that it is MINE. hahahahhaa..

later going for outpost outing. yay! hopefulling ruying can join us even though she'll be late. that girl went for live concert too! yeah!! Ruying, was so happy to find out that u were coming. hope u had a good time, and I pray that God touched you. did He? =)

short post. a lot of homework waiting for me. update again next time. =)

My very own accoustic guitar!! =D =) =P :) :D :P

haha.. yes. as some of you may know, my dad promised to get me my very own accoustic to celebrate the fact that I got into SAJC. today, daddy picked me up from school after SFC briefing for live concert. then he ask if I wanna go to the swee lee at sims drive there. I said ok. then this dude came to assist us. so, I chose this guit that I liked. well, firstly, i love the colour. just as I wanted, the colours are not sooo common. yups.. =) then it's an accoustic with plug ins and in-built tuner. how cool is that?! haha..

now, it's just too precious. must ask permission before using ok? and dont bang it yeah? haha.. and for the first time in my life, I actually owna bottle of guit polish and fret conditioner. lol. oh yes, and my very own guit strap of course. thank you so much daddy!!

well, initiall the guit was 600++ bucks. then dunno why got 50% discount. so,it became 538+ I think. then my dad ask, can disc summore or not? so, the nice dude took away the GST. in the end he only charged us $520. well, to me, it's still very ex, especially when I am not a pro at guit at all. but compared with 600++, it's really a good deal. haha..

the dude was so nice. PTL for that. =) as I was waiting to pay up and my dad went to browse around, he was asking if I was getting a guit cuz I did well in an exam or it was my birthday. haha.. I was like, 'nah.. cuz I appealed into a school and got in.' wouldnt wanna bore a stranger with the full story yeah.. so, he was nice and said smth like 'good. must rmbr to study and not just play guit all the time yeah?' so nice rite. haha.. then when my dad came back to pay up, he was like 'rmbr what I told u yeah? and take care'

Thank God. dont these kind of pple just make your day? haha.. not only did I get my very own accoustic. I got to meet such a nice person. Praise the Lord.

Pray for Live concert. praying that many lives will be saved. good nite guys! =)

cycling, cycling and more cycling.

haha.. Yes! we went cycling today. We as in rangers. haha.. it was fun, but I am super tired, and my back is sching from all that hunching. haha.. 25km. very far lehs. haha.. but it was enjoyable la. sweating it out and fellowshipping a lil here and there. It was fun. Thank God for holding the rain for us, and giving us safety. although, delson did cut his hand, and there were some mini 'accidents' along the way, we are all still safe and alive! haha.. PTL! so, that's once step closer to out cycling merit. yay! but will have to find some time to write the reports. that is always the problem with us. haha..do the pract and then too lazy to do the theory. hee.. =D bad bad habit.

yesterday, for cell, gave my testimony about me getting into SA. so many pple are happy for me. it is such a wonderful feeling to know that pple are happy for you and rejoicing with u in your joys. and also knowing that there are always pple praying for you.

JM is facing some horrific moments in her life.haha.. actually, it's not la. but for the person gg thru it, mayb it is. I dont know, I've never been thru it. =D hee.. JM, dont worry, I will always be here if u need someone. we are JMs rmbr? haha.. I know I've been busy and cant talk to u as often as b4. but I will try to make it a point to meet u every week ok? if not, at least once a fortnite? haha.. miss u!

alrightey, I will not talk about the bad part of yesterday. if u wanna know, jus ask me la. haha.. I am too lazy to type, and I just wanna put it away for now. at least for the weakends. haha.. tmr got church! yay! cant wait.

things are getting better!!

Had class outing to plaza sing today. Hamidah's first visit! wow! haha.. only 2 pple couldnt make it. it was great! haha.. I think I am beginning to love my class and love SA. haha..Praise the Lord. I am adjusting much faster as compared to sec1. PTL for that. and today was a goooood day. haha..

It's so wonderful starting everyday with Praise and Worship. It makes so much difference. =) It is just so wonderful to feel that things are getting better and feel so blessed. I dont know how to describe everything, but I just feel so blessed. of course still gotta adjust a bit, but I think things are getting much better. Thank God! =)

and know what? I met 2 other pple today who were from my pri sch! there was this warm feeling inside to see pple whom I have not interacted with for soo long! haha.. these 2 guys were like, my pri 3 friends I think. haha.. how cool is that?! lol..

some shout outs!:

zelig: thank you so much for your pm. It made my day. =)

wz: thanks for everything. take care yeah..

jm: I miss you!! see u tmr! haha.. then I can see u in that camouflage suit. hee =D

official 1st day at SA

well, I must say I made some friends, got around a lil more, and got to buy the uniform. It was a rush to meet the supplier jus b4 flag raising, but thank God for daddy. He drove me to school, picked up the supplier who lives nearby, and dropped me off at school.

The skirt was too long, so I had to fold it. felt so weird. but no choice mah. at least I didnt stand out in my blue cedar uniform. haha.. honestly, I was quite offended when someone asked me if I was from commonwealth. but oh wells, these kind of mistakes do happen. As long as I am a cedarian at heart, that's all that matters yeah?

My goodness. SO MANY familiar faces in SA. From pri sch, from sec sch, friend's friends, etc. thank God for EVERYTHING. well, my day, all in all was pretty alright. But I dont know why I felt like crying when I was making my way home. same old adapting syndrome? I dont know. but one thing i know for sure, i am not looking fwd to pe and taf. haha! But if I dont die, ok lor.. lol. The stress seems to be getting back to me already. like, so many things la. I dont know how to verbalise it. nvm. I know I am in God's plan.

I dont wanna go on. i think I should just stop thinking, and just do the things I have to do. JC career is too short for me to think too much yeah? Well, thank God I have my daddy, mummy, kor, wz korkor, zelig, JM ruying, lio, etc etc..

JM: I am missing u so much already. I cant exactly be myself when I am there without u. haha.. pple are jus so different. but we will all survive somehow rite? ok. till next time, later~

SAJC.. God's promise, fufilled.

yes. As almost the whole world knows cuz I told them, I have been accepted into SA! what are my emotions now? well, to sum it all up, REAAAAAALLYY blessed and nervous. ha! well, I feel super lost at the moment. I am sure things will settle down and I will grow to love the school. I am so so so so so sure that this is God's plan. not only was He stretching my faith, He had it all planned such that everything was JUST NICE. just b4 I bought my uniform, SA called. Just when I was feeling that TP was still not the place for me, SA called. just when I decided to leave it ALL in HIS hands, SA called. isnt our God just so amazing? this time, my faith has been stretched a great deal. and I have learnt that with God, all things ARE possible. =D Praise be to God.

Ruying: camp is never easy, but it's the bond with the pple that makes the camp rock so much. and personally, it was the encounter with God nightly as well.

Elhannah: oh ya. thanks for the reminder dear! know what? during the camp, we built a bridge and tower out of mere wood and ropes. pple climbed on it ok! dont play play. haha.. I must say, we did even better then the guys. ok la, not we say one la. but the guys did an awesome job too! =D AJs rock! rock on man!

alritey, I feel so bad that I made my dad run around just now going all over sg to buy the SA uniform when he is already so busy. Thank God for my daddy. without him, I wouldnt have learnt so much. learnt about what? everything in general la. =) tmr gotta rush to meet the supplier to get the uniform jus b4 school so I wont stand out in my blue uniform (no matter how cool) in a sea of whites. hahaha.. I am praying for courage to make new friends, keep a positive attitude towards my 'loss-ness' and to quickly settle down so I can start with CCA and studying. haha.. It's not that I am eager to study. but I am eager to get my JC career started and ending. haha!

please keep me in ya prayers yeah? love u guys. thanks and take care!

oh ya. btw: SO MANY PPLE FROM CEDAR IN SA. goodness! and yes, thank God for ken also. it's so nice to see familiar faces. although saw one face that I didnt wanna. it's ok la. not same class neways. lol. later guys~

Advanced Junior Training Camp (AJTC), yeah!

ok, I think I only told JM that I will be going to camp. yup. another training camp. In my opinion, it was tough at times but on the whole it was SPLENDID! haha.. fun too. The prescence of God could be felt during the council fires at night. and God used the pastor to speak into my heart. at that point of time when the pastor told me what God wanted me to know, i couldnt help but weep. It was something like, i know it was a problem yet I never really saw it as a problem? ok, I bet no one knows what I am saying now. nvm.

I just broke camp at about 2.30pm. haha.. graduation was so cool! haha.. AJTC really showed what we are made of. well, ok, our presentation was very screwed up. BUT, that was only one screw up out of the millions of other skits, cheers, yells, song, etc etc.. haha.. COOL! great job AJs! I really pray that our friendship will last. In fact, this time, there was already a bond there cuz many pple in AJTC were the same as the pple who went to last years JTC.

just came back from fetching elliot from RR in church. saw many pple. serene is growing prettier and prettier! my goodness.. life's jus not fair. haha! oh wells, and during RR fall out parade, Rayvin was like watching and the expression on his face was like 'I rmbr doing this once' haha... it was cool. then saw bryan. He spoke to me as if he were so much older then me. haha.. asking me to study hard, which sch I am in, etc etc. well, it was cool. have not really spoken to him like, SPOKEN to him for some time.

Well, I really thank God for the many friends He has put in the path of my life. although some of these friends we seldom see, or we are just 'hi-bye' friends, they are still crucial to some point in our lives. haha..

oh ya! last night, during camp, out dutch oven choc cake and lasagnia ROCKED! haha.. like TOTALLY ROCKED!!! lol.. uncle sandy said our cake was 'the best cake in the world' yeah!! my dear falcons, dont give excuses ok. it's not jus bout the choco. haha.. =D Bobcats, well done! we got our Gold medal once again! indeed we have reached our goal! haha.. yeah!

may our friendships last forever and may we remember all that we have learnt in the camp. see u all next year! haha! love ya all.. It's been a great time.

(I think I've missed out a lot of things from the camp, but my pia matter is jus not functioning at the mo. lol. =D)

yesterday.....today......tomorrow.....

wat happened yester. hmm..ok.started da day by sendin may jiejie 2 the airport.she went bck 2 philippines for 3 mths cuz her mom's sick.she teared aft hugging conrad n I. =( I miss her so much already.@ the mean time,we hav a temp.she's really nice too. but jus like all pple,she'll need time 2 settle in n get in2 a routine 1st.but so far she's cool. =)

Aft tt,went 2 elliot's sch 2 watch him run in sports day.yeah! this bro of mine is a proman!haha.. I love my whole family la. =) his grp did a kind of relay thing.his grp came in 2nd!yeah!great job moosey!haha..

then I went 2 meet ruying.it was suppose 2B for lunch b4 BJTC.howeva,neither of us felt like eatin.so I ate fries at mac while she drank ice milo.haha..name e basic 2 drinks tt ruying drinks?

1) H20

2) ice milo

=D hahaa..

then for BJTC,it was quite boring.like, I sat thru it b4.lol..so I read a book 'secrets of the vine'. then started playin hp games.lol..yup..then we had alot of time 2 spare so ruying n I played keyb n slacked ard.lio was lookin super bored.haha..delson didnt cum cuz he was in m'sia.lio was like the only guy amgst us 3.haha..ok,so we revised ropecraft 4 this week's trainin camp,n learnt the theory of cleanin a bike. =) poor lio sounded kinda stressed up wen he called in the morning.mayb it was cuz of HER ba.wont go on.I'm jus guessing.he needed to bring a bike,asked me if I cud bring 1,so got my dad 2 bring 1.ok.settled..thanks dad!

In rangers I had 2 buy new rangers shirt.it was SOOO big.ok,I'm fat so the width was ok, jus more baggy.but the length was TOOO long.haha..imagine if I pull the shirt straight, it's almst at my knee.hahahah..

today,I'm happy!!haha.bought a guit bag from swee lee.haha..it was $24.but dunno y got 20% disct.so, it was only $20.15.2 think dad wanted me to jus go yamaha n get da $30++ one which i wasnt reely interested in.haha..nt my dad's fault la.he tot we wer gg 2 PS 2 eat mah.then wan me 2 spend time eatin wif da family.but in da end,mum suggested eatin @ bras basah which is where I wanted 2 scout 4 guit bags.yeah! I like da one i got.I mean,how nice can it get la.haha..but,I like it!feel a sense of POSESSION!! =D lol..

tmr got guit xchange,only playin Adante,but I'm lookin fwd 2 hearin da senirs and other schs playin their pieces.yeah!ciao pple!God bless. =D