Fuming.. screamed.. dont know if I should regret..

haiz~ just screamed ma head off and elliot.. the youngest bro.. I have not screamed at a person like that fer dunno how long already.. when I say scream is reelie SCREAM! argh.. he was being so rude to ma maid, even ma grandma.. whatever u say to him in a time like this never gets in, so I screamed.. but as usual, he insists on doing things his own way.. this is jus so irritating.. I mean, here I am, supposed to be alone at home so I can study most of the day away, and now he has to do this to me.. I am not exactly in the best of moods cuz of HER..

I have been praying that God will give me the strength.. I dont know if I should regret screaming at him cuz I know Jesus would never do that.. but if I dont do that, what can I do? he would be scareming.. argh!! this is so depressing.. then when we told him to just do whatever he wants, he screamed and kept hitting his own head.. I dont know.. but I find this disturbing..

We are finally giving him his way but tells him if he knows he is in the wrong, ma dad will punish him.. y hit his own head.. I just walked out of the room.. ok.. so much for that incident.. I just needed to let off steam.. i dont know if I am doing the right thing la.. but oh well.. cant believe it is smth so trivial and he cant just obey..

neways. yester's bio pract was quite a disaster.. only if the whole nation doesnt do well then do I have hope.. haha.. no la..kiddin.. my hope is in the Lord.. =) I am quite far behind in ma timetable, so revised it again just now.. this time, I HAVE not keep to it.. or else it may be too late.. or I cant do everything I want to.. =)

Ben and kenny.. thanks fer always being so encouraging.. Ben, liju, ken.. u all must also jia u for O's ok? Ken, aiya.. u get 20 can le la.. no fair.. DSA.. ok la, I am not jealous.. happy fer u.. just that now SA got one less place, and I have to work a even harder.. haha.. I think I am like exaggerating.. okie, will pray fer da best and let God do the rest.. haha.. cizo pple.. =)

Graduation Ceremony..

ok, so it was graduation ceremony on saturday... did not think I would cry, but as we sang the finale song, emotions started to well up.. then looked around.. everyone was crying. I could not take it,almost cried. was restraining.then stupid JM started tearing.. we all ended up crying.. lol.. then everyone went around hugging each other.. it was so touching. felt a sense of emptyness and sadness.. for once, I was feeling sad to be leaving Cedar. hee.. I know u may think I am crazy, but it is true.. it was only then that I felt like it was 'over'.

By the looks of it, I think I will end up crying on prom nite.. haiz~ It is quite sad for fat pple like me u know? dunno what to wear leh.. still thinking.. scared I over dress or 'under dress'.. haha.. will see how it is not that near neways.. fer now, O's is ma main concern..

special thanks to all of you who have been encouraging me.. namely wz kor, mrZ, JM, gloria, ruin, my darling commanders, classmates from 4monstars!, etc.. ok.. thanks ya all, love ya all and will definitely miss ya all after we graduate.. :)

God spoke so clearly..

Let me start by talking about last nite.. During my devotion, I prayed that God would bless me thru the service the next day. Little did I expect that it would really happen.I mean, yes, I prayed for it, but it was like those, just pray prayer? if u know what I mean..

This morning, we were 10mins late. Guess who I met on the way in? my beautiful commander, commander sera! haha.. since ruin's sick, I sat with her. It is wonderful sitting beside someone who really praises the Lord with all her heart. I love my commander. =) ok. then the last song we sang was 'Because He Lives'. When they sang the chorus, I felt tears coming.

Then God spoke to me. It was as if He was preparing me for the alter call that was coming. He kind of told me that pst Chia will call for an alter call, and I am one of those who will go to the front. At first, I doubted, was it my imagination? my own thinking? then Pst chia went up stage and made the Alter call. The alter call WAS for me. God even kind of like, told me what the pst was going to say.

My heart started racing and it was like, I knew I had to go up front I wanted that touch from God and that reassurance. There were issues in my heart that were making me so burdened.. I knew it. I knew it was for me, I knew I was going to be so blessed. (see, what u pray for, God will make happen! =) I hesitated at first. Then I told myself. No way am I going to miss this alter call. God even 'prepared' me b4hand. what am I standing there for?

so, I went up. was amongst the first few, so I knelt down in front. Tears flowed and I started weeping. yes, weeping. It was like, all my tears of bitterness were flowing out of my eyes.. Commander Sera and aunty Julie (my another commander) came to pray for me. I was so touched today. I thanked God for my commanders, and I thanked God for holding my tmr.

God then showed me a vision. Well, I believe it to be a vision. He was showing me this pipe. I was suppose to walk thru the pipe, but I was to big. Later, God showed me, with Him, I became a little man, and the pipe became so big. In the vision, I represtnted my problems.The small pipe representes my strength, and the BIG pipe represents God's strength. meaning, with God's strength, I will overcome every problem. but if I try to depend on my own strength, it is going to be impossible to sqeeze thru that tiny pipehole.

thank God, amen! what aunty Julie said to me really blessed me also. If u read this, thanks! =) ok.so that was my wonderful experience today. Praise the Lord for HIS wonderful touch and comfort. I amstill in the process of overcoming that problem which made me go to the alter. But I WILL overcome this problem, come what may, with God's strength and not my own. =)

cheers,

anthea

Praise the Lord fer everything!!

Praise the Lord! ok.. first off, thanks to ALL of you who have been keepin me in prayers.. I reelie appreciate it.. Yeah, it is always so comforting to knw that my heavenly Father has a plan already laid out for me, and all I have to do is follow it and everything will be alright.. hence, like Kenny said, I will pray for wisdom.. I have been praying for wisdom actually.. yeah..

All in all, I will give my best and let God do the rest.. =) I have been keepin up with ma timetable not too badly.. haha.. But in terms of sleep, lesser then usual la.. but not to the harmful stage la.. dun worry..

Prelim results were bad.. 20 points.. dunno where to go fer 1st three months.. any suggestions? ma folks wan me to go to a JC no matter what.. as in, first three months..

some things YOU said made me cry.. not in the touched way.. u make me frustrated, depressed, upset, discouraged, angry etc..... argh! YOU dun understand a thing la.. stop judging me when u dont know a thing.. u dont know a thing, not literally, not in terms of knowledge.. u dont know ma heart, desires, passions, hopes and dreams.. argh!

ok.. that para was ranting.. not many pple will know who that YOU is.. but seriously, YOU is so near yet... argh!

ok ok.. I should not end ma entry in such hurt and anger.. well, on the bright side, I thank God I have Him and He does not judge me like that.. I thank God for seeing ma heart.. I thnak God fer being ma comforter fer da past few days..

okie..take care ya all.. :)

JC talks and prelim results

yester had JC talks.. VJ's was da most fun.. but somehow I think i wont go there even if I can make it.. and I mean IF I can make it.. I think I wanna go SAJC.. still prayin about it tho.. I will let the Lord choose ultimately..

Today started of slack.. then when i got back ma papers, JM and I were so so down.. I mean like, ma L1R2 is alreasy 10! how great can that be? amath had B4 and English had B3.. I need a miracle and I know it is not comin.. :( JM and I went subway.. we started becomin a lil more chatty.. but spirits still very down.. even now.. feel so disappointed altho I expected worse.. I think it is cuz of eng.. i mean.. Amath was better then what I expected, but so many did much better than me.. I cried after an hour? so lagging rite.. lol..cried then told maself to quickly stop or else everyone will see.. :(

after subway, somehow bein with JM and the subway aunty cheered me up.. but once I was alone again.. I felt that immense sadness kinda thing? yeah.. was like, jus so upset.. then dad picked me up from aljunied mrt.. went to cut hair.. well, more of trim la..

well, at least now I know why i keep dropping so much hair.. hiya.. my stupidity la.. same reason as ma poor results.. :( well, I just have to give ma best fer ma O's.. I'm prayin fer da best and sticking to the timetable I have planned.. prayin it will work.. =)

well, in the meantime, I will try to keep ma spirits up so it will not affect ma studying.. but I am so afraid of what ShE will say.. somehow I feel less motivated and less encouraged.. haiz~ please keep me in prayers aight?

yet another movie marathon!

haha.. woohoo.. I cant believe I went fer another movie marathon today! wow! watched The Myth and Sound of Thunder.. haha.. it was like a last minute decision.. I was so so suprised.. thank you so much! ruin, helped me thank ya folks loads and loads okie? and thank you so much too.. aiyo.. they pay fer both movies, so pai seh..

ok, tmr I will get all the BBQ money back.. then I can start gettin ma financial accounts into order.. now, I am like almost totally cashless.. no money to draw from bank le.. haiz~ I feel so insecure..

ok, today, fer da first time, I got to try mini melts.. yummy! ruin jie shao one.. it was good.. :)

kie.. fer The Myth and Sound of thunder, I would say, not much of storyline.. but I enjoyed it.. haha.. fer those of u who liked Jeressic park, u would like SSound of Thunder.. for The myth.. it would be pple who like movies about past life and dreams ba.. a lil traditional touch to it too.. haha.. and got Jacky Chan! haha.. I love his movies.. ma dad too..

haiz~ I feel bad today.. had to leave in a rush.. so did not get to give aunty Kwai ying her hug.. I was looking fwd to it too.. but we had to rush off fer da movie.. so, ya lor.. tried to ask ma dad to tell her if he saw her, but he didnt.. I feel bad.. hmm.. but I dun even have her hp number leh.. oh wells.. :(

tmr I have got to start studying le.. well, this 'last day of freedom' has been well spent.. thanks ruin and family.. :)

movie marathon and BBQ

woo! movie marathon was great! it was fun and we refused to go home till we finished all three episodes of the Lord of the Rings.. it was so fun laughin at wen cuz she was so blur.. hahaha.. it was cool.. I think we should movie marathon again after O levels.. haha..

ok.. BBQ started of rough.. when starting fire, I did not know whether to laugh or cry.. haha.. well, I shared with some cmdrs y le.. haha.. it was a good laugh.. well, when i went home with wen, it was about 10pm? yeah..

well, the cabbie was a lil freaky yet friendly.. I wont say why here.. but, yeah..it was a lil freaky.. I also told some cmdrs.. I was so happy yester.. yet, JM and I actually felt bad fer not study.. must be gong's fault..haha.. he go and bring her stupid tuition hw to the house.. haha.. so we all blame her.. hee.. :D

ok.. this morning went out with mum and elliot to parkway.. had lunch and they looked around in MPH. the cafe was so cosy.. I am SO full now.. goodness.. haha.. today is ma second last day of freedom.. I have to enjoy it.. hee.. ma full gear of studying HAS to start on monday.. wish me all the best guys!

always keeping many of u in prayers.. Love to ya all.. God bless.. :D

Sleepy and body aching

I am so tired and ma shoulders are aching.. haha.. spent so so much time on the computer today.. ok.. I woke up reelie late.. 1030am? haha.. that is a luxury already comparing with normal school days.. ok, then I used the com, went on G4C. woah! so many things to read sia..haha.. so reply reply.. in the meantime, also planned ma O level studying schedule.. did half way, JM say she leaving sch le.. and it was drizzling, so had to bring an unbrella to da bus stop and shelter her.. haha..

then she came over.. we dilly dally, watch tv, talk.. then started planning fer tmr's BBQ.. we today reelie slow sia.. when she came to ma place it was 2+? but when we left fer shop n save it was already almost 5 I think.. lol..

haha.. U should have seen elliot's face when JM came into the room in her FBT shorts.. haha.. this innocent 8yr old looked bewildered sia.. he looked at her with the expression that said 'y is she in her underwear'.. haha.. okok.. I wont go on.. wont be so nice.. yes JM.. I am maluing u again.. hee..

then we went to shop fer da stuffs at shop and save, then after that, we went...... SUBWAY! haha.. heavenly.. and the same aunty was there.. one of the two that recognises us.. haha.. woah.. the things we bought were so heavy sia.. carry until ma back was aching..

then had to wait fer ma dad cuz i asked fer a ride.. so, stood there.. play hp games tryin to distract maself.. haha.. it worked.. then once I got into the car, i started devouring ma SUBWAY sandwich after giving ma folks a bite each.. haha.. no, not I bite them, they bite the sandwich! hiyo.. haha..

then I started using the com again around 9+? until now, which is like, 12am? haha.. oh dear.. woah.. I did not realise it has been so long.. chatted with quite a number of pple on msn.. it has been so long since I chatted with pple on msn.. felt like, good! haha..

I feel good, ma O level studying shedule is out! yeah! I will definitely wanna put ma mest into followin it.. if i do, it means I can study finish fer O's and still have about another week fer extra revision.. I know there are many who have already been super prepared.. well, I cant look at the lost time and pout can I? so, I will just make the best of the time I have now.. =)

okie.. i am off ot do ma quiet time then off to dreamland.. no JM! not lala land.. DREAMland.. haha.. nitey nite.

The Longest Yard & End of Prelims!

Yeah! I love the movie! yeah! yeah! haha.. well, I would give it bout 3.5 to 4 stars.. haha.. The plot was good, Adam Sandler was funny and good.. and the bad guys lost.. well, I think some parts were morally wrong, but I think on the whole I enjoyed the movie loads.. It made ma tiredness fly away.. haha..

Had lunch with JM at subway b4 that.. it was fun! haha.. as usual she eats so much slower then me.. lol.. and the aunty recognise us le! haha.. recognise me at least.. *grins* Then we were sittin at the same place where the guy keep swinging the door and it always almost hit me.. haha.. we were doin something lame.. cuz I saw these skool pple asking 'Can I have this meal please'.. I was like,' No cannot..' haha.. then Jm and I started counting how many pple ask 'Can I'? Lol.. so farnie.. In the end got 10.. haha..

ok.. I know we are lame.. but JMs are JMs.. we are like that when put together.. hahahaha.. then we went to shop arnd.. bought ma bro's bdae prezz le.. I know it is too early.. that's y I will hide it.. Just in case he reads ma blog, I wont say out what the prezz is.. JM helped me out a lil... thanks hon.

ok.. lastly, yeah! PRELIMS ARE O-V-E-R! over! yeah! haha.. I can rest fer a few days now.. let me see.. I am gonna sleep in tmr while the phy pple still have pract.. ha!

*hides from flying stone again*

then I will decide what to do when I wake up.. Hmm.. mayb do more quiet time.. Quiet times are getting more and more wonderful.. I love God so much..and I know HE loves me too.. And HE loves all HIS children.. Praise the lord fer that! yeah!

Bio Pract paper..

I am so happy.. Tiara taught me how to play a song on piano while we were in lock up.. It was so boring until our classmates came! only Jessica and I in shift one lor.. it was like, forcing maself to study.. then mr Sng was behind reading 12th nite.. lol.. Rum rum keep disrupting him.. lol.. then they laugh laugh laugh.. Jessica and I decided to go to the other side of the hall cuz pple were so noisy.. then ltr, our class pple came.. we say the person who was playing the piano make us so sian.. so we all go and chase her away.. hee.. no la.. we just intimidate her by outnumbering her.. hee... :)

Tiara taught me and mel this lovely song.. I love it.. but I cant play two hands yet.. will practice tho.. Tiara and Shar are so good at piano man.. *jealous* haha..

yay! tmr last paper! Hallelujah! should be going out with JM fer lunch tmr to celebrate the end of ma papers.. she poor thing still got Physics pract.. haha..

k la.. That is all I have to say today.. to everyone: jia you! we almost over with prelims le..

More prelim papers over!

ok.. the past few papers have been nothing but hard, terrible and depressing.. Chem today was the hardest.. BOTH papers were hard! my goodness.. like one half diffeicult not enuff.. I feel so stressed up and depressed.. today ma dad said a statement that made be burst into tears.. in front of ma bro summore.. in hawker centre summore! so mah lu.. heh. he said 'if it is so hard means u did not prepare enuf HOW HARD CAN PRELIMS BE?" those words in caps are the ones that made me cry..

How hard can it be? as ma classmates. ask the whole level..Ok, there are always some who can ahndle ANY paper.. but ask the majority.. 1st three months is out of the question to me.. but to them I can.. no! no no! please try to understand.. :(

anyway.. thank God that today's Amath paper was easier then the first one.. that was the easiest paper of all three.. but still, it was too hard.. man! So depressing.. but the good thing is that tmr only got Bio pract.. :)

ok.. I wanna thank some pple..

wz kor: thanks fer all ya support! must take care of yourself ok? dont try too hard.. mei is busy, but will keep u in prayers..

Ruin;Ring;MBB2;Greens1: haha.. thanks cuzz fer all ya support and prayers.. BABY COUSIN! haha.. I am keepin ya tooth and back in prayers too yeah? Dont care about HER and let this kinda pple make u sad ok? I will always be here for u.. tho I am not in ya sch.. jus sms me kie? :) *closes ears so wont hear all the ranting about ma sms number* hee... dont nag ah.. hahaha.. I jus wanna be there fer u cuzz.. :)

jasmine: fer visiting ma blog and encouraging me.

mr Z: thanks fer keepin in touch once in a while tho u are so busy..

okie.. and to all who have prayed fer me and encouraged me in one way or another.. thank u so so much.. I reelie appreciate it..

Geog elective paper over!

okie.. so 4 more days and all ma prelim papers are O-V-E-R over! well, I think I am gonna do pretty bad this round..mayb the worse in all ma four years in cedar.. haiz~ oh well, todays paper was another average paper.. the kind that A's are OUT of the question? lol.. but on the other hand, I have not been doin well in geog all along.. I dun have common sense..so, haha.. cant be helped.. neway, thank God I did not fall asleep during ma paper.. as I mentioned, gettin sicker and sicker.. (most likely cuz I dun eat like I'm sick.. apetite go down, but the lil I eat is eveything I should NOT eat) hee..

oh ya! xiang yee jie jie is back from Canada! she came over to ma place yesterday.. I was so happy.. but had to study.. she is so so nice.. u can never imagine her angry.. hehe.. she is so nice.. :) talking about Canada, kor going back tmr.. so sad.. time flies.. but oh well, he will be graduating in like, 4 months?

ok la.. that is all fer today.. I ended at 9.20 am today! haha.. :) early rite?

*hides from flying stones thrown from the physics pple* hahaha..

Prelim: Bio 1 & 2, Amath 1 over! (sick..)

ok.. I have to say that the abv prelim papers were not good.. it was so hard la! I am going to die.. Bio MCQ was quite easy, but when we saw the paper 2, all of us were like.. what?! bye bye first 3 mths of JC.. lol.. Amath, paper 2 will be on monday.. I pray it will be easy, cuz the first paper was a killer.. but some said it was the easier half.. so they heard.. haiz~

ok.. I think I am not gonna get well even after my antibiotics finish.. I feel as if I have a fever comin down any moment.. and I wake up from ma nap exhausted.. how great is that? and I still have A LOT of studying to do.. tmr's geog paper.. I have not even finished reading a chap.. I think I can only briefly read le.. no time to memorize everything.. I have such poor time management.. argh!

ok.. the whole day, ma tongue feels tasteless and ma throat feels like bitter.. so I went to eat spicy chips (given I am already havin cough).. haha.. then after drinking water, tasteless and bitter again.. so latr I ate spicy otah! but again. after a glass of water, the taste is gone! man! I feel bad.. I hate being sick..

k la.. I cant blog fer long.. gotta go and study geog.. ttyl! :)

Prelim:Emath P1 n SS.. done!

yeah! another two papers over.. well, the Emath paper was easier then expected.. but I dont think I can get distinction le.. As for SS, was never able to get A1 neways.. It was do-able.. thank God that ma flu, cough, phlegm n sore throat did not affect me. I even felt as if a fever might come over me. Lol.. but it was aight.. lasted enough..

then went to macs to eat lunch (hee.. i know i know, I am sick) and study with JM. We wanted to look at some solutions to the Amath questions we did not know how to do, so we go Popular n pretend to browse. hehe.... *shhhh* then we saw the solutions lor.. lol.. in the end, realised the question was so so simple la! haha..

ok ,then went fer piano. It was, ok. I was so tired. Kept playing wrong notes also. but ma teacher is helpful la. He doesnt demand things from me. So, my tiredness went away a lil during piano.. :) thank God fer that too..

okie.. gotta prep fer tmr's paper.. Take care ya all! and all the best fer the upcoming papers!

having laid out a plan..

wow.. I decided since I am so so slow in ma revision, I need to put out a specific plan.. I have planned an hourly schedule fer studyin fer ma prelims.. meaning, I plan every hour and what i will be doin in those hours.. I think it helps.. so far so good.. well, so far is only one day.. haha.. I missed out a lil cuz of tv.. man! I have to catch up today.. haha.. I am sure I will work smth out..

hey, guess what?! I have to study about 7hours a day min to be on sched.. I am suprised I almost did 7hours yeaterday.. principal says 9hours a day.. fer me? impossible.. lol.. I think at the present rate I go, I will finish one round of revision just in time..

neways, I wanna thank God fer such supportive parents.. esp ma dad.. I was so so stressed about not makin it fer ma prelims.. then ma dad reminded me that no matter what happenes, it is all in God's plan. Timely reminder.. thanks dad.. (but he doesnt read ma blog) haha.. then I told ma mum that I give up on chem.. she said I was being ridiculous.. well, I reeeeeelie cant do chem la.. I will just give ma best neway, but least priority..

man! I am craving fer subway now.. haiz~ no time to go out la.. nvm.. mum took the day off.. tonite, goin to da club to bowl and eat dinner.. club food.. *yummy* oh yes.. did I mention that I am just eating, sleeping and studyin recently? my weight is incresing lor.. I am already so fat and ma weight is incresing.. *Yeeeeekkkkss!!!!* ma fats are disgusting.. man! anthea is disgusting.. heh.. somebody save me!!! ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!

haiz~ I think I got a flu comin down.. save me!! peeps, keep me in prayers ok? I dun wanna be sick during prelims! ahh! hahaa..

okie.. I am off to study le.. ciao.. :)

ps/ to all those studying, jia u wor!

mugg mugg mugg...

ok, I am glad with the work I did yesterday.. It was not the best I could do, but I definitely put in more effort then the previous 2 days.. today, did quite a lot.. but ended up playin with ma bros.. 'wasted' 2hours..nvm, can catch up later..

this morning, woke up at 5.45am to fetch mum to the airport.. I find that, the sad thing when she has to fly so early, is that she always scared she gets late, then get a lil pissed.. neway, sad things aside, we had a good breakfast at the airport together.. the whole family.. :) that was good.. mujm flew to indonesia.. she will be comin back later tonite..

well, that is all about I have to say about today.. besides, airport and studying, I did not do much else.. so, yar lor.. short entry today..

later guys..

used da capo! yayness! :)

Mum went to KL this morning, goin to airport to pick her up soon.. she went there fer a meeting.. this morning I had lit remedial.. kept getting reminders from God not to get angry.. I was like a pot of boiling water..haiz~ inside was boiling, but cant tell from the outside.. (or so I thought)

had yummy cake today.. haha.. dad's birthday cake (from yester).. yummy yummy.. oh no, I am already so fat, and I still am eating so much.. oh no... oh no.. hahaha..

I tried using the capo just now.. wow! I finally find some songs from worshiptogether.com singable.. haha.. all along was like, tryin to scream da song out, or transpose, then end up too low, or awkward.. now, suddenly like so much more comfortable.. lol.. is anthea dumb or dumb? I know! she's dumb! hahahah..

okie.. that is about all I have to say.. love u guys always.. :)

God's perfect timing..

I wanna thank God, ma heavenly father so so much.. He made ma day.. He rocks and always will.. As u can see from ma prev post, I was so so sad and I did not know why.. All the way till piano lesson.. then jus b4 piano lesson, JM smsed me..

I was kinda sad cuz she seemed pissed with me that day.. And I was angry and sad.. but I put it behind me.. and jus now, we talkd as if nth had happened.. that is da first thing i wanna thank God fer.. :)

next, piano lesson was great.. After it, I felt so happy and relaxed... haha.. see? who says I should stop piano cuz of ma O's.. no way! lol.. If i quit piano, mayb ma L1R5 will be.. erm...........54! hahaha.. ok ok.. choi choi.. touch wood.. *puts hand on JM's head* haha..

after that, Ruin made ma day.. she cheered me up.. I thank God fer MBB2/G1.. this cousin of mine reelie brings joy to me.. thanks dearie.. love ya loads.. thanks so so much.. :)

and now, I feel happy.. well, I am goin out to celebrate ma dad's birthday.. oh no! he is comin home! I have not wrapped e prezz I just bought fer him yet.,. okie.. I am off.. all in all, I thank God.. HE never fails to surprise me..

~just when I thought I was in a valley, u lifted me up abv ma worries~

Thank You Jesus!

Feelin down..

As above, I dont know why I feel this way. Yesterday, went fer Penang Hawker Fair. Yummy food.. It was good.. was prepared to go home to try to study cuz I am one week behind ma schedule le.. when I reached home, felt so tired despite ma long nap.. ate too much? I dunno..

then, I was lying on the bed, jus thinkin.. I felt so so sad.. dunno why.. so, jus cried and cried.. but ma bros were in the room, so did not make any sound. Cried out to God, asked for His comfort. Was totally not in the mood to study.. so, finished up jus one chapter of bio, then did ma quiet time.. after that, went to bed..

today is dad's birthday, that is one thing to be glad about.. made him a card just now.. I hope he likes it.. I hope to get him a prezz later, before I go fer piano.. oh ya, elliot is gonna learn piano soon.. that is, if ma teacher says can.. I smsed him, but he never reply.. dunno la.. so many pple I sms nvr reply.. nvm la.. not like I reply all the time also..

haiz~ I dont know what's goin on inside me la.. no mood for nething also.. have to try to do bio le.. somehow I feel like sitting in a corner and hug myself and cry.. but I think it would be a waste of time.. it will affect ma prelims also.. haiz~

~want someone to love me~

WeLcOmE bAcK KoR!

woot.. guess what! ma kor is back from Canada! haha. Just now he smsed me, I was so so suprised.. such a pleasant suprise! and tmr, he will be joining us fer rangers, how great is that? haha.. ok, there I was, singing over ma handphone to lee si cuz she has to lead songs fer her cell grp tmr.. (lol.. still cant believe I did that) then we ended up chatting fer over an hour or so. then when I hung up, I saw ma phone had one msg, I was thinkin, must be ruin or pokie askin me about tmr's stuff.. then I saw the starting, hey mei.. Well, the only 2 pple who call me mei are wz and ma kor. haha.. wz dun have ma hp number, so I was like.. hmm? haha..

then when I read the msg, I was like woot! haha.. such a pleasant suprise.. welcome back kor! missed u so so much.. =)

ok.. I am going to go blind already. I decided to type out ma lit homework instead of writing it because typing would be much faster. Guess what, cuz I talked to lee si on da phone jus now, I only started work at about 12 am.. I stopped at 2.15.. Goodness... I have not even finished 1/2 of the 45 questions la.can u imagine if I wrote them out? hand sure cramp sia.. so, I type.. ma eyes becoming blur blur le.. lol.. I did not take any breaks.. Quite happy with maelf actually.. man! I need to finish those questions or else that she-devil will hound us we will all die.. haha.. literally.. 0.O

okie.. I think I will go off to do ma quiet time now, then off to bed. Will have a good rest, then tmr, i shall continue with the 45 questions until it is time fer rangers.. :) okie.. cya guys tmr..

Good nite~ ZZZZZzzzzzzzzz...........

English prelim paper..

man! english sure was hard as compared to O'level standard.. dunno y, but during the paper1, ma thoughts jus could not flow.. even writing a simple sentence made me confuse.. lol.. I re-wrote ma whole speech cuz of the poor language.. finished on the dot.. scary? definitely.. and ma pen's ink dried up on me, so differently colour also.. at least I re-wrote.. thank God I finished copyin on time tho..

tonite got cell leader's training, so no cell.. haiz~ might as well la.. I need to study bio also neway.. well, at least got smth happy to share.. ma mum decided to give me one of her mp3s.. I know many of you already have one.. I am considered slow.. but who cares la.. haha.. I am glad I will start bringin music around with me again.. ever since ma discman's batt spoiled, i have not brought music with me liao.. thank God, thanks mum.. :)

I have this sad kinda feelin inside, I dunno y.. mayb I am jus tired? dunno.. neways, wanna thank all of u who visit ma blog and tag ma board.. xie xie ni men.. =) oh yes, and also, thanks wz fer all ya encouragement all the time altho I take super duper ultra long to reply.. haha..

Teachers day, chem pract, etc..

Yesterday was chem practical, prelim.. I must say it was actually fun.. mayb to me, because I am prepared not to take chem in ma L1R5.. I was suprisingly not so anxious.. kind of was a lil, but the Lord gave me peace. thank God.. Lock up was quite a waste of time.. but got to talk to ana n JM.. so, it was time well spent..

after lock up, I went with JM to eat subway.. yes, AGAIN! haha.. we love subway.. yay! lol.. Yesterday nite, watched the VCD "win a date w/ tad Hamilton".. haha.. had a good laugh.. well, besides the good laugh, it gave me some points to ponder over.. lol..u may be thinkin, think about what? comic show only ma..haha.. nvm.. jus had some points to think of.. :)

Was too lazy to burn midnight oil to make cards fer all ma teachers.. I know, I should be more grateful.. but I was too tired.. only managed to do 2.. made fer mr tay and ms Agnes leong.. was not reelie well done.. ma mum said it was patchy and not so nice, so that also made me think twice about makin cards fer ma other teachers.. as all should know, I suck at art and all that sorts.. cant draw fer nuts.. so, ya lor.. only made 2 miserable cards.. lol..

today, had teachers day celebration.. only 2 items fer da concert cuz this year they incoporated games into da concert session..so, ya lor.. OMGoodness.. Mr sng is an eye candy lo..haha.. ok ok.. I know I sound crazy.. but, wow! I was amazed man.. he act until like so real.. I was tellin JM, mr sng reminds me of gene.. dunno y.. they dun even look the slightess alike.. most prob is mannerism ba.. haha.. :)

then durin the games sessions after aces day dance, all the sec4s jus hide in da classroon.. haha.. no mood to play ma.. so sleepy and everyone was so sticky and smelly.. hehe.. then I went with JM fer lunch..

after that, went to jamm with mervin and matt.. well, I learnt a few things today. first, I should have put more thought b4 goin fer da jammin session.. all ma fault, I nvr bring chords then we did not know what to play.. I felt so sad la.. felt a lil inferior.. heh.. matt so good at guit and keyb.. learnin drum also he pick up so fast.. when I see him, it is like seein da person that I wanna be.. the talents area I mean.. well, I 'll work on it after O's.. lol.. everything after O's.. oh ya.. voice also not bad sia.. lol.. it'll be good if he joins the band ba.. =) k.. wont say nemore bout it le..

erm.. oh ya.. heard that Dan lam played drum so well today.. great job dude! mayb u can teach me? haha.. lol.. I dont even think he reads ma blog.. but it would be good to learn from friends.. not so stressful.. hehe..

okie.. gtg.. gonna watch movie! :) hee. happy! God bless ya all..

sadness fer me.. *sobs*

*sobs* I got ma piano results today.. ma piano teacher bothered to collect it fer me and went thru each section with me.. when I saw that it was a pass.. A part of me was disappointed, but being me, I wont show it in front of ma piano teacher.. did not feel it THAT much.. but when I was in da car with ma dad.. the familiar creeped back.. I felt it.. It was the same feeling as last year.. *sobs* teary eyed, tryin not to vry.. that's why I decided to blog.. tryin not to cry..I am a miserable piano player la.. such a loser.. I only got a pass grade.. last year also.. and know what? last year and this year I got da exact same results.. *sobs* dunno la.. so sad..

why am I lousy at things I like? I love to play piano, I only pass.. I love dance, but cummon.. frankly, can u imagine me dancing? haha.. I like studyin lit, but max I get is a B grade.. mayb u think I am talking crap la.. but I am jus so so disappointed with maself.. u may think it is dumb.. but oh wells.. that is how I am feeling.. =(

hiya.. not gonna say nemore le la.. bye..

Birthdays..

wow.. JM has finally turned 16 le.. spent time with her after skool today.. we went to eat Subway.. yumm.... oh ya.. I gave her her prezzs on the first period.. cuz both our teachers did not come to class.. I went over to her class and stayed there till the end of da period.. haha.. seeing her open da bougous prezz was so farnie.. thanks to ma dad fer such an interesting idea..open n open until inside only has 2 chocolates.. hehe.. I could see her disappoinment building as the ''gift'' got smaller and smaller.. haha.. then when she saw da real prezz she said she loves me! haha.. love ya too JM! JMs are JMs.. woohoo..

after gettin our subway sandwiches, we went to TM n Century to jalan jalan.. Went to look fer ear rings fer her.. did not buy, but had a good time browsing.. We also went to Popular and Yamaha to Jalan jalan.. ma legs were already aching from yester's tae bo intensive kick boxing exercise.. haha.. oh ya.. tae bo is so fun!! makes aces day exercise so boring.. haha..

ok.. had a good time with jm today.. it has been so long since I actually spend time to go out with ma JM and walk walk.. last time every week also go out.. but now, cuz of O's we hardly have da time.. lol.. dun even have time to reply to ruin's letter.. sorry hon..

okie.. I feel super tired.. haiz~ I'm off fer now.. all of u out there take care aight? muacks!

Friendship..

talking with her gives me points to ponder over.. no, I dun feel that it is a pain nor am I sick of it.. I thank God fer lettin me meet her and lettin me talk to her.. Today, speaking with her got me thinkin about friendship.. how did I make friends in primary sch? was it a sch culture that made that difference? I am not too sure..

neway, to all who read ma blog.. do u take your friends forgranted? do u take advantage of them? I think having friends can be seen as an privilege.. and my belief is that God has given this privilege to everyone who wants it.. If we seek Him and we WANT this privilege, we can have it. As the Bible says, "ask and it shall be given unto you..." and the Lord " knows the desires of your heart". Praise da Lord fer His wonderful grace amen? =)

well, as I was thinking back.. I dont reelie know how I made friends reelie.. They kinda just, were there.. and like particles under cold temp(altho sg is soo hot), bonds form.. hehe.. that sounds funny.. too bad, I am stressed cuz of chem.. yeah.. ok, back to the point.. bonds form.. no matter what happens, these bonds are there.. like chemistry, these bonds can be weak or strong.. however, I believe that in friendship, these bonds are not broken until u say so..

IMO, we should judge how valuable he friendship is.. if your ''friend'' is jus makin use of u, break that bond or pray fer them and see how things go.. however, dun give up on friendship easily.. Dun look down on yourself and think thaty u do not deserve this privilege.. That's a lie of the devil (the puny black faced man).. ;)

okie.. that's all I gotta say on friendship.. hehe.. tell me if it's dumb.. yesterday, went to eat subway with jm.. I think the guy takin our order must have been very entertained by our madness yet frightened at the same time.. hehe.. he must have been thinkin " these gals are weird man".. haha.. yes.. we were goin crazy as usual, forgetting time and place.. teehee.. oops.. in sch uniform summore.. nvm.. at least our sch has funny pple.. got variety.. (man! lame excuse) haha.. =)

when I was walkin toward the control station guess who I saw? daniel lam.. lol.. I seem to bump into him ever so often.. haha. ok, not THAT often, but so often.. haha.. do u get what I mean? like, Arise concert and FOP.. I mean like, the indoor stadium is so big, but we always somehow end up at da same entrance.. super suprised.. then yeah.. yester's incident.. these kind of incidents make ma day man.. I miss ma pri sch peeps.. all because of O's, we meet less n less.. but I think after O's, things may change.. no doubt everyone has their sec sch peeps le, but as I said earlier.. the bonds are always there.. and when we meet again, the bonds are clearly visible..

okie.. I gotta go n study le.. ciao~

some thoughts..

ok.. I know el n ruin complain I nvr blog.. haha.. well.. I will start with yesterday's outpost outing.. we went to goat, veggie n fish farm.. It was quite fun fellowshipping a lil.. mervin went to take out da metal thing in his arm.. *ouch* the thing I rmbr most about da outing was uncle Eng kiat's devotion.. about the Hibiscus.. jus like God's blessings, a new Hibiscus grows everyday.. We are blessed everyday.. The Hibiscus can only survive for ONE day.. therefore, let us count our blessings day by day.. start a new day afresh and do not dwell on yesterday's worries.. =)

ok.. today went to Plaza Sing.. I just came home.. bout something from yamaha.. I feel like so long never go piano le.. actually only miss one lesson so far.. still got another week to go.. haiz~

Ok.. it is gettin so stressful.. so much math homework to be completed.. my goodness.. Oh Lord, save me! haha.. On fri, kinda led worship with lio.. I realised it has been so long since we led worship.. ever since gene went ns.. heh.. well, I am definitely looking fwd to after O's.. I know A's will come soon after that.. but who cares.. I wanna get ma O's over and done with.. and I pray ma results will be glorifying to God's name.. That's all I am askin for.. I know HE has a plan fer ma life.. and I trust Him in that..

I wanna thank God fer all ma friends.. love all ya guys yeah? A BIG hug to all of you who read this.. haha.. Have a blessed week ahead! :)

Love,

anthea

English oral--- Down!

Yay! I feel so happy.. suddenly so light hearted.. haha.. well, altho it was jus over this afternoon and I do not know ma results, it is much easier then our skool standard man.. PTL! God is so good.. =) amen!

This morning, had prayer meeting.. It feels like so long nvr have prayer meeting.. it felt good to pray together again.. I prayer against depression today.. Felt strongly against it.. so I prayed.. to all of u who are depressed.. it is decision.. no matter how long u have dwelled on it, lived in it, feed on it.. STOP! ok? it is fer ya own good.. and as ya friend I dun wanna see ya like that.. it pains me to see it.. ='(

ok.. prelims are like, gettin closer and closer.. it's scary man.. neways, dun wanna talk bout it la.. haha..

know what? ma gran took a cab home on sunday when we were suppose to meet her at da coffe shop.. we were so afraid something may happen to her cuz she is so weak.. spent so much time walkin around church area literally searching fer her.. oh my.. but ultimately, ma parents went home to check and she reached home soon after they arrived.. phew~ I wanna thank all the pple who help to search fer her and kept a look out.. woosh.. scary man..

yesterday was smsing mervin.. he said that he and lio were thinkin of askin some pple to join our band, or at least try em out.. I think that is a good idea.. dunno if gene will approve.. let's see how things go.. =)

k la.. that's about it.. oh ya.. one more thing, HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY LIO!! :)

First Aid

okie.. since el ask me to blog on first aid, then I shall! haha.. but will try to type at super speed.. lol.. Thank God! ALL of us passed! so happy.. somehow I feel unsatisfied that I got so low fer MCQ.. hiya.. nvm la.. lio still say I nvr study.. wei! I did ok.. haha.. :) oh well.. CPR got me a lil nervous cuz it's like in front of everyone.. and as usual, I always forget to call da ambulance.. u better not faint in front of me yeah? I resuscitate u, still haven call ambulance.. lol.. haha..

ok.. I must say, it was nice to interact will pple from other outposts that we have not seen b4.. ok, i wanna comment on this dude, Ryan. goodness.. firstly, I like his guit.. secondly, the way he play.. lol.. it is jus so nice.. somehoe reminds me of how gene plays.. jus nice la! I cant play liddat.. that's fer sure.. also, it was good to see gabe again.. it's been so long since he last came to rangers..

woosh! I am feelin so stressed.. prelims comin, but I am so tired and math is making me have head cramps.. lol.. and being in a cool place does not help.. haha.. neways, I will definitely do ma best and pray that God will do da rest! =) amen! in faith, it WILL be done..

I have decided, not retaking chinese.. ma dad say nvm la, dun bother.. I have this urge to burn ma chinese shou che page by page man.. lol.. but I wont la.. da haze affecting m'sia bad ennuff le.. keke.. okie.. well, that is about all I have got to say..

ps:/ pple who visit ma blog, leave a tag leh.. =) God bless ya all.. *Hugs*

Chinese O's results

ok.. Chinese results came out today.. I got B3 fer papers and Merit fer paper 3.. usually I get about this kinda marks? yeah.. but fer O's it is considered what? I dunno.. I felt quite reliefed at first.. then when pple who got same grades as me started cryin their eyes out, I tot, mayb I should not be happy after all.. I dunno..

now, I am also in a dilema.. to retake or not to retake? That is the question.. lol.. I dun wanna.. I SERIOUSLY do not want to.. I dun wanna touch chinese till I am forced to in JC.. that is, if I make it to a JC.. how? should I retake? haiz~ ma dad even congratulate me.. haha.. I am one confused person now.. sitting on da fence, between two different sides.. :/

neway, I jus came home from skool.. goodness! when I was walkin back home, suddenly from no where came a strong wind.. I almost got upskirtted.. lol.. thank God no one was around and I quickly push ma skirt down.. lol..

somehow, cuz of ma O's results, I feeling non only confused.. I feel so numb.. hmm.. oh well.. oh ya.. I wonder if ma kor comin back from canada this month.. he has not replied to ma mail yet.. It sure has been long..

later guys!

FOP again!!

woohoo!! I am so happy and blessed and awed.. I really wanna thank God fer da three nites of FOP.. I am so glad that I went fer all three nites.. I read mr Z's blog.. yeah.. Delirious is a more of soaking kinda thing.. and wow.. ma tag board also quite excited wo.. FOP FOP FOP!! woot! haha.. I bought Delirious' cd.. It is awesome.. Looks like I am jus too addicted to chirstian songs amen? woosh! I am so happy..

This morning did Amath RGS paper.. oh my.. I feel dumb..haha.. so many questions cannot do.. and I can spend 20mins on ONE question.. how great is that? lol.. I did it fer about 2hours and I am still at paper one.. heh..

ok.. today is national day.. hmm.. let's jus say that I am glad it is a holiday cuz there is soooo much homework to be cleared.. haha.. ma parents have gone off to m'sia with both ma bros this morning, fer da day.. I am here in sg tryin to clear ma piles of work.. not that I mind la.. m'sia.. ok la.. haha.. i am not in da mood to shop there..

yesterday, had piano.. will not have piano fer next two weeks.. haiz~ nvm la.. then I practice more on ma own first lo.. as ya all know, ma rythm is bad.. lol.. and I still wanna learn drum.. talk about tryin too hard.. hee.. ok ok.. I should have more faith in me? yes? hahaha..

these months, too busy to G4C. at most, reply PMs only..sorry guys.. esp wz..

okie.. that's all I can think of to say.. haha.. take care ya all.. and see u guys soon..

Festival of Praise!!

wow! It was truly awesome.. I felt so blessed.. the prescence of God was so strong.. I sang terribly.. but who cares?! ok.. mayb da pple beside me gotta tahan.. haha.. but it is all unto God.. hehe.. and He wont mind la.. hee..

I think da main singer from Delirious was so good.. Voice and talent of an angel man.. The joy that radiats from his face when he sees da pple worshipping God is so bright.. know what I mean? makes him look so angelic.. heh.. ok ok.. As usual, I love Darlene's voice. yes! she was saved in a Royal Rangers camp! cool eh?

haha.. when it was offering time, I thought of ma financial management.. as u all should know by now, I have super poor financial management.. this month was a suprise.. Decided to give offering fer missions Love offering till I felt da pinch.. I knew I lacked a week's allowance.. but I felt that God told me to put that amt in da offering bag, so I jus gave in faith.. guess what! I have just the right amt.. I have sufficient! God is awesome amen? =)

Praise and Glory be unto Him..

okie.. know what shar, ana and I named our uncle for letter writing? Uncle apple, pear n orange! haha.. lame rite? I sure hope that will put a smile on mrs foo's face.. haha.. comments are bound to be written..

know what? I showed da photo I took with baby Alton to some of ma friends.. since I am fat and I was super tired that day.. in da pic, looks as if I jus gave birth.. some pple actually believed me.. hahaha.. had a good time laughin man.. me? pregnant? erm........... heh..

ok.. lastly, today had da Be Yourself Day presentation.. It was so cool.. I know PY does not read ma blog.. but I think we should thank her fer her screams.. she reelie puts effort fer da class.. and a lot of effort to add.. jus that our class not cooperative.. btw: laughin is not a crime lo! heh.. U dunno what I am talking about rite?

ok la.. I gotta sleep le.. I feel so tired.. typin this and ma eyes are half open.. hahaha.. good nites pple!! *hugs* (to ya'll)

Rainy Rainy days...

It rained a zoo on sat! I was carryin an umbrella but was totally drenched.. haha.. then ma mum brought me xtra clothes, but she brought wrongly.. all ma dad's stuff except da shirt which was the thing I needed least.. lol.. but ok la.. ma jeans dried after a couple of hours.. :)

Had piano yesterday.. ma teacher ask me to try another piece.. Some piece that is suppose to be very relaxing one i think.. haha.. but he's goin fer reservice fer 2 weeks.. that means to piano fer 2 weeks.. :( oh well.. lookin on da bright side, I got more time to catch up with ma slow movin revision and can practice more on piano on ma own first.. hee..

I rmbr sayin last time, I miss playin with da band.. somehow, the feel is different.. cant wait fer O's to end.. then I can upgrade ma skills.. lol.. what a social studies way to put it.. haha..

neways, I reelie pray I can make it fer prelims.. Aim is to go to SAJC.. left about 4 weeks only.. and I have not started.. I am serious.. Weekends is supposed to be the time I have more time on ma hands to study.. but it seems that I have less.. oh well.. I have to do do do! chiong chiong chiong le..

ok.. I will end here.. =) go play piano a while then sleep le.. got 2 tests tmr..

Good week

Praise the Lord this week has been good! :) Startin with monday.. Had piano after skool.. Had to rush thru lunch cuz the pple cook so slow.. suppose to have half hour to eat.. in the end, I swallowed all ma food within 8mins.. lol.. neway, I felt so weird.. walkin in parkway with pants and shirt but carrying a bulky skool bag and shoe bag.. no choice ma.. I was going esplanade with ma mum fer da choral concert.. piano was good as usual.. enjoyable that is.. then I was desperate, so called ma dad to come and fetch me, or at least ma bag.. in the end he fetched me and then we went to fetch ma mum..

the concert was nice! should have heard da voices man.. haha.. cool! It was reelie awesome.. I was super tired after that.. so, did not do ne homework..

yay! I got highest fer emath common test! together with sarah aini.. oh well.. then sharleen and I started comparing whose sticker nicer.. lame rite? can u belive we are sec 4s? lol.. funny la.. hahaha..

ok.. then today had racial harmony celebration.. I wore a sari.. yes. a sari.. the fats show la.. no matter what.. I look pregnant in all da photos sia.. haha.. some say I look mature.. some say sexy.. liars! hahhahaa.. okok.. but it was fun.. first time wearin ethnic cozzie in all ma four years.. :) fun! thanks shalom! (ok, like she'll read this la) ;)

ok.. there is cg later.. I will end here.. visiting city harvest this sun.. cuz got ps mike connel.. I cant spell.. but yeah.. if u know who I am talkin about, then u know who I am talkin about.. haha..

Relative velocity!! argh!!!

oh man! Relative velocity is killin all ma brain cells.. stayed back in skool to study relative velocity with jazreel, dharshini and two other gals.. sharon(junior) and mathalia.. It was so stressful.. when we can do, it was very motivational.. but when we cant do, it is so stressful.. haha..

ok.. today was aight.. got to continue watchin da chinese show.. the boy is so cute.. so sad, he likes a les.. but I am sure in the end she will be with da guy la.. haha.. when da guy cry cuz da girl reject him, he looks so poor thing.. lol.. the show is so nice yet hilarious.. all lit pple.. notice da use of repititions in da movie? hahhahaa.. hilarious..

ok.. not much else happened.. I'm tired.. haha.. to wz korkor: thanks fer all ya encouragement man.. I will definitely do ma best and try to start ma revison now..

God, forcive me fer da gossiping today.. sorry I could not resist.. Please also help thta person to STOP IT! arrgh.. I guess u all dunno what I am talkin about.. but what I heard today, totally grossed me out.. arrrgghh!!! *yucks*

That's life fer us all

Today was definitely an exciting day.. our eng teacher shared with us her success love story.. as well as those failed ones.. when she cried b4 sharing about one of her breaks, ma heart reached out to her.. suprisingly, it was dejavu.. When she started crying, it was as if I had been in that scene b4..

She is an awesome story teller man.. We all love her.. In the end, we did not do assignments.. almost 2 full hours of her stories.. I love mrs foo.. haha..she's jus so cute and nice..

ok.. had chem today.. Eth left fer new york this morning.. now I am sitting all alone.. I think this decison she has made is so risky man.. yesterday, we took pics.. mayb cuz I am not so close to her ba.. I offered a handshake.. but later decided to give her a hug as well.. sitting beside her in class can actually be kinda motivational.. haha.. cuz she mugs so much..

yeah.. mayb I will save someone from some other pple.. haha.. dun mean to be mean.. but some pple might wanna sit beside me and abandon their present partners rite? haha.. frankly, I dun mind sitting alone.. I am kinda da person who does not mind being alone once in a while.. as I have said b4.. spending time with maself is one of da things I like ta do.. hee.. :)

yup! that's about it fer now.. I wanna end with da lyrics to a song.. hmm.. what song leh? ok.. It is well ba.. =)

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,

When sorrows like sea billows roll;

Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,

It is well, it is well, with my soul.

It is well, with my soul,

It is well, with my soul,

It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Rain down on me...

Everytime it rains, I think of da Planetshaker song, 'Rain Down'.. Praise the Lord.. these few days it has been raining like crazy.. I got drenched tryin to fetch elliot from violin class.. but I still thank God.. I L-O-V-E da rain.. haha.. That day, I pray fer rain and it started to rain.. yay!

ok.. I love even week weds.. slackest day.. Besides da tests.. but I find taking math tests can be quite interesting.. as in like, if it is not hard, yet not so easy.. and u manage to do da sums.. then u are like.. yeah! not bad.. haha..

On monday, I went fer piano.. Piano was fun.. I jus love piano la.. Got to play winter sonata and some piece from this piano book I bought some time back fer ma Rangers Bachelor merit.. Cuz ma piano exam jus over ma, so ma piano teacher let me play new pieces, not fer exam de.. I miss playing pieces that aint fer exams.. haha..

ok.. the stress is gettin to me.. prelims are like, 5 weeks away and I have not even started revision.. Oh well.. die die also must start this week.. Anthea! buck up!

neways, praise God fer everything.. May all that we do glorify His name.. amen.

~if music be the food of love, play on~

The way things are...

Hey everyone..

ok.. had O's chinese listening compre today.. It was tricky.. yes.. I think I can pass.. but I tot it was not easy.. well, like Mr Z, ma chinese is super duper ultra lousy.. haha.. but I thank God that it is over and that probability of passing not too bad.. hee.. =)

yesterday was suprising.. I was walkin out thru cedar ave way with JM after chem remedial.. then in da distance I saw this dude in a cap and wearin this grey shirt. I was like, hmm... That shirt looks like the same as gene's de.. then I was like, that guy looks like gene.. but of coz, he is suppose to be NS ma.. so I jus continue talkin to JM.. as usual, goin crazy and get super tired after all da laughin.. then that dude called ma name.. I was like, it's gene! haha.. caught me by suprise.. pleasant suprise..

jus nice, he came to mind when I was in skool.. coinscidental.. lol.. neways, yeah.. recently got da urge to keep playin keyb and guit.. but somehow, when I play guit, I cant like 'enter worship'.. I dun like da sound of ma playing.. lol.. yet I am teaching ruin how to play guit.. Ironic huh? haha..

oh yeah.. jus now, went to church fer a Bible Study sess on 1st John.. By Dr Neil Patterson.. He's good and funny.. but time passed quite slowly.. mayb cuz I was tired ba.. haha.. It was a good and interesting sess.. he said smth that reminded me of what gene told me b4.. Jus to share a 'story' Dr Neil shared..

one day.. satan was sitting at da side of da road crying.. Jesus went up to him and asked 'why are u crying?' Satan said,' those Christians keep blaming me for things I did not do..'

get it? haha.. well.. wat dr neil was tryin to say is that 90% of our actions come from us.. we do not do wrong cuz of da devil.. it is our doing and our descision.. so, we should not blame da devil fer everything.. when he said this, I rmbred that some time back, gene told me da same thing.. Mayb he dun even rmbr le.. neways.. yeah.. I guess we should jus stop blaming da devil or he will cry.. hehe..

okie.. that's all I gotta say le.. will post lyrics to a song in ending off.. This is da chorus to a song by Alawn.. titled, Faith.. dude, hope u dun mind me postin ya lyrics on ma blog.. :)


Chorus:

But all, all that I want is you,

Hiding beneath your wings, where I know,

I’m safe from the cold with you, I’m safe here with you.

interesting day

today, went fer piano.. decided to go straight after lit remedial so I can eat tang yuan first b4 goin fer lesson.. yummm..... then something intereating happened in Parkway.. btw: I like marine parade da foodcourt e tang yuan.. haha..

then.. I sat down.. this woman came up to me and ask if she can sit with me.. I was like, sure! I am sitting alone neways.. so she sat with me.. then she started tellin me about a cookbook that she 'created'.. not sellin in bookstores but online.. Her world mag and some chinese paper interviewed her or smth also.. so, we chat chat a lil.. haha.. nice lady..

then I went fer piano.. aaron (ma piano teacher) did not buy new books yet, so I played some scores from ma present exam book.. I was lousy sia.. but I think it was fun.. well.. music ma.. =D

man! I am so tired.. almost dozed off after recess.. must be lack of sleep these days.. oh well.. it is a matter of gettin good sleep some time later.. kie.. if ya all got time go see that nice lady's webbie.. da add is..

http://family-treasures.biz/

Amath

today.. a thought jus came over me while we were doin amath.. cuz, we were learnin about vectors.. then that is da only topicI learn from tuition before I quit.. I felt very guilty and sorry.. mostly like, sorry toward mr Tay.. I feel like I am so irresponsible.. change ma mind so fast.. :(

neways.. today I am very tired.. Had to wake up at 5am to send ma mum to da airport.. she go Bangkok with her cousin.. shopping wor.. I am so jealous.. hahaha.. she will be back on monday.. haha..

ok.. that's all fer now.. I will try to catch a wink ltr..

piano exam grade4. done!

hahhaa.. ok.. I jus came back from ma piano exam.. as above, Grade 4. to many of ma peers, Grade4 is no big. But to me, it is! JM said I looked more worried about ma piano exam then ma O'level chinese oral.. I told her music more impt then skool to me.. hahah.. well, what I meant is that, I love music more la.. so, it is more impt to me.. :) I LOVE MUSIC! lalala..

well.. overall ok la. But thank God fer bein with me.. also, I wanna express ma thanks to all who have been prayin fer me and encouraging me.. namely, JM, ben, wz korkor and all those who wished me durin da day b4 ma piano exam.. thanks ya all.. but I think I cant get distinction la.. ma singing was bad. playing, I was so nervous, hands almost trembling.. haha.. but da examiner was very nice.. God answered ma prayer.. I got a male examiner.. I read his profile while waiting.. Looks like he was a music director in his church.. fer 9 years wor.. per fu pei fu..

okie.. yesterday had extra piano lesson.. did singing and listening pract fer the whole 45mins. hiya.. anthea's aural is jus bad la.. haha..

oh well.. i thank God fer everything and everyone.. :) Praise and glory be to Him..

God is amazing...

as above.. I have been sick.. so, not much on forum and blog these few days.. First off, I wanna share about sunday.. I was ill, but still went to church. Uncle steven came back from auzzie and he preached a wonderful sermon.. :) well.. at da end of da svc, he said he sensed God was asking him to ask all those who are sick to come foward so he can pray fer them.. I was one of them, so I went to da front.. little did I know of what would happen next..

When other leaders had prayed fer me, uncle steven prayed fer me.. But he did not pray fer healing! he more of prophecied over me.. I was richly blessed that day.. y? not jus cuz of da prophecy.. I have been praying fer God to speak to me this way fer months and months already. but it never happened.. I felt quite discouraged.. and after that sunday, ma prayer was answered! Praise be to God! God is truly so amazing..

I do not know whether to share about da prophecy.. I will see about that.. =D

ok.. I wanna talk bout Alawn. dude, ya songs are great and I have reelie been blessed by them.. keep writing dude.. =)

I have finished all ma antibiotics.. but still got bad cough.. loads of phlegm.. God will heal me according to ma faith. So, I believe. this reminds me, one of da leaders prayed fer me, 'God, u heal ma sister according to her faith.....' when he said this, God asked me, do u have faith? so, at that moment, I said, yes yes I believe I believe.. and I did feel better.. ma throat was not so sore.. etc etc..

yesterday.. I was suddenly feelin totally stressed out.. felt like I was gonna break down.. I reelie wanna thank God fer ma family.. I had a talk with ma dad and I felt so much better.. I also wanna thank God fer ma friends.. Like, PQ. so sweet. yesterday she called to ask about homework.. then ask how I was feelin and all.. yes. I think it is so sweet and caring of her to do that.. Thank God fer everything.. :)

oh no! Piano exam on 6th July! I am so scared.. it is like next week? and ma piano cher has not even done any singing exercises with me yet.. I am so bad at that section.. well, gonna walk in in faith.. and play the best I can play, and sing the best I can sing.. the rest, i leave in da plams of ma daddy Jesus.. =)

okie.. I'm off now..

Jesus I love u, 4eva and eva amen.....

Shopping..

I went shopping with ma dad at orchard today.. I did not buy nething, but I am glad that I could spend time with ma dad.. First time in ma life going borders.. Lol.. but I think it is a neat place.. nice.

man.. I fall sick liao.. what timing sia.. skool gonna start and I have not finished ma homework.. feel terrible.. headache, sorethroat, fever, blocked nose.. haiz~ ma dad say it is a hangover from JTC.. mayb ba.. I have been super rosy cheeked since end of JTC.. now then fever come.. haiz.. I am gonna claim healing.. well.. I dun mind seeing a doc.. better then feelin this way.. haiz.. keep having to drink water.. then keep running to da toilet.. viscious cycle.. lol..

keep me in prayers ok? thanks.. k la. that is all fer today.. love ya guys.. keep it real..
anthea :)

Batman Begins

hmm... watched batman begins last nite.. wow! I think it is reelie good.. I totally enjoyed da movie.. but it ended so late.. I was so tired.. but when it came to doing QT it felt good.. It is like, finding out more about someone that u love so much.. aww.. in love with Jesus.. :) shiok! haha..

Oh ya! last nite, before da movie, I took neoprints with ma bros.. it was so cute and fun.. well, we were too slow, then end up wasting 15shots.. but nvm la.. at least I had fun with them.. wasted was that we wanted to let ma youngest bro stand on the thigh of ma other bro and me, but then they times up us.. neways, it was a fun experience.. =)

ok.. Today, went with ma folks fer breakfast again.. and did some homework.. well.. at least now, lit , bio and eng are completed.. ma headache is all da math and chem.. 11 papers in all.. X( but neways, see how things go la.. worse come to da worse.. wait until sch reopen and still chiong lor.. woosh.. I need strength.. keep me in prayers okie? xie xie..

know what? I miss playin as a band.. It has been so long since da last time we played together.. last time was like, in march? lol.. now gene also in NS.. so, no one initiates.. and I have ma O's this year.. now, lio and I not even asked to be song leader liao.. oh well.. I am still praying.. hee..

ok.. what else have I got to say? I had a great time with ma family last ntie? that's da gist of it.. haha.. and also, band.. keep us in prayers yeah? =)

cya all..

Operation Falcons!!

yeah! OF rocks! what is Operation Falcons? my patrol name during JTC. It was a lot of fun although this was a trng camp.. the move of the Lord was reelie great also.. thank God that many of ma dad's boys received God as their Lord and received da baptism of da Holy Spirit. Praise be to God amen? amen!

ok ok.. back to ma patrol.. I reelie wanna thank God.. cuz on da first day ma patrol like no togetherness.. a lil selfish here and there.. but after that, we got closer, bonds formed, and we had more togetherness.. ma patrol mates are an awesome bunch.. haha.. since we were da only girl JTC patrol, we purposely do all da bimbo bimbo kind of cheers and songs.. not exactly ma type.. where got chubby bimbo rite? haha.. but it was good fun la.. I think our skit was not bad also..

woah.. never had 3 consecutive days of council fires b4.. haha.. good fun good fun.. and as I mentioned earlier God's move was great.. even fer da ATCs.. haha.. first time I see lio strict strict one.. cuz he junior commander ma.. haha..

Woah, there are too many things fer me to say man.. what else.. oh yes! we did Dutch Oven cooking.. loads of work man.. but then the food was great.. first day, no experience, so food all either uncooked or over cooked.. haha.. but second day onwards good le.. :)

woosh.. how should I cont saying.. erm.. we made this structure called a chapewa.. It is a dining table cum seat cuz waching area cum fire place.. all made of ropes and wood alone..cool eh? it was loads of work.. but worth it.. shiok sia..

Ok.. I dunno what else to say le. Guchhi handbang patrol! lol...

neways, In all things thruout da camp.. Praise be to God and Him alone! yeah!!

JTC comin' up tmr

Tmr goin fer JTC (Junior Training Camp).. hmm.. I dunno whether to be excited or scared.. haha.. but I am sure it is gonna be loads of fun.. :)

I am so slack today.. Wanted to go orchard, did not go. Wanted to jog on threadmill, did not do it. I dunno what's up with me man.. I pack a lil fer da camp, then play a lil guit. then I jus sit there and stone.. then listen to music, lie on da bed and stone again.. so weird..

neways, I feel a bit empty.. dunno why.. maybe cuz the fear that the holidays are comin to an end and I still have not completed ma homework is creeping in.. lol.. Jus now, I told wz kor2 that I had to do homework.. in the end, did not even take it out. kor2: u good hor.. watch musical.. haha..

ok la.. I'm off.. will see what I can update when i come back from camp..
later~

Beautiful Creation of God

As above.. if you note, it is da addie of ma blog.. haha.. yeah.. y I put that as da title? cuz I saw a rainbow today.. haha.. I think it is reelie beautifull.. amazing thing? it had not even rained.. I felt happy jus seeing that 'Beautiful creation of God'.. haha.. =)

ok.. had piano today.. so funny.. dunno what happened to da girl b4 me.. she like nvr come, then ma piano cher sit on da chair and was sleeping.. I knock da door he still haven't wake up.. so, I jus open the door.. then he wake up.. his eyes all red.. I feel pai seh, like disturbin him.. but lesson time mah.. hee.. :D neways, piano was good.. I like, cuz it helps me relax.. and I want to play piano since I started in K1.. but stoppend after K2.. so, Thank God.. yeah!

ok.. I am angry with this hairdresser.. haha.. I went to cut ma hair today.. I ask her to thin ma hair.. she say cannot, ma hair already thin. so I say, layer then.. she say cannot layer.. then I was like huh? ok lor.. jus cut ma frindge shorter.. she like nehow cut liddat.. oh my.. both sides not even equal length if I tie.. =( arrgghh.. nvm.. what's done is done.. and ma hair will still grow.. :/

*yawns* jus now, I was so shag.. but still went to play on da threadmill.. haha.. fer fun only la.. so, jus did 0.8km.. haha.. I did it in jeans since I jus came back.. so fun sia.. looks like I will be doin more running now.. :D

oh ya! father's day comin.. I dunno what to buy leh.. got suggestions neone?

Marriage

Woah! I just came back frm ma dad's colleuge's daughter's wedding dinner. it was great food man.. haha.. Had to go in place of ma mum cuz she was busy. oooOOOooo.. the bride is sho pretty.. I wish I can get married one day.. ahhahahhaa.. ONE DAY.. Y am I thnkin of tt now rite? haha..

ok.. what else.. yeah church was good today.. wow! Look at jeff play da drum.. power man! haha..

k la.. I finally started on SOME homework.. still got loads more to go.. hehhehe.. well.. lil progress.. :) kie.. I wanna sleep soon.. if got energy, clear a lil more homework..

THREADmill comin tmr.. ;) can't wait! hee.........

good nite folks!

Yahooooooo!!

wow! I am so happy.. ma mum went to buy a tradmill.. ok, I cant spell.. U know, the thingy u run on? those in the gym? hahaha.. Looks like I will be doin much more running now.. hope it will bring ma weight down,and ma stamina up.. hee..

emmy: weizhi say u got great stamina.. any tips fer me? haha..

yeah! just came back from bowling.. won ma whole family fer da first round.. then second round, tied with ma dad for first place.. hee.. :D so happy.. haha.. first time in ma life I got 100points.. hee.. yeah!

okie.. tuition was good today.. what else can I say? I dun wan lum lum nemore? hee.. no la.. she is a great cher.. jus that when she walks pass ma table, my heartbeat increses so trememdously that I think I may get a heart attack.. =( hee..

rite.. that's all I gotta say..thanks fer poppin by pple.. love u guys..

anthea

woah! leg pain ah!!!

hee.. ma legs are aching man.. haha.. I went jogging yeaterday.. not long dist, bout 1.8km only.. but ma legs were achin when I woke up this morning.. haha.. then went fer lit seminar.. walked at orchard fer so long man.. y so long? cuz jamie wanna cut hair, but she want cheap cheap and look proff one.. oh my.. took so long to find a suitable shop man.. then also, we craving for steak.. so, tried to find jack's place.. in the end? cant find, eat KFC only. lol..

neways, ma legs are aching.. hee.. woah.. 2 days after ma bdae still got bdae prezz wor.. haha.. from PQ.. thanks gal.. =)

ok.. I am super duper ultra tired, sweaty and stinky.. hahha.. (learn da super duper ultra thing from zelig. no copyright hor?) hahaha..

know wat? jamie's hair, they cut until like bung hairstyle.. wow! she reelie looks different.. haha... fresh look.. at least she is not a bung la.. haha.. oh ya! And i think I saw timon today.. some pri4 sch friend.. he super weird man.. stand in front of me and jamie on da escalator, then keep lookin behind lookin behind.. then quickly turn around.. u know me ma, say hi lor.. hahaha.. mayb he not sure if I am reelie anthea bax.. hahahhaa..

okie.. that's all fer today.. haha.. still goin fer ma cuzz's bday party.. go shower 1st.. hee...

Birthday.. lalallalalala..

woot woot. I am super happy.. haha.. as some of u know (or 4gotten), ma folks blessed me with ma very own pocket pc.. yeah! happy happy.. haha.. I was super suprised.. haha.. woosh.. thank God.. =)

ok.. yesterday, saw gene at somerset. went fer lit seminar at STU. It was quite good. Altho, not exactly super interesting. But I think the speaker was not too bad. Jazreel 4got to bring her ticket. scare me man. But in the end, they let her in la.. haha.. phew~

okie. I got nothing to say le.. haha..

-Happy Birthday to me-

strange

today, woke up early in da morning to have breakfast with mum and dad, then went with dad to send mum to work. after that, helped dad shift things from his old sch no a new place. woah.. a lil tiring. cuz slept late last nite. haha.. I good gal hor? hee... =)

ok.. then had piano lesson. as usual, I reelie enjoy it altho we keep playing da same stuff.. Cuz piano is so relaxing fer me.. Haha..

strange thing is, after piano, went to meet ma bro and dad at marine parade. on the way, I thot I saw gene.. from a distance ma.. look so alike. then when look closely, cheh. it's not him. strange.. fer a mo, I tot I was so sure. lol.

neways, gtg le. going to leave da house to have dinner with mum soon.. hee.. Holland V.

ciaoz~