Pierced ears!

Yay! I finally pierced my ears yesterday. Surprisingly, it was as JM said. not pain de. only a lil burning sensation in the ears, jus like a hot day. haha.. RuYing was being a meanie and a saddist.. saying 'not fair! Y u dont feel pain and I did' haha.. my dad video recorded the process.. she was just for laughs.. haha.. I pierced at a goldsmith near church. JM came along to pierce the hole that she closed up previously. now, she is well balanced. haha.. if u know what I mean. I cant wait to remove my this set of ear rings and try new pairs. I pray I wont become too obsessed. but I think I can control myself la.. :D

Yesterday watched movie again. yes.. I watched movie again. Ha li po te. I really think it is fine. well, to those pple who do not think I should have watched. let me just say, it is my conviction and I have prayed about it. going with a clear conscience and a peaceful heart as well as mind. okie?

just now went subway with JM..yum... poor Jing wen got stung by a bee.. so, we brought her to the docs near sch. the doc was like teaching us how to remove the sting next time.. I am so ashamed.. I am a certified first aider and I could not rmbr what to do.. haiz~ felt so useless..

at Subway, as usual, the aunty was happy to see us.. and the 'uncle' was again, really shy.. haha.. oh wells..

then I went to the club with my dad and elliot. they swam. I was reading 'I Kissed Dating Goodbye' cool book.. I love it.. I like reading Christian lit. it is so relaxing and I believe it helps spiritual maturity.. :D

hee.. okie.. that's about it for now.. take care u all.. love yas..

Tired.. camp..

As some of you know, I went for a rangers camp on sat. like, the day after my O's end? yeah.. haha.. so now, I am really tired.. RuYing is staying over! yay! she is like, here, now.. haha.. well, on fri I slept for like 4 hours? I bet many of u like JM, slept in.. all the lil piggys.. hehe.. jk jk..

then as usual, camp, we dont sleep so early la.. so, 6 hours.. was so so tired.. The camp was really fun. We had outdoor cooking (not exactly my fave) and we slept with aircon! haha.. There was a point of time I was quite unhappy.. well, let's just say I did not feel that my patrol pple gave me the respect they ought to. am I that easy to step on? lol.. I am like, sec4 and they are like, in middle sch? lol.. but dun get me wrong.. they are really cute and funny pple..

for example, Ondrea? she can walk into the same dustbin twice! and can like, trip over her own feet.. lol.. and she named Lydia's bear Thomas.. haha.. it was hilarious.. u see her talking to a bear.. yes. talking.. haha..

our cooking was really not bad u know.. haha.. we anyhow huntum also nice.. lol..the campfire was cute.. Benjamin, a DR kid laughed till he fell off his chair.. so cute rite? kids are so cute.. I must say, although this camp was so so short. we had our ups and downs as a group.. neways, yeah. realised that Bryan is so good at leading campfire.. he has it..

as usual, I take the guitar and dump to lionel.. haha.. I mean, lead songs with my girls, ok la.. for everyone? hm............. no thanks.. haha.. so, I dump the guit to lio.. then as usual, he say he very long never play liao..

know what? I think ma dad's boys are so talented.. too tired to name examples la.. they are just a cute and cool bunch..

Sent conrad to the airport today.. he has gone cambodia for a week.. CIP. gonna miss him man.. well, I'm just praying that he would have a good learning experience and come back safe and sound.. today, he smiled so much.. this bro of mine doesnt smile much these days.. but oh well.. I guess I need to take time to get to know my bro more.. he is a growing boy.. I believe God's hand of protection is on him.. :D

ok la.. I very tired.. cya all arounds.. later~ :D

O-V-E-R!!!!!!!!

YEAH! I could smell freedom.. now I feel it, touch it, savour it.. what u will.. haha.. came back not too long ago.. watched 'jus like heaven' with JM.. lol.. pple were like couples watching together, and we were like, sisters watching together! haha.. I think it was nice.. JM said quite nice.. but I think 'quite' is an understatement.. haha.. loved it.. well, u know,, romance shows.. me likes.. haha.. :D

RuYing can Stay over on SUNDAY! YEAH! my life begins today! yeah! so many things I wanna do.. dunno where to begin.. but oh well.. got camp tmr.. that's where it begins I guess.. besides my movie today.. and yes! u guessed it.. I ate Subway! the aunties were like.. 'that's it already ah?' haha.. then we were like, YEAH! haha.. 'uncle' as usual was super shy.. haha.. he so funny la.. always so shy one..

so, yup.. know what? I reelie feel so grateful.. my O levels has truly been amazing.. I thank God for being with me all the way.. yes. this is my first time completing revision. hehe.. dunno if that's a good or bad thing. but neways. Thank God! I finished revision, and God always gave me that kinda peace. u know.. HE's just so amazing and wonderful. also, sending so many pple to encourage me.. even JM.. in fact, esp JM.. she is always givin me a ring at the right times.. and makin me laugh till I feel too tired.. haahaha..

today, for the first time, we said to each other 'play hard'! haha.. we always 'part' by saying 'study hard'.. today really rocks I tell u.. I feel so happy.. I couldnt help feeling that kind of joy.. haha.. :D Praise God! thank God for everything.. regardless of my results.. I praise and thank Him.. and to ALL.. and I mean ALL my wonderful godsent friends and encouragers

(RuYing, JM, Mr Z, aunty Kwai Ying, cmdr sera, cmdr Julie, my folks, WZ kor, kor, lio, Isabel, CG pple) thanks so so much.. every lil' thing that u said really spurred me on.. and made my day.. okie.. have to pack for tmr's camp.. cya all.. :D and love ya all loads.. :D nitez.. ZZZZzzzzzzz........

ONE MORE DAY!!!!! yay!

hehe.. I am already in "carefree" mood.. haha.. dont know if it will affect my paper tmr leh.. but I did cover the syllabus la.. however, it was the minimum.. I feel really really blessed.. so many pple have kept me in prayers and spurred me on.. Aunty Julie just dropped by to pass me some chem notes.. so sweet hor? I love my cmdrs man.. haha.. altho we dont see eye to eye all the time. it's human nature rite?

I will take a look at her noted b4 sleeping.. My paper is in the afternoon tmr.. :D so, I will wake up late. like 10am? hee.. I slept like a pig this afternoon again.. hee.. JM knows me so well.. too well in fact.. haha.. the moment she smsed me, I just woke up. then she said smth like 'I bet u just slept 3 hours' haha.. spot on! lol.. :D

tmr, my paper ends at about 6pm.. haha.. then we are gonna watch a movie.. piercing my ears on tues! yay! haha.. dun laugh at me.. my parents ask me to go to my family doc to pierce.. safer ma.. :D at first I was like, 'so paraniod'? then I decided, they worry cuz they love and care ma.. :D

ok la.. I go and do some last min touch ups to my revision le la.. :D wish me all the best.. camp coming up on sat.. :D yay! Girls, I'm back! hehe..

one more week!

PQ: hey gal, no probs la.. and as I said, I dont believe in luck. so, let u shake my hand also no diff.. haha.. :D my lit also not good leh.. haha.. u should shake Jazreel's hand if u believe in passing of luck'.. haha..

Mr Z: thanks for the encouragement dude.. U always make me feel less morried some how.. haha.. xie ni millions and ka-zillions.. :D

Gloria: glad I am not your pet.. *shows choking face*

RuYing: honey, dun feel so down.. and rmbr what I told u yeah? Being close to God is not a feeling. it's a decision.. :D love u always dearest cousin..

haha.. okie.. let me start talking about my day.. my dad brought his new colleuge to church this morning.. know what? he's my sch invigilator.. hahaha.. I was, dunno what to say.. so nvr say nething.. might see him tmr.. as I said b4, about half e invigilators are frm ma dad's sch.. so, ya lor.. no suprise.. hehe..

then my folks cooked mee sua for lunch.. it was yummy to me.. but they were not satisfied with their outcome.. haha.. but I enjoyed it.. well, I wont talk about the sad parts of the day.. but to sum it all up, my knuckles are bruised again.. hehe.. dun worry.. I am fine..

tmr is lit paper.. I am just having the 'all in the Lord's hand' mentallity.. like what Mr Z said, just do my best lo.. cant wait for this week to be over..

Aunty Kwai Ying always makes my day on Sundays.. she gives me a hug every Sunday.. today I kinda officially became her 'goddaughter'.. lol.. too lazy to say the details altho it isnt much.. y? cuz I wanna watch cartoon.. :D hee.... I know I'm kiddish.. but I like it.. Mulan 2.. haha.. okeiz.. ciao..

HALF down!!

yeah! lieterally half ma papers are down! :D Praise the Lord! know what? I just realised today that almost all the invigilators coem from my dad's skool.. yes! almost all.. i thought it was only 6? then he showed me his year book and I was like, this teacher too? and her too? wow! I think so many sia.. they all look stoner during exam.. well, invigilating must be boring? I dunno..

well, Emath was awesome! I think that is the only one I reeeeelie want an A1.. I was tellin JM, if I get A2 I might cry.. siao rite? I dunno.. but she also quite confident of A1 la.. praying hard.. :D today, Lit was so "easy".. so sad.. while waitin for my dad to pick me up, I almost cried.. I was hopinh can get A. I mean.. I know they all say it is hard.. but I felt lousy cuz my essay for the unseen section was not my best.. cuz I was rushing for time.. oh well, it is over le.. no point cryin over spilt milk yeah? Thank God for helping my thru so far anyway.. :D

I really wanna thank God u know.. He has given me such peace during my papers and helped me all the way.. know what? In my bio paper, there was this question I did not know how to do? then I was just staring blank? then the answer just hit me! I was like, smiling to myself.. haha.. Thank God! :D isnt He amazing?

ok la.. I dont exactly have time le.. to all u pple whom I owe PMs and stuff I am so so sorry.. one more week yeah.. namely mr Z and WZ kor.. sorry dudes.. :)

YEAH!

at this moment you must be thinking "this girl crazy ah? O's coming still sound so happy". haha.. I am not crazy la. Just happy. Well, today my mum brought me and my bros out. then we went to eat burger King. after that, we went marine parade library to study. :D it was condusive for me. but my mum dint exactly like it. she found it too warm. well, it was a little. I dont exactly feel that i have made full use of my day YET. yes. I will take a cool shower later then stay up to do two more chapters of amath.

well, why am I happy then u may ask. haha.. well, I feel happy because my folks decided to get a new car! although it will only come in jan, I am still so excited! :) toyota.. wait. let me clarify. not that my family rich nothing to do just change car la. It's just that our car facing some problems, and COE prices really like halved! good deal right? so ya lor.. :D

my dad's Bible study students coming over tomorrow for BBQ!yay! they are a great bunch of kids. wait. I cant call them kids, I am only once year older! haha.. anyways, they are funny people la. Entertaining too..

O levels in 4 days! AAAaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!! haha.. well, will be going Subway again! this friday. Revising Social studies, emath and amath. with JM of course. well, JM will say I am obsessed. erm... well.... not really la. It's a good place to study and I like the people there. It's so nice like. When I study till my head is cracking, then the aunties give a nice smile. woah! feels so nice. haha.. they are always so full of encouragement and best wishes. thank God for them man.. :D

ok la. I wanna watch my chinese show le. haha.. yes! I watch CHINESE shows. got english subtitles la.. hee.. :D okiez. ciaoz..

knocked out..

yeah. I knocked out. again! I am such a piggy. yesterday, ma folks went to the Converse warehouse sale. They bought me this pink tee.. although i dont like pink. I liked this one. haha.. thanks mum and dad!

In the evening, we went to the beach for like seaside dinner with sherlyn, shermien and family. it was cool. It has been so long since I have seen their family. It was fun. haha.. told them about rum-rum.. Hilarious.

well, my morning was almost entirely gone. I slept at bout 11pm yester but I woke up at about 9am. lol.. 10 hours! so far, I only did one chap of Amath TYS. well, I reelie need to buck up. But got piano. going to do my theory homework now. Will try to pia more tonite.. :D hee..

12 hours sleeping..

haha.. yeah..I slept like a pig yester nite.. hee.. :D well, went to Subway with JM again.. hee.. long session again. we studied from 9am to about 6pm? yep.. of course I stopped fer lunch la. and we laughed till we had cramps sia.. hor JM? haha.. the aunty was so nice.. offered to make us something the next time we go. but we said we didnt know when wil be the next time we are going to go there.. haha..

while waiting for cell group to start, I decided to close my eyes for a while.. haha.. then I dozed of. lol.. I slept fer 12 hours! woke up at 7.30am this morning.. so yeah. I slept around 7.30pm last nite.. hee.. :D this morning did 2 emath papers.. to be precise, 1 1/2. haha..

JM. finish crescent paper le.. u are right man.. I got like B3? lol.. but I did not do the graph n locus question la..haha.. if not careless may got A2 le.. but neways. still not A1.. all in all, jia u ya'all! :D

Farewell Ms Leong.. God bless u..

Today was such a sad and emotional day. Just received smsed from many pple last nite saying it is Ms Leong's (principal) last day today. So, there was some suprise farewell thingy.so I went.. I was so sad.. Felt so empty..although i am graduating.. It would be different visitong sch and seeing a new principal.. oh ya, and our new VP also leaving for some other sch. I was like huh?! she came for hardly a month or so... and she is so nice! this is so sad..

cried and cried during the performance, slideshow and speech.. it was so touching and I was like, missing her already.. after walking out of the hall, we all gave her a hug.. she was like crying so much.. I felt so empty.. she even bothered to call us by name when she hugged us.. I truly admire her..

even when she had to give an impromptu speech.. she was stil being her humourous self.. she was making us laugh and we were crying at the same time.. it was so sad.. shar did not go.. she slept late.. hey! I am not slacker ! haha..

okie.. that's all I gotta say about today.. gotta go study soon..

Soaking wet..

Yesterday was another wild day.. JM and I were going to Subway.. then only when we reached PL did I rmbr that I left my Hp and mp3 in school with the Canteen lady.. I was like apologising to JM..I felt so bad.. then she said

'nvm. We are quits. I made u take the wrong bus that day, so now I accompany u to go take your hp' I was like. wow! haha.. then God answered my prayer at the wrong time.. haha.. no la.. Just that I prayed fer rain. and both of us do not bring brollies around de.. so, we were stranded at the bus stop fer about an hour? I think so.. and it was still pouring..

Bing puddle were everywhere and big vehicles that drove pass were like, splashing big waves near us.. lol.. so, she suggested we stand on the bus stop seat.. i was like, 'what if members of the public complain about us being inconsiderate or smth?' haha.. but we still did it neway.. then guess what?! everyone else in the bus stop copied us.. hahaha.. it was hilarious.. but by then, we were already soaking wet.

Finally, a kind soul junior loaned us her brolly. so, we went back to school to get my hp and mp3.. Then JM wanted to forget about Subway.. haha.. but do u think I would let her? hahaha.. so, we went Subway.. by then it was almost 5pm. Talk about late lunch.. haha.. Thank God for my daddy.. I thought he was unhappy that I am always going to Subway.. in the end, he even offered to fetch me home! haha.. :D

next, chem pract. I am quite happy.. I am not good at chem. and I dont have interest either. so, I give up. wait! hear me out first. Give up meaning I just study and go for the exam. Like what I do for all my other subjects.. Just that I may do minimal.. and I do not plan to count it in my L1R5. Unless by a miracle I get an A1 or smth.. hee.. I was like doing my practical and praying at the same time..sub consciously.. but somehow, I was still a lil nervous. hands were trembling.. lol.. so weird.. thank God! another prayer answered! my bunsen burner was working fine this time, and my invigilators were not my dad's friends.. no pressure.. hee.. :D yeah! I love God so much man.. what would I do w/o Him..

oh ya! on monday, ma dad bought me 5 CDs! I was so so happy.. it started with I wanted to buy e disney cd.. haha.. I know, some say kiddy.. but I wanted it.. then my dad agreed.. so that was 2 cds le.. then we were talking about studying.. so, studying, cannot study with music that has lyrics.. when memorising that is.. so, he bought me a Richard Clayderman collection.. 3 cds! woohoo.. haha.. 5 cds. price of 2.. :D happy.. lol..

I just came back from meeting PQ.got back my chem notes.. thanks dearie! while I was waiting at the bus stop, so many pple thought I was an adult then they just ignore me. Until I called out their name then they give me that shocked look.. hahaha..

okie.. I better eat my lunch.. woke up late, so have not done any work fer da whole day.. ciaos pple.. take care!

tired.. very tired..

I know this may sound like nothing to those people who can choose not to sleep for days.. but I am the type that likes to have my 8 full hours of beauty sleep . (in the end still not beautiful -.-'') on saturday decided to take a bath and stay up to study.. cuz I watched this Korean show until 12midnite.. so romantic, so nice..

neways, to cut the story short, i slept at 4.30am.. siao rite? I stopped work around 3.30am.. by the timt I did my quiet time and wind down, 4.30 le lo.. then i thought I was gonna coma the next day.. suprisingly! I woke up at nine! i mean, when I have my 8 hours, I wake up at nine.. lol.. amazing.. so i thought mayb I will knock out in the afternoon.. I didnt! studied till I was very tired, then ended up watching tv.. so,I 'recuperated'.. haha.. the wonders of tv.. :D

then at night, I was like, ok. I am gonna knock out fer sure.. guess what? I did not again..haha.. I mean.. I slept about midnite.. or slightly later..after studying summore.. I was like, ok........ tmr's (which is today) is gonna be a problem. and this time, I was right.. haha.. told ma dad to make sure I wake up at 7. he had to call me twice on the phone.. then I lay on my bed till 7.30. I decided to get up.. cuz if I did not.. I would end up sleeping again.. hahaha..

studied fer chem pract this morning.. nothing much else.. tmr is chem pract paper.. I am not good at chem..so, just study and go fer the exam lor.. all in God's hands le.. okie..I'm going off now.. gotta leave fer piano soon.. it's raining.. love it! but I dun wanna get wet.. eek! brollies dun reelie help in this kinda rain.. :D ciaoz pple! keep it real..

some things I left out yeaterday

hee.. I left out some stuffs yesterday.. In fact, I left out the most important thing.. haha.. just now JM reminded me.. she is so gonna be so malu.. hee.. ok, she was like teasing me about being streetwise yester.. just cuz I told her muct cross road to take bus back. then she laugh at me say no need.. in the end, we ended up near serangoon.. I was like, 'what did u say? u smart? huh? huh?' haha.. then she was like, we better get down now and take bus back.. so I was laughing at her all the way and made her play a game with me.. haha..

that's all la.. just wanna malu her.. then when I went home, I was walking past this house.. then this baby called out to me.. he said ''jie jie' haha.. made my day man..haha.. dunno me and still call me jie jie.. cute sia..

haha.. then at nite got CG.. Abel called me without me needing to ask him.. Amelia kept forcing me to play this rubber band game with her.. haha.. kids are so amusing.. haha.. esp babies.. ok, Abel is like, 4? but in ma eyes he is a baby la.. then also got Crystal.. she is one cheerful baby.. haha.. guess what she did? yes. she ate my cell group notes.. hee.. :D now it is like, one part gone.. good thing aunty mary took that piece of paper out of her mouth.. but nevertheless, she still bit off part of ma paper.. hee..

okie.. that's all fer yesterday.. today is boring, nothing much to say la.. besides studying and my painful crushed knuckles.. (wont say y here la.. it'll be ranting Again) okie.. ciaos pple.. bye!

Open Houses

I have to say, this day has been rather interesting.. Meridian JC was interesting..I met so many familiar people.. First Mr Chiang (u know, the muscle man who always doesnt really have nething planned fer english lessons?), Daniel, Joshua, Andes and Ken! wow.. so many pple in one place.. ok, I basically bump into Dan no matter where I go.. lol.. and ken, recently too.. Talking to Mr Chiang, was like, ok, he cant exactly hold a conversation.. haha.. when we dont say nething, he just look around.. lol..k la.. not everyone is perfect.. JM: I am esp sayin this to u.. hahahha..

Was pleasantly suprised when Andes called me and later, when Dan called me too.. Joshua was with Daniel..He said I did not change.. I was like, 'I put on so much weight'.. he said 'no la, still the same'.. haha.. Dan was like gonna laugh.. I dont think I have remained the same.. I am much much much fatter.. hee.. :D

ok, on the other hand, TPJC was not the most exciting of all open houses. Well, to put it simply and nicely, it looked deserted.. Will stop here and not go on.. not so nice.. To find out more about the sch, I think I will just ask ma mummy grace.. haha.. more reliable source.. in a sentence, TP open house didnt work fer me..

okie.. that is all fer the open houses.. I am feelin so tired, but hve not done ne work today.. looks like I have to pull thru and do some work from ma timetable.. still got piano homework man.. haiz~ I'll take that as relaxation la.. :)

Fruitful day

haha..I am talking about yester.. It was a fruitful day.. the earliest time me and JM actually went to subway.. hee.. yes! again! we met around 9am.. but both of us were early, so we met around 8.40+.. we went to eat macs breakfast then headed straight fer subway..wow! we were there from 9.30am-5.00pm? around there..that is like 7 1/2 hours? haha.. we spent 5 hours studying..

met my mum's friend there.. she was like 'are u reelie studying?' haha.. Felt so cheated.. of course I am studying.. haha.. 5 hours leh.. but we are humans ma.. need to stop fer lunch.. haha.. but she is such a nice and friendly lady..

the aunty at Subway was like, so surprised to see us.. haha.. she was like 'woah! early morning must come and eat subway already arh?' haha.. then this guy who works at Subway was wearing specs.. look so cute.. haha.. but JM said, he looks nerdy.. lol..

neways, we did so much work.. I mean, not a lot like A LOT.. but we did ten year series, had lunch, then did a timed paper under exam conditions.. so disappointing.. I was so so so careless.. I need to get rid of my carelessness.. or else my math papers will die.. =(

okie.. gonna meet JM to go fer open houses soon..

later~

Fuming.. screamed.. dont know if I should regret..

haiz~ just screamed ma head off and elliot.. the youngest bro.. I have not screamed at a person like that fer dunno how long already.. when I say scream is reelie SCREAM! argh.. he was being so rude to ma maid, even ma grandma.. whatever u say to him in a time like this never gets in, so I screamed.. but as usual, he insists on doing things his own way.. this is jus so irritating.. I mean, here I am, supposed to be alone at home so I can study most of the day away, and now he has to do this to me.. I am not exactly in the best of moods cuz of HER..

I have been praying that God will give me the strength.. I dont know if I should regret screaming at him cuz I know Jesus would never do that.. but if I dont do that, what can I do? he would be scareming.. argh!! this is so depressing.. then when we told him to just do whatever he wants, he screamed and kept hitting his own head.. I dont know.. but I find this disturbing..

We are finally giving him his way but tells him if he knows he is in the wrong, ma dad will punish him.. y hit his own head.. I just walked out of the room.. ok.. so much for that incident.. I just needed to let off steam.. i dont know if I am doing the right thing la.. but oh well.. cant believe it is smth so trivial and he cant just obey..

neways. yester's bio pract was quite a disaster.. only if the whole nation doesnt do well then do I have hope.. haha.. no la..kiddin.. my hope is in the Lord.. =) I am quite far behind in ma timetable, so revised it again just now.. this time, I HAVE not keep to it.. or else it may be too late.. or I cant do everything I want to.. =)

Ben and kenny.. thanks fer always being so encouraging.. Ben, liju, ken.. u all must also jia u for O's ok? Ken, aiya.. u get 20 can le la.. no fair.. DSA.. ok la, I am not jealous.. happy fer u.. just that now SA got one less place, and I have to work a even harder.. haha.. I think I am like exaggerating.. okie, will pray fer da best and let God do the rest.. haha.. cizo pple.. =)

Graduation Ceremony..

ok, so it was graduation ceremony on saturday... did not think I would cry, but as we sang the finale song, emotions started to well up.. then looked around.. everyone was crying. I could not take it,almost cried. was restraining.then stupid JM started tearing.. we all ended up crying.. lol.. then everyone went around hugging each other.. it was so touching. felt a sense of emptyness and sadness.. for once, I was feeling sad to be leaving Cedar. hee.. I know u may think I am crazy, but it is true.. it was only then that I felt like it was 'over'.

By the looks of it, I think I will end up crying on prom nite.. haiz~ It is quite sad for fat pple like me u know? dunno what to wear leh.. still thinking.. scared I over dress or 'under dress'.. haha.. will see how it is not that near neways.. fer now, O's is ma main concern..

special thanks to all of you who have been encouraging me.. namely wz kor, mrZ, JM, gloria, ruin, my darling commanders, classmates from 4monstars!, etc.. ok.. thanks ya all, love ya all and will definitely miss ya all after we graduate.. :)

God spoke so clearly..

Let me start by talking about last nite.. During my devotion, I prayed that God would bless me thru the service the next day. Little did I expect that it would really happen.I mean, yes, I prayed for it, but it was like those, just pray prayer? if u know what I mean..

This morning, we were 10mins late. Guess who I met on the way in? my beautiful commander, commander sera! haha.. since ruin's sick, I sat with her. It is wonderful sitting beside someone who really praises the Lord with all her heart. I love my commander. =) ok. then the last song we sang was 'Because He Lives'. When they sang the chorus, I felt tears coming.

Then God spoke to me. It was as if He was preparing me for the alter call that was coming. He kind of told me that pst Chia will call for an alter call, and I am one of those who will go to the front. At first, I doubted, was it my imagination? my own thinking? then Pst chia went up stage and made the Alter call. The alter call WAS for me. God even kind of like, told me what the pst was going to say.

My heart started racing and it was like, I knew I had to go up front I wanted that touch from God and that reassurance. There were issues in my heart that were making me so burdened.. I knew it. I knew it was for me, I knew I was going to be so blessed. (see, what u pray for, God will make happen! =) I hesitated at first. Then I told myself. No way am I going to miss this alter call. God even 'prepared' me b4hand. what am I standing there for?

so, I went up. was amongst the first few, so I knelt down in front. Tears flowed and I started weeping. yes, weeping. It was like, all my tears of bitterness were flowing out of my eyes.. Commander Sera and aunty Julie (my another commander) came to pray for me. I was so touched today. I thanked God for my commanders, and I thanked God for holding my tmr.

God then showed me a vision. Well, I believe it to be a vision. He was showing me this pipe. I was suppose to walk thru the pipe, but I was to big. Later, God showed me, with Him, I became a little man, and the pipe became so big. In the vision, I represtnted my problems.The small pipe representes my strength, and the BIG pipe represents God's strength. meaning, with God's strength, I will overcome every problem. but if I try to depend on my own strength, it is going to be impossible to sqeeze thru that tiny pipehole.

thank God, amen! what aunty Julie said to me really blessed me also. If u read this, thanks! =) ok.so that was my wonderful experience today. Praise the Lord for HIS wonderful touch and comfort. I amstill in the process of overcoming that problem which made me go to the alter. But I WILL overcome this problem, come what may, with God's strength and not my own. =)

cheers,

anthea

Praise the Lord fer everything!!

Praise the Lord! ok.. first off, thanks to ALL of you who have been keepin me in prayers.. I reelie appreciate it.. Yeah, it is always so comforting to knw that my heavenly Father has a plan already laid out for me, and all I have to do is follow it and everything will be alright.. hence, like Kenny said, I will pray for wisdom.. I have been praying for wisdom actually.. yeah..

All in all, I will give my best and let God do the rest.. =) I have been keepin up with ma timetable not too badly.. haha.. But in terms of sleep, lesser then usual la.. but not to the harmful stage la.. dun worry..

Prelim results were bad.. 20 points.. dunno where to go fer 1st three months.. any suggestions? ma folks wan me to go to a JC no matter what.. as in, first three months..

some things YOU said made me cry.. not in the touched way.. u make me frustrated, depressed, upset, discouraged, angry etc..... argh! YOU dun understand a thing la.. stop judging me when u dont know a thing.. u dont know a thing, not literally, not in terms of knowledge.. u dont know ma heart, desires, passions, hopes and dreams.. argh!

ok.. that para was ranting.. not many pple will know who that YOU is.. but seriously, YOU is so near yet... argh!

ok ok.. I should not end ma entry in such hurt and anger.. well, on the bright side, I thank God I have Him and He does not judge me like that.. I thank God for seeing ma heart.. I thnak God fer being ma comforter fer da past few days..

okie..take care ya all.. :)

JC talks and prelim results

yester had JC talks.. VJ's was da most fun.. but somehow I think i wont go there even if I can make it.. and I mean IF I can make it.. I think I wanna go SAJC.. still prayin about it tho.. I will let the Lord choose ultimately..

Today started of slack.. then when i got back ma papers, JM and I were so so down.. I mean like, ma L1R2 is alreasy 10! how great can that be? amath had B4 and English had B3.. I need a miracle and I know it is not comin.. :( JM and I went subway.. we started becomin a lil more chatty.. but spirits still very down.. even now.. feel so disappointed altho I expected worse.. I think it is cuz of eng.. i mean.. Amath was better then what I expected, but so many did much better than me.. I cried after an hour? so lagging rite.. lol..cried then told maself to quickly stop or else everyone will see.. :(

after subway, somehow bein with JM and the subway aunty cheered me up.. but once I was alone again.. I felt that immense sadness kinda thing? yeah.. was like, jus so upset.. then dad picked me up from aljunied mrt.. went to cut hair.. well, more of trim la..

well, at least now I know why i keep dropping so much hair.. hiya.. my stupidity la.. same reason as ma poor results.. :( well, I just have to give ma best fer ma O's.. I'm prayin fer da best and sticking to the timetable I have planned.. prayin it will work.. =)

well, in the meantime, I will try to keep ma spirits up so it will not affect ma studying.. but I am so afraid of what ShE will say.. somehow I feel less motivated and less encouraged.. haiz~ please keep me in prayers aight?

yet another movie marathon!

haha.. woohoo.. I cant believe I went fer another movie marathon today! wow! watched The Myth and Sound of Thunder.. haha.. it was like a last minute decision.. I was so so suprised.. thank you so much! ruin, helped me thank ya folks loads and loads okie? and thank you so much too.. aiyo.. they pay fer both movies, so pai seh..

ok, tmr I will get all the BBQ money back.. then I can start gettin ma financial accounts into order.. now, I am like almost totally cashless.. no money to draw from bank le.. haiz~ I feel so insecure..

ok, today, fer da first time, I got to try mini melts.. yummy! ruin jie shao one.. it was good.. :)

kie.. fer The Myth and Sound of thunder, I would say, not much of storyline.. but I enjoyed it.. haha.. fer those of u who liked Jeressic park, u would like SSound of Thunder.. for The myth.. it would be pple who like movies about past life and dreams ba.. a lil traditional touch to it too.. haha.. and got Jacky Chan! haha.. I love his movies.. ma dad too..

haiz~ I feel bad today.. had to leave in a rush.. so did not get to give aunty Kwai ying her hug.. I was looking fwd to it too.. but we had to rush off fer da movie.. so, ya lor.. tried to ask ma dad to tell her if he saw her, but he didnt.. I feel bad.. hmm.. but I dun even have her hp number leh.. oh wells.. :(

tmr I have got to start studying le.. well, this 'last day of freedom' has been well spent.. thanks ruin and family.. :)

movie marathon and BBQ

woo! movie marathon was great! it was fun and we refused to go home till we finished all three episodes of the Lord of the Rings.. it was so fun laughin at wen cuz she was so blur.. hahaha.. it was cool.. I think we should movie marathon again after O levels.. haha..

ok.. BBQ started of rough.. when starting fire, I did not know whether to laugh or cry.. haha.. well, I shared with some cmdrs y le.. haha.. it was a good laugh.. well, when i went home with wen, it was about 10pm? yeah..

well, the cabbie was a lil freaky yet friendly.. I wont say why here.. but, yeah..it was a lil freaky.. I also told some cmdrs.. I was so happy yester.. yet, JM and I actually felt bad fer not study.. must be gong's fault..haha.. he go and bring her stupid tuition hw to the house.. haha.. so we all blame her.. hee.. :D

ok.. this morning went out with mum and elliot to parkway.. had lunch and they looked around in MPH. the cafe was so cosy.. I am SO full now.. goodness.. haha.. today is ma second last day of freedom.. I have to enjoy it.. hee.. ma full gear of studying HAS to start on monday.. wish me all the best guys!

always keeping many of u in prayers.. Love to ya all.. God bless.. :D

Sleepy and body aching

I am so tired and ma shoulders are aching.. haha.. spent so so much time on the computer today.. ok.. I woke up reelie late.. 1030am? haha.. that is a luxury already comparing with normal school days.. ok, then I used the com, went on G4C. woah! so many things to read sia..haha.. so reply reply.. in the meantime, also planned ma O level studying schedule.. did half way, JM say she leaving sch le.. and it was drizzling, so had to bring an unbrella to da bus stop and shelter her.. haha..

then she came over.. we dilly dally, watch tv, talk.. then started planning fer tmr's BBQ.. we today reelie slow sia.. when she came to ma place it was 2+? but when we left fer shop n save it was already almost 5 I think.. lol..

haha.. U should have seen elliot's face when JM came into the room in her FBT shorts.. haha.. this innocent 8yr old looked bewildered sia.. he looked at her with the expression that said 'y is she in her underwear'.. haha.. okok.. I wont go on.. wont be so nice.. yes JM.. I am maluing u again.. hee..

then we went to shop fer da stuffs at shop and save, then after that, we went...... SUBWAY! haha.. heavenly.. and the same aunty was there.. one of the two that recognises us.. haha.. woah.. the things we bought were so heavy sia.. carry until ma back was aching..

then had to wait fer ma dad cuz i asked fer a ride.. so, stood there.. play hp games tryin to distract maself.. haha.. it worked.. then once I got into the car, i started devouring ma SUBWAY sandwich after giving ma folks a bite each.. haha.. no, not I bite them, they bite the sandwich! hiyo.. haha..

then I started using the com again around 9+? until now, which is like, 12am? haha.. oh dear.. woah.. I did not realise it has been so long.. chatted with quite a number of pple on msn.. it has been so long since I chatted with pple on msn.. felt like, good! haha..

I feel good, ma O level studying shedule is out! yeah! I will definitely wanna put ma mest into followin it.. if i do, it means I can study finish fer O's and still have about another week fer extra revision.. I know there are many who have already been super prepared.. well, I cant look at the lost time and pout can I? so, I will just make the best of the time I have now.. =)

okie.. i am off ot do ma quiet time then off to dreamland.. no JM! not lala land.. DREAMland.. haha.. nitey nite.

The Longest Yard & End of Prelims!

Yeah! I love the movie! yeah! yeah! haha.. well, I would give it bout 3.5 to 4 stars.. haha.. The plot was good, Adam Sandler was funny and good.. and the bad guys lost.. well, I think some parts were morally wrong, but I think on the whole I enjoyed the movie loads.. It made ma tiredness fly away.. haha..

Had lunch with JM at subway b4 that.. it was fun! haha.. as usual she eats so much slower then me.. lol.. and the aunty recognise us le! haha.. recognise me at least.. *grins* Then we were sittin at the same place where the guy keep swinging the door and it always almost hit me.. haha.. we were doin something lame.. cuz I saw these skool pple asking 'Can I have this meal please'.. I was like,' No cannot..' haha.. then Jm and I started counting how many pple ask 'Can I'? Lol.. so farnie.. In the end got 10.. haha..

ok.. I know we are lame.. but JMs are JMs.. we are like that when put together.. hahahaha.. then we went to shop arnd.. bought ma bro's bdae prezz le.. I know it is too early.. that's y I will hide it.. Just in case he reads ma blog, I wont say out what the prezz is.. JM helped me out a lil... thanks hon.

ok.. lastly, yeah! PRELIMS ARE O-V-E-R! over! yeah! haha.. I can rest fer a few days now.. let me see.. I am gonna sleep in tmr while the phy pple still have pract.. ha!

*hides from flying stone again*

then I will decide what to do when I wake up.. Hmm.. mayb do more quiet time.. Quiet times are getting more and more wonderful.. I love God so much..and I know HE loves me too.. And HE loves all HIS children.. Praise the lord fer that! yeah!

Bio Pract paper..

I am so happy.. Tiara taught me how to play a song on piano while we were in lock up.. It was so boring until our classmates came! only Jessica and I in shift one lor.. it was like, forcing maself to study.. then mr Sng was behind reading 12th nite.. lol.. Rum rum keep disrupting him.. lol.. then they laugh laugh laugh.. Jessica and I decided to go to the other side of the hall cuz pple were so noisy.. then ltr, our class pple came.. we say the person who was playing the piano make us so sian.. so we all go and chase her away.. hee.. no la.. we just intimidate her by outnumbering her.. hee... :)

Tiara taught me and mel this lovely song.. I love it.. but I cant play two hands yet.. will practice tho.. Tiara and Shar are so good at piano man.. *jealous* haha..

yay! tmr last paper! Hallelujah! should be going out with JM fer lunch tmr to celebrate the end of ma papers.. she poor thing still got Physics pract.. haha..

k la.. That is all I have to say today.. to everyone: jia you! we almost over with prelims le..

More prelim papers over!

ok.. the past few papers have been nothing but hard, terrible and depressing.. Chem today was the hardest.. BOTH papers were hard! my goodness.. like one half diffeicult not enuff.. I feel so stressed up and depressed.. today ma dad said a statement that made be burst into tears.. in front of ma bro summore.. in hawker centre summore! so mah lu.. heh. he said 'if it is so hard means u did not prepare enuf HOW HARD CAN PRELIMS BE?" those words in caps are the ones that made me cry..

How hard can it be? as ma classmates. ask the whole level..Ok, there are always some who can ahndle ANY paper.. but ask the majority.. 1st three months is out of the question to me.. but to them I can.. no! no no! please try to understand.. :(

anyway.. thank God that today's Amath paper was easier then the first one.. that was the easiest paper of all three.. but still, it was too hard.. man! So depressing.. but the good thing is that tmr only got Bio pract.. :)

ok.. I wanna thank some pple..

wz kor: thanks fer all ya support! must take care of yourself ok? dont try too hard.. mei is busy, but will keep u in prayers..

Ruin;Ring;MBB2;Greens1: haha.. thanks cuzz fer all ya support and prayers.. BABY COUSIN! haha.. I am keepin ya tooth and back in prayers too yeah? Dont care about HER and let this kinda pple make u sad ok? I will always be here for u.. tho I am not in ya sch.. jus sms me kie? :) *closes ears so wont hear all the ranting about ma sms number* hee... dont nag ah.. hahaha.. I jus wanna be there fer u cuzz.. :)

jasmine: fer visiting ma blog and encouraging me.

mr Z: thanks fer keepin in touch once in a while tho u are so busy..

okie.. and to all who have prayed fer me and encouraged me in one way or another.. thank u so so much.. I reelie appreciate it..

Geog elective paper over!

okie.. so 4 more days and all ma prelim papers are O-V-E-R over! well, I think I am gonna do pretty bad this round..mayb the worse in all ma four years in cedar.. haiz~ oh well, todays paper was another average paper.. the kind that A's are OUT of the question? lol.. but on the other hand, I have not been doin well in geog all along.. I dun have common sense..so, haha.. cant be helped.. neway, thank God I did not fall asleep during ma paper.. as I mentioned, gettin sicker and sicker.. (most likely cuz I dun eat like I'm sick.. apetite go down, but the lil I eat is eveything I should NOT eat) hee..

oh ya! xiang yee jie jie is back from Canada! she came over to ma place yesterday.. I was so happy.. but had to study.. she is so so nice.. u can never imagine her angry.. hehe.. she is so nice.. :) talking about Canada, kor going back tmr.. so sad.. time flies.. but oh well, he will be graduating in like, 4 months?

ok la.. that is all fer today.. I ended at 9.20 am today! haha.. :) early rite?

*hides from flying stones thrown from the physics pple* hahaha..

Prelim: Bio 1 & 2, Amath 1 over! (sick..)

ok.. I have to say that the abv prelim papers were not good.. it was so hard la! I am going to die.. Bio MCQ was quite easy, but when we saw the paper 2, all of us were like.. what?! bye bye first 3 mths of JC.. lol.. Amath, paper 2 will be on monday.. I pray it will be easy, cuz the first paper was a killer.. but some said it was the easier half.. so they heard.. haiz~

ok.. I think I am not gonna get well even after my antibiotics finish.. I feel as if I have a fever comin down any moment.. and I wake up from ma nap exhausted.. how great is that? and I still have A LOT of studying to do.. tmr's geog paper.. I have not even finished reading a chap.. I think I can only briefly read le.. no time to memorize everything.. I have such poor time management.. argh!

ok.. the whole day, ma tongue feels tasteless and ma throat feels like bitter.. so I went to eat spicy chips (given I am already havin cough).. haha.. then after drinking water, tasteless and bitter again.. so latr I ate spicy otah! but again. after a glass of water, the taste is gone! man! I feel bad.. I hate being sick..

k la.. I cant blog fer long.. gotta go and study geog.. ttyl! :)

Prelim:Emath P1 n SS.. done!

yeah! another two papers over.. well, the Emath paper was easier then expected.. but I dont think I can get distinction le.. As for SS, was never able to get A1 neways.. It was do-able.. thank God that ma flu, cough, phlegm n sore throat did not affect me. I even felt as if a fever might come over me. Lol.. but it was aight.. lasted enough..

then went to macs to eat lunch (hee.. i know i know, I am sick) and study with JM. We wanted to look at some solutions to the Amath questions we did not know how to do, so we go Popular n pretend to browse. hehe.... *shhhh* then we saw the solutions lor.. lol.. in the end, realised the question was so so simple la! haha..

ok ,then went fer piano. It was, ok. I was so tired. Kept playing wrong notes also. but ma teacher is helpful la. He doesnt demand things from me. So, my tiredness went away a lil during piano.. :) thank God fer that too..

okie.. gotta prep fer tmr's paper.. Take care ya all! and all the best fer the upcoming papers!

having laid out a plan..

wow.. I decided since I am so so slow in ma revision, I need to put out a specific plan.. I have planned an hourly schedule fer studyin fer ma prelims.. meaning, I plan every hour and what i will be doin in those hours.. I think it helps.. so far so good.. well, so far is only one day.. haha.. I missed out a lil cuz of tv.. man! I have to catch up today.. haha.. I am sure I will work smth out..

hey, guess what?! I have to study about 7hours a day min to be on sched.. I am suprised I almost did 7hours yeaterday.. principal says 9hours a day.. fer me? impossible.. lol.. I think at the present rate I go, I will finish one round of revision just in time..

neways, I wanna thank God fer such supportive parents.. esp ma dad.. I was so so stressed about not makin it fer ma prelims.. then ma dad reminded me that no matter what happenes, it is all in God's plan. Timely reminder.. thanks dad.. (but he doesnt read ma blog) haha.. then I told ma mum that I give up on chem.. she said I was being ridiculous.. well, I reeeeeelie cant do chem la.. I will just give ma best neway, but least priority..

man! I am craving fer subway now.. haiz~ no time to go out la.. nvm.. mum took the day off.. tonite, goin to da club to bowl and eat dinner.. club food.. *yummy* oh yes.. did I mention that I am just eating, sleeping and studyin recently? my weight is incresing lor.. I am already so fat and ma weight is incresing.. *Yeeeeekkkkss!!!!* ma fats are disgusting.. man! anthea is disgusting.. heh.. somebody save me!!! ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!

haiz~ I think I got a flu comin down.. save me!! peeps, keep me in prayers ok? I dun wanna be sick during prelims! ahh! hahaa..

okie.. I am off to study le.. ciao.. :)

ps/ to all those studying, jia u wor!

mugg mugg mugg...

ok, I am glad with the work I did yesterday.. It was not the best I could do, but I definitely put in more effort then the previous 2 days.. today, did quite a lot.. but ended up playin with ma bros.. 'wasted' 2hours..nvm, can catch up later..

this morning, woke up at 5.45am to fetch mum to the airport.. I find that, the sad thing when she has to fly so early, is that she always scared she gets late, then get a lil pissed.. neway, sad things aside, we had a good breakfast at the airport together.. the whole family.. :) that was good.. mujm flew to indonesia.. she will be comin back later tonite..

well, that is all about I have to say about today.. besides, airport and studying, I did not do much else.. so, yar lor.. short entry today..

later guys..

used da capo! yayness! :)

Mum went to KL this morning, goin to airport to pick her up soon.. she went there fer a meeting.. this morning I had lit remedial.. kept getting reminders from God not to get angry.. I was like a pot of boiling water..haiz~ inside was boiling, but cant tell from the outside.. (or so I thought)

had yummy cake today.. haha.. dad's birthday cake (from yester).. yummy yummy.. oh no, I am already so fat, and I still am eating so much.. oh no... oh no.. hahaha..

I tried using the capo just now.. wow! I finally find some songs from worshiptogether.com singable.. haha.. all along was like, tryin to scream da song out, or transpose, then end up too low, or awkward.. now, suddenly like so much more comfortable.. lol.. is anthea dumb or dumb? I know! she's dumb! hahahah..

okie.. that is about all I have to say.. love u guys always.. :)

God's perfect timing..

I wanna thank God, ma heavenly father so so much.. He made ma day.. He rocks and always will.. As u can see from ma prev post, I was so so sad and I did not know why.. All the way till piano lesson.. then jus b4 piano lesson, JM smsed me..

I was kinda sad cuz she seemed pissed with me that day.. And I was angry and sad.. but I put it behind me.. and jus now, we talkd as if nth had happened.. that is da first thing i wanna thank God fer.. :)

next, piano lesson was great.. After it, I felt so happy and relaxed... haha.. see? who says I should stop piano cuz of ma O's.. no way! lol.. If i quit piano, mayb ma L1R5 will be.. erm...........54! hahaha.. ok ok.. choi choi.. touch wood.. *puts hand on JM's head* haha..

after that, Ruin made ma day.. she cheered me up.. I thank God fer MBB2/G1.. this cousin of mine reelie brings joy to me.. thanks dearie.. love ya loads.. thanks so so much.. :)

and now, I feel happy.. well, I am goin out to celebrate ma dad's birthday.. oh no! he is comin home! I have not wrapped e prezz I just bought fer him yet.,. okie.. I am off.. all in all, I thank God.. HE never fails to surprise me..

~just when I thought I was in a valley, u lifted me up abv ma worries~

Thank You Jesus!

Feelin down..

As above, I dont know why I feel this way. Yesterday, went fer Penang Hawker Fair. Yummy food.. It was good.. was prepared to go home to try to study cuz I am one week behind ma schedule le.. when I reached home, felt so tired despite ma long nap.. ate too much? I dunno..

then, I was lying on the bed, jus thinkin.. I felt so so sad.. dunno why.. so, jus cried and cried.. but ma bros were in the room, so did not make any sound. Cried out to God, asked for His comfort. Was totally not in the mood to study.. so, finished up jus one chapter of bio, then did ma quiet time.. after that, went to bed..

today is dad's birthday, that is one thing to be glad about.. made him a card just now.. I hope he likes it.. I hope to get him a prezz later, before I go fer piano.. oh ya, elliot is gonna learn piano soon.. that is, if ma teacher says can.. I smsed him, but he never reply.. dunno la.. so many pple I sms nvr reply.. nvm la.. not like I reply all the time also..

haiz~ I dont know what's goin on inside me la.. no mood for nething also.. have to try to do bio le.. somehow I feel like sitting in a corner and hug myself and cry.. but I think it would be a waste of time.. it will affect ma prelims also.. haiz~

~want someone to love me~

WeLcOmE bAcK KoR!

woot.. guess what! ma kor is back from Canada! haha. Just now he smsed me, I was so so suprised.. such a pleasant suprise! and tmr, he will be joining us fer rangers, how great is that? haha.. ok, there I was, singing over ma handphone to lee si cuz she has to lead songs fer her cell grp tmr.. (lol.. still cant believe I did that) then we ended up chatting fer over an hour or so. then when I hung up, I saw ma phone had one msg, I was thinkin, must be ruin or pokie askin me about tmr's stuff.. then I saw the starting, hey mei.. Well, the only 2 pple who call me mei are wz and ma kor. haha.. wz dun have ma hp number, so I was like.. hmm? haha..

then when I read the msg, I was like woot! haha.. such a pleasant suprise.. welcome back kor! missed u so so much.. =)

ok.. I am going to go blind already. I decided to type out ma lit homework instead of writing it because typing would be much faster. Guess what, cuz I talked to lee si on da phone jus now, I only started work at about 12 am.. I stopped at 2.15.. Goodness... I have not even finished 1/2 of the 45 questions la.can u imagine if I wrote them out? hand sure cramp sia.. so, I type.. ma eyes becoming blur blur le.. lol.. I did not take any breaks.. Quite happy with maelf actually.. man! I need to finish those questions or else that she-devil will hound us we will all die.. haha.. literally.. 0.O

okie.. I think I will go off to do ma quiet time now, then off to bed. Will have a good rest, then tmr, i shall continue with the 45 questions until it is time fer rangers.. :) okie.. cya guys tmr..

Good nite~ ZZZZZzzzzzzzzz...........

English prelim paper..

man! english sure was hard as compared to O'level standard.. dunno y, but during the paper1, ma thoughts jus could not flow.. even writing a simple sentence made me confuse.. lol.. I re-wrote ma whole speech cuz of the poor language.. finished on the dot.. scary? definitely.. and ma pen's ink dried up on me, so differently colour also.. at least I re-wrote.. thank God I finished copyin on time tho..

tonite got cell leader's training, so no cell.. haiz~ might as well la.. I need to study bio also neway.. well, at least got smth happy to share.. ma mum decided to give me one of her mp3s.. I know many of you already have one.. I am considered slow.. but who cares la.. haha.. I am glad I will start bringin music around with me again.. ever since ma discman's batt spoiled, i have not brought music with me liao.. thank God, thanks mum.. :)

I have this sad kinda feelin inside, I dunno y.. mayb I am jus tired? dunno.. neways, wanna thank all of u who visit ma blog and tag ma board.. xie xie ni men.. =) oh yes, and also, thanks wz fer all ya encouragement all the time altho I take super duper ultra long to reply.. haha..

Teachers day, chem pract, etc..

Yesterday was chem practical, prelim.. I must say it was actually fun.. mayb to me, because I am prepared not to take chem in ma L1R5.. I was suprisingly not so anxious.. kind of was a lil, but the Lord gave me peace. thank God.. Lock up was quite a waste of time.. but got to talk to ana n JM.. so, it was time well spent..

after lock up, I went with JM to eat subway.. yes, AGAIN! haha.. we love subway.. yay! lol.. Yesterday nite, watched the VCD "win a date w/ tad Hamilton".. haha.. had a good laugh.. well, besides the good laugh, it gave me some points to ponder over.. lol..u may be thinkin, think about what? comic show only ma..haha.. nvm.. jus had some points to think of.. :)

Was too lazy to burn midnight oil to make cards fer all ma teachers.. I know, I should be more grateful.. but I was too tired.. only managed to do 2.. made fer mr tay and ms Agnes leong.. was not reelie well done.. ma mum said it was patchy and not so nice, so that also made me think twice about makin cards fer ma other teachers.. as all should know, I suck at art and all that sorts.. cant draw fer nuts.. so, ya lor.. only made 2 miserable cards.. lol..

today, had teachers day celebration.. only 2 items fer da concert cuz this year they incoporated games into da concert session..so, ya lor.. OMGoodness.. Mr sng is an eye candy lo..haha.. ok ok.. I know I sound crazy.. but, wow! I was amazed man.. he act until like so real.. I was tellin JM, mr sng reminds me of gene.. dunno y.. they dun even look the slightess alike.. most prob is mannerism ba.. haha.. :)

then durin the games sessions after aces day dance, all the sec4s jus hide in da classroon.. haha.. no mood to play ma.. so sleepy and everyone was so sticky and smelly.. hehe.. then I went with JM fer lunch..

after that, went to jamm with mervin and matt.. well, I learnt a few things today. first, I should have put more thought b4 goin fer da jammin session.. all ma fault, I nvr bring chords then we did not know what to play.. I felt so sad la.. felt a lil inferior.. heh.. matt so good at guit and keyb.. learnin drum also he pick up so fast.. when I see him, it is like seein da person that I wanna be.. the talents area I mean.. well, I 'll work on it after O's.. lol.. everything after O's.. oh ya.. voice also not bad sia.. lol.. it'll be good if he joins the band ba.. =) k.. wont say nemore bout it le..

erm.. oh ya.. heard that Dan lam played drum so well today.. great job dude! mayb u can teach me? haha.. lol.. I dont even think he reads ma blog.. but it would be good to learn from friends.. not so stressful.. hehe..

okie.. gtg.. gonna watch movie! :) hee. happy! God bless ya all..

sadness fer me.. *sobs*

*sobs* I got ma piano results today.. ma piano teacher bothered to collect it fer me and went thru each section with me.. when I saw that it was a pass.. A part of me was disappointed, but being me, I wont show it in front of ma piano teacher.. did not feel it THAT much.. but when I was in da car with ma dad.. the familiar creeped back.. I felt it.. It was the same feeling as last year.. *sobs* teary eyed, tryin not to vry.. that's why I decided to blog.. tryin not to cry..I am a miserable piano player la.. such a loser.. I only got a pass grade.. last year also.. and know what? last year and this year I got da exact same results.. *sobs* dunno la.. so sad..

why am I lousy at things I like? I love to play piano, I only pass.. I love dance, but cummon.. frankly, can u imagine me dancing? haha.. I like studyin lit, but max I get is a B grade.. mayb u think I am talking crap la.. but I am jus so so disappointed with maself.. u may think it is dumb.. but oh wells.. that is how I am feeling.. =(

hiya.. not gonna say nemore le la.. bye..

Birthdays..

wow.. JM has finally turned 16 le.. spent time with her after skool today.. we went to eat Subway.. yumm.... oh ya.. I gave her her prezzs on the first period.. cuz both our teachers did not come to class.. I went over to her class and stayed there till the end of da period.. haha.. seeing her open da bougous prezz was so farnie.. thanks to ma dad fer such an interesting idea..open n open until inside only has 2 chocolates.. hehe.. I could see her disappoinment building as the ''gift'' got smaller and smaller.. haha.. then when she saw da real prezz she said she loves me! haha.. love ya too JM! JMs are JMs.. woohoo..

after gettin our subway sandwiches, we went to TM n Century to jalan jalan.. Went to look fer ear rings fer her.. did not buy, but had a good time browsing.. We also went to Popular and Yamaha to Jalan jalan.. ma legs were already aching from yester's tae bo intensive kick boxing exercise.. haha.. oh ya.. tae bo is so fun!! makes aces day exercise so boring.. haha..

ok.. had a good time with jm today.. it has been so long since I actually spend time to go out with ma JM and walk walk.. last time every week also go out.. but now, cuz of O's we hardly have da time.. lol.. dun even have time to reply to ruin's letter.. sorry hon..

okie.. I feel super tired.. haiz~ I'm off fer now.. all of u out there take care aight? muacks!

Friendship..

talking with her gives me points to ponder over.. no, I dun feel that it is a pain nor am I sick of it.. I thank God fer lettin me meet her and lettin me talk to her.. Today, speaking with her got me thinkin about friendship.. how did I make friends in primary sch? was it a sch culture that made that difference? I am not too sure..

neway, to all who read ma blog.. do u take your friends forgranted? do u take advantage of them? I think having friends can be seen as an privilege.. and my belief is that God has given this privilege to everyone who wants it.. If we seek Him and we WANT this privilege, we can have it. As the Bible says, "ask and it shall be given unto you..." and the Lord " knows the desires of your heart". Praise da Lord fer His wonderful grace amen? =)

well, as I was thinking back.. I dont reelie know how I made friends reelie.. They kinda just, were there.. and like particles under cold temp(altho sg is soo hot), bonds form.. hehe.. that sounds funny.. too bad, I am stressed cuz of chem.. yeah.. ok, back to the point.. bonds form.. no matter what happens, these bonds are there.. like chemistry, these bonds can be weak or strong.. however, I believe that in friendship, these bonds are not broken until u say so..

IMO, we should judge how valuable he friendship is.. if your ''friend'' is jus makin use of u, break that bond or pray fer them and see how things go.. however, dun give up on friendship easily.. Dun look down on yourself and think thaty u do not deserve this privilege.. That's a lie of the devil (the puny black faced man).. ;)

okie.. that's all I gotta say on friendship.. hehe.. tell me if it's dumb.. yesterday, went to eat subway with jm.. I think the guy takin our order must have been very entertained by our madness yet frightened at the same time.. hehe.. he must have been thinkin " these gals are weird man".. haha.. yes.. we were goin crazy as usual, forgetting time and place.. teehee.. oops.. in sch uniform summore.. nvm.. at least our sch has funny pple.. got variety.. (man! lame excuse) haha.. =)

when I was walkin toward the control station guess who I saw? daniel lam.. lol.. I seem to bump into him ever so often.. haha. ok, not THAT often, but so often.. haha.. do u get what I mean? like, Arise concert and FOP.. I mean like, the indoor stadium is so big, but we always somehow end up at da same entrance.. super suprised.. then yeah.. yester's incident.. these kind of incidents make ma day man.. I miss ma pri sch peeps.. all because of O's, we meet less n less.. but I think after O's, things may change.. no doubt everyone has their sec sch peeps le, but as I said earlier.. the bonds are always there.. and when we meet again, the bonds are clearly visible..

okie.. I gotta go n study le.. ciao~

some thoughts..

ok.. I know el n ruin complain I nvr blog.. haha.. well.. I will start with yesterday's outpost outing.. we went to goat, veggie n fish farm.. It was quite fun fellowshipping a lil.. mervin went to take out da metal thing in his arm.. *ouch* the thing I rmbr most about da outing was uncle Eng kiat's devotion.. about the Hibiscus.. jus like God's blessings, a new Hibiscus grows everyday.. We are blessed everyday.. The Hibiscus can only survive for ONE day.. therefore, let us count our blessings day by day.. start a new day afresh and do not dwell on yesterday's worries.. =)

ok.. today went to Plaza Sing.. I just came home.. bout something from yamaha.. I feel like so long never go piano le.. actually only miss one lesson so far.. still got another week to go.. haiz~

Ok.. it is gettin so stressful.. so much math homework to be completed.. my goodness.. Oh Lord, save me! haha.. On fri, kinda led worship with lio.. I realised it has been so long since we led worship.. ever since gene went ns.. heh.. well, I am definitely looking fwd to after O's.. I know A's will come soon after that.. but who cares.. I wanna get ma O's over and done with.. and I pray ma results will be glorifying to God's name.. That's all I am askin for.. I know HE has a plan fer ma life.. and I trust Him in that..

I wanna thank God fer all ma friends.. love all ya guys yeah? A BIG hug to all of you who read this.. haha.. Have a blessed week ahead! :)

Love,

anthea

English oral--- Down!

Yay! I feel so happy.. suddenly so light hearted.. haha.. well, altho it was jus over this afternoon and I do not know ma results, it is much easier then our skool standard man.. PTL! God is so good.. =) amen!

This morning, had prayer meeting.. It feels like so long nvr have prayer meeting.. it felt good to pray together again.. I prayer against depression today.. Felt strongly against it.. so I prayed.. to all of u who are depressed.. it is decision.. no matter how long u have dwelled on it, lived in it, feed on it.. STOP! ok? it is fer ya own good.. and as ya friend I dun wanna see ya like that.. it pains me to see it.. ='(

ok.. prelims are like, gettin closer and closer.. it's scary man.. neways, dun wanna talk bout it la.. haha..

know what? ma gran took a cab home on sunday when we were suppose to meet her at da coffe shop.. we were so afraid something may happen to her cuz she is so weak.. spent so much time walkin around church area literally searching fer her.. oh my.. but ultimately, ma parents went home to check and she reached home soon after they arrived.. phew~ I wanna thank all the pple who help to search fer her and kept a look out.. woosh.. scary man..

yesterday was smsing mervin.. he said that he and lio were thinkin of askin some pple to join our band, or at least try em out.. I think that is a good idea.. dunno if gene will approve.. let's see how things go.. =)

k la.. that's about it.. oh ya.. one more thing, HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY LIO!! :)

First Aid

okie.. since el ask me to blog on first aid, then I shall! haha.. but will try to type at super speed.. lol.. Thank God! ALL of us passed! so happy.. somehow I feel unsatisfied that I got so low fer MCQ.. hiya.. nvm la.. lio still say I nvr study.. wei! I did ok.. haha.. :) oh well.. CPR got me a lil nervous cuz it's like in front of everyone.. and as usual, I always forget to call da ambulance.. u better not faint in front of me yeah? I resuscitate u, still haven call ambulance.. lol.. haha..

ok.. I must say, it was nice to interact will pple from other outposts that we have not seen b4.. ok, i wanna comment on this dude, Ryan. goodness.. firstly, I like his guit.. secondly, the way he play.. lol.. it is jus so nice.. somehoe reminds me of how gene plays.. jus nice la! I cant play liddat.. that's fer sure.. also, it was good to see gabe again.. it's been so long since he last came to rangers..

woosh! I am feelin so stressed.. prelims comin, but I am so tired and math is making me have head cramps.. lol.. and being in a cool place does not help.. haha.. neways, I will definitely do ma best and pray that God will do da rest! =) amen! in faith, it WILL be done..

I have decided, not retaking chinese.. ma dad say nvm la, dun bother.. I have this urge to burn ma chinese shou che page by page man.. lol.. but I wont la.. da haze affecting m'sia bad ennuff le.. keke.. okie.. well, that is about all I have got to say..

ps:/ pple who visit ma blog, leave a tag leh.. =) God bless ya all.. *Hugs*

Chinese O's results

ok.. Chinese results came out today.. I got B3 fer papers and Merit fer paper 3.. usually I get about this kinda marks? yeah.. but fer O's it is considered what? I dunno.. I felt quite reliefed at first.. then when pple who got same grades as me started cryin their eyes out, I tot, mayb I should not be happy after all.. I dunno..

now, I am also in a dilema.. to retake or not to retake? That is the question.. lol.. I dun wanna.. I SERIOUSLY do not want to.. I dun wanna touch chinese till I am forced to in JC.. that is, if I make it to a JC.. how? should I retake? haiz~ ma dad even congratulate me.. haha.. I am one confused person now.. sitting on da fence, between two different sides.. :/

neway, I jus came home from skool.. goodness! when I was walkin back home, suddenly from no where came a strong wind.. I almost got upskirtted.. lol.. thank God no one was around and I quickly push ma skirt down.. lol..

somehow, cuz of ma O's results, I feeling non only confused.. I feel so numb.. hmm.. oh well.. oh ya.. I wonder if ma kor comin back from canada this month.. he has not replied to ma mail yet.. It sure has been long..

later guys!

FOP again!!

woohoo!! I am so happy and blessed and awed.. I really wanna thank God fer da three nites of FOP.. I am so glad that I went fer all three nites.. I read mr Z's blog.. yeah.. Delirious is a more of soaking kinda thing.. and wow.. ma tag board also quite excited wo.. FOP FOP FOP!! woot! haha.. I bought Delirious' cd.. It is awesome.. Looks like I am jus too addicted to chirstian songs amen? woosh! I am so happy..

This morning did Amath RGS paper.. oh my.. I feel dumb..haha.. so many questions cannot do.. and I can spend 20mins on ONE question.. how great is that? lol.. I did it fer about 2hours and I am still at paper one.. heh..

ok.. today is national day.. hmm.. let's jus say that I am glad it is a holiday cuz there is soooo much homework to be cleared.. haha.. ma parents have gone off to m'sia with both ma bros this morning, fer da day.. I am here in sg tryin to clear ma piles of work.. not that I mind la.. m'sia.. ok la.. haha.. i am not in da mood to shop there..

yesterday, had piano.. will not have piano fer next two weeks.. haiz~ nvm la.. then I practice more on ma own first lo.. as ya all know, ma rythm is bad.. lol.. and I still wanna learn drum.. talk about tryin too hard.. hee.. ok ok.. I should have more faith in me? yes? hahaha..

these months, too busy to G4C. at most, reply PMs only..sorry guys.. esp wz..

okie.. that's all I can think of to say.. haha.. take care ya all.. and see u guys soon..

Festival of Praise!!

wow! It was truly awesome.. I felt so blessed.. the prescence of God was so strong.. I sang terribly.. but who cares?! ok.. mayb da pple beside me gotta tahan.. haha.. but it is all unto God.. hehe.. and He wont mind la.. hee..

I think da main singer from Delirious was so good.. Voice and talent of an angel man.. The joy that radiats from his face when he sees da pple worshipping God is so bright.. know what I mean? makes him look so angelic.. heh.. ok ok.. As usual, I love Darlene's voice. yes! she was saved in a Royal Rangers camp! cool eh?

haha.. when it was offering time, I thought of ma financial management.. as u all should know by now, I have super poor financial management.. this month was a suprise.. Decided to give offering fer missions Love offering till I felt da pinch.. I knew I lacked a week's allowance.. but I felt that God told me to put that amt in da offering bag, so I jus gave in faith.. guess what! I have just the right amt.. I have sufficient! God is awesome amen? =)

Praise and Glory be unto Him..

okie.. know what shar, ana and I named our uncle for letter writing? Uncle apple, pear n orange! haha.. lame rite? I sure hope that will put a smile on mrs foo's face.. haha.. comments are bound to be written..

know what? I showed da photo I took with baby Alton to some of ma friends.. since I am fat and I was super tired that day.. in da pic, looks as if I jus gave birth.. some pple actually believed me.. hahaha.. had a good time laughin man.. me? pregnant? erm........... heh..

ok.. lastly, today had da Be Yourself Day presentation.. It was so cool.. I know PY does not read ma blog.. but I think we should thank her fer her screams.. she reelie puts effort fer da class.. and a lot of effort to add.. jus that our class not cooperative.. btw: laughin is not a crime lo! heh.. U dunno what I am talking about rite?

ok la.. I gotta sleep le.. I feel so tired.. typin this and ma eyes are half open.. hahaha.. good nites pple!! *hugs* (to ya'll)

Rainy Rainy days...

It rained a zoo on sat! I was carryin an umbrella but was totally drenched.. haha.. then ma mum brought me xtra clothes, but she brought wrongly.. all ma dad's stuff except da shirt which was the thing I needed least.. lol.. but ok la.. ma jeans dried after a couple of hours.. :)

Had piano yesterday.. ma teacher ask me to try another piece.. Some piece that is suppose to be very relaxing one i think.. haha.. but he's goin fer reservice fer 2 weeks.. that means to piano fer 2 weeks.. :( oh well.. lookin on da bright side, I got more time to catch up with ma slow movin revision and can practice more on piano on ma own first.. hee..

I rmbr sayin last time, I miss playin with da band.. somehow, the feel is different.. cant wait fer O's to end.. then I can upgrade ma skills.. lol.. what a social studies way to put it.. haha..

neways, I reelie pray I can make it fer prelims.. Aim is to go to SAJC.. left about 4 weeks only.. and I have not started.. I am serious.. Weekends is supposed to be the time I have more time on ma hands to study.. but it seems that I have less.. oh well.. I have to do do do! chiong chiong chiong le..

ok.. I will end here.. =) go play piano a while then sleep le.. got 2 tests tmr..