work work work...

Isn't that what most people do their entire lives? We work hard in pri sch to get to a good sec sch. Then we work hard to get to a good college. then again to try to secure a place in a university, in a course that hopefully we prefer. Then, we work hard to get a good job. But that's not the end! we work hard to sustain that position in that job, or to climb higher, etc etc etc.

Recently, I've been pondering about what I wanna do in the future cos quite frankly, its been a question I've been putting off all my life. ha! and now, there is almost no more escaping. What do we want with our lives? can our future career really enhance that desire? or will it alternatively crush that goal, dream and hope. Where do we draw the line between being idealistic and realistic. Is it REALLY unrealistic to have ideals?

At this point, I'm torn between doing what I always thought would be interesting, and what I think i really really like. Psyc is something i feel would be interesting, but I really like lit. Yet, I have never been good at lit and the A levels have only been a one off thing where I did well. Then of course, the oh so familiar question comes from all around me: "what do you wanna do in the future anyways?" I DONT KNOW! heh. Counselor? Clinical Psychologist? Journalist? Teacher?

I know we shouldn't fret about our future because it is in God's hands. It's just that when you are pressed to make a decision which leads to something in the future, it gets so difficult. Sometimes, I think I should just to a double major and see what i wanna do next time. but i dont even know what are the implications of THAT. it's so frustrating and worrying. yet, I've been stuck with this question for so long, I don't feel anything anymore. heh. Hopefully I get into nus. Then I can take another year to try and decide.

Anyways, I dont know how I got to that topic. off to meet steffi and jean for lunch, then rakky for tea, then jm for dinner. what an exciting day ahead! PLUS I've been having breakfast with my mummy everyday! how wonderful is that? makes me not wanna work anymore hahaha.. but that wouldn't be "normal" would it? we were destined to work our butts off! haha.. kiddin kiddin. plus me moolah ish runnin low....... that's super bad. haha.. alrite, ciao for now! =)

Praise the Lord

Here to post my testimony :)

As you all know, A level results came out on friday. It was a really interesting emotional experience. As usual, we all have cold feet at one point or another. It might be months before the results, moments before, AT THE POINT of the slip being slipped into your hands, etc etc.. Well, for me it was on and off. God kept reminding me, saying 'you've trusted me throughout your entire course of study and through all the papers. so why fret over the results when all the papers are in my hands?'

So logical and so so true! so that kinda calmed the nerves. The point of receiving the results wasn't a screaming and tears of joy session either. somehow, in my heart, i knew completely that it wasn't by my might that I got those grades. come on! seriously! if you knew what kind of student I was and the grades I have been getting through out my entire JC life, you'd understand why my parents are so concerned and at times, fretting too :D haha.. God is amazing. Interesting how our weakness can really be made perfect in His strength ya?

so PRAISE THE LORD!! All things are possible through Him!

Wanna congratulate all those who did so well and improved leaps and bounds too :) even for those who didn't "meet the mark" in your own individual definitions, well done! I think all of us should be thankful that we survived the entire experience and at least we pulled through to the end! the question that keeps coming back is, "what now?". Well, i believe God has a plan. that's where our entire security lies yeah? who else knows our future better but the one who drafted it!

Once again, praise be to God and ALL glory to His name and His alone! =)