Being True To Yourself!!

I've just realised that it has been such a long time since I type about a topic. Actually, I cant really remember, have I ever typed about a topic before even? haha.. Ok, this is no different from my other posts la. yeah? It is just that I have been pondering lately (a few years!!)...

What does it really mean to be true to yourself? Why are there so many people who simply cannot enjoy just being themselves? Is it so important to be someone else? Or, to even try to be someone else? Don't people know that their insincerity to others (and themselves) is so obvious to some? I don't know if everyone sees that insincerity, but I do (or at least I think I do). And sometimes (or most of the time), it just irks me. hmm.. I really wonder, does it irk me cos I am judging others? or is there something that needs to be changed? or is it both ways?

I mean, when u try to be someone, though others may seem to like the "fake" u, dont u feel that u owe something to your true self? how do u feel really? it is kind of frustrating, yet I cant do anything. I know I can help me be true to myself (or at least try). but as for others, there is nothing I can do is there? haha.. let's see, am I ranting or am I making a point? lol.

sometimes, the thing I fear is that I become the person I despise. how?

hmm...

Homework homework homework....

yes! that is all my life is going to be about during the next few days. okay, I am exaggerating, although that shouldn't be the case. I have every single piece of homework untouched, except for the two lit essays that we have handed in so far, and our journal entries. Not something I am proud if, but, beat that! goodness. I cant believe the trouble i am in right now. but somehow, the complete stress I was feeling these days isn't affecting me so much now.

It is probably due to the fact that I know my time was well spent, and it was not due to my complete laziness that nothing was done. okay, I was not the most hardworking person this holidays. But it was really the busiest holiday I've ever had. BUT BUT BUT, no regrets there AT ALL! It was one of the most fulfilling and enriching holidays of my life, as well as one of the most enjoyable. yes yes, I admit, all my holidays have been enjoyable. who wouldn't enjoy a break away from sch rite? yupp. Thank God! I am so glad for holidays. Despite the mad rush, having mere hours of break in between each phase of holidaying. haha.. It was fun!

And now, 2007 is approaching. Hmm.. I'll be thinking about my resolutions for next year. Although, i don't usually base my day to day life around those goals. haha! But no harm planning and trying rite? I cant remember all my 2006 resolutions, but I know I should have accomplished most of them.

Caroling was awesome for me. I mean, not the best ever, and the fun was not as "high". But it was special. Firstly, JM made it! =) secondly, there were so many "new" people. As in, PGO people came too! that was really nice. And the sleep over, got to talk to Jane quite a bit.and a Christmas visit from Li Ju! (highlight!) It is amazing how I look back, and just marvel at how I can still be close to my pro sch friends when I hardly see them at all! It's awesome, really.. Oh yes, and comm Sera with Jeff. ahh.. may all your wishes, prayers and dreams come true =)

Merry Christmas! 9 more days of Christmas to go!! :D hee...
On the 1st day of Christmas my true love gave to me..................... (eee! I hate that song! wahhaa)

Happy Christmas All !!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :)

woah.. these few days have been so good yet so painful. hah! good for the soul, painful for me pockets =( but, its the season of giving! so, its been a joy!hahaha...

Cant wait for this week's activities to happen! it's gonna be fun fun fun! =)

See u all. sorry this is so short, but I am not in the "expressing mood". haha!

Later~