sick...

haiz.. Im sick. I hate hate hate to be sick =( *pouts* For the first time in my life, I have a super super pain headache, and a sleep didnt help. really couldn go to school. Had to go doc on my own though. Super pain, didnt feel well. Tired, etc etc.. I hate this feeling. =(

Today, I've slept a total of about 18hours already. ha! I hope it helps. =) tmr gg back to school, but I dont think I can do any work. still got econs test on thurs. haiz. how? it's a lecture test somemore. I hope it'll be cancelled. Im really in no state to study.

Tmr got chinese test. see how ba. I hope I'll feel better later. then can study a bit. but medicine will make me drowsy. see how la. too sick to think too much also.

to my wonderful friends, grace, steffi and wan lin: thank you for all your care, concern, and prayers! It really encouraged me today even though I was super unwell =)

To God be the Glory!! =)

I've got a testimony! I've got a testimony! and I HAVE TO share it!! cuz it really amazes me! :D

ok, where shall i start? alright, I'll start where all thing start. yup! the BEGINNING! haha.. ok, so I was told on sunday that I had to do scripture reading on thursday (today). yeah. I was about to freak out. then God reminded me that He wanted to teach me something in my 2 years in SA.

Anyways, I said ok, decided to prepare on wednesday since I was at a funeral then. Then I kept praying through the week cuz i was very scared. Like, really really scared. let's jus say speaking in front of my entire cohort is not something I am exactly like comfrotable with? u know, hundreds of people, speaking into a mic, reading aloud? etc etc? yeah, u get my drift.

Then, my dad reminded me, it's not about u! It's about God. Pray for the non-believers that they will understand what you read and learn from it. So, I decided to shift my focus. then i prayed over the versus and for the pple that morning. But I WAS STILL VERY SCARED.

This morning, during morning worship, Anna shared 2 verses, and they were applicable to me emotions and my thoughts at that moment! wow!! Isn't God amazing? then I rushed out of the LT to go prepare after morning worship. I was like, ok, what come may. God will use me. All I have to do is to STOP thinking about myself.

Then when I went up there, there was some guy reciting the pledge again and again. Even though I dont know him, he talked to me. he kept thinking he forgot a line of the pledge. haha.. It made me laugh.So I laxed for a while. After the actual reciting of the pledge, I was like, ok... now is the time. Breathe in, go!

So, I read from my paper. My legs were trembling la! then by the time I was reading my prayer, I felt that my whole body was trembling. All the time, my stomach felt super constricted and I was feeling super nervous. But I just did what i had to do, taking in deep breaths again and again. Ok, then I was feeling kinda down after reading it. As in, for a moment or two. Cuz I felt that I didnt succeed.

but when I went down to join my class, they said I seemed pretty confident. And msK even encouraged me. I was like so thankful la! It appears that the raging nervousness I felt inside of me didnt show much. Praise the Lord! i really hope people were really listening to the scriptures read, and I heard they understood. =)

oh ya, I left out one thing! I woke up sick! so my nose and throat was blocked the whole early morning! so, I sounded nasal (so gracie poo said :) haha.. it didnt exactly help my "confidence". haha.. but it went alright.

To God be the glory!! ~

Praise the Lord!!

prayer really really works! amen! I was so scared and decided to pray. end result? I'm still alive! ok, mayb I sound like Im talking rubbish. but I dont wanna say exactly what happened la.. anyways, it was another miracle! Praise the Lord! =)

This weekend is super burnt. AGAIN! haiz.. so busy.. I don even think I can go for band practice today. see how ba..

Really short post today. later~

Here I am... AGAIN!!!

helloooo... can u believe it?! I'm actually blogging. AGAIN! see, miracles do happen! haha.. well, one thing I've learnt recently is, everyone has the same amount of time and work NEVER ends. really. so, it's how you priorities and MAKE TIME for things.

An example would be my kor, when he was in college and uni, he still wrote to me. I was thinking, he was definitely a thousand times more busy then me! so, how come he could send me letters and cards, and I cant even reply to my dearest RUYING's letter? haha.. then I was thinking, and I decided, I didnt reply cuz I didnt MAKE time. so, yeah.. I've decided to try to MAKE time to do things that I wanna do. Am I any free-er? NO! No doubt everyone has their skool/work responsibilities. but what happened to social responsibilities? hmm.. just the things I've been thinking about this past week la =) sorry if I sound incoherent. I'm quite tired.

anyways, moving on... know what? know what? last nite, elliot lost his skool handbook, so I was kinda looking a lil for him and also finding something else. cant rmbr what I was searching for, BUT BUT BUT, I FOUND ALL MY PLANETSHAKERS CDs!! yeah!! haha.. after losing half of them for over a year, I finally found them! praise the Lord! =) I was so happy la! haha.. that means I found all my PS Cds this month! one half found last week I think. haha.. so happy! :) Praise the Lord. my lil bro, unfortunately was not so fortunate. he could not find his handbook at all.. *gasp* haha.. Ruying, u spread ya messymessness to him rite? haha.. MUST be! :D

to U: I am super angry and kinda hurt. I bet u dont know. know what? the anger u made me feel today took my friend 7 years to make me feel that way! u took like, one month TOPS! haiz.. but I'm gonna pray about it and I know somehow I may forgive u. argh! I jus don get u, u know that! nvm.. I jus wanna let go. it's not good for me, not good for u, not good for ANYONE.

alright, now that I've got it of my chest, erm... what should I say next? oh ya! today, it rained, like STORMED all of a sudden. haha.. I was so so happy. that really made my day. the weather is truly unpredictable! =) It was so strong and the wind was so strong such that it looked like a snow storm, but when the snow has not become snow yet. know what I mean.. it reminded me of my U.S. holiday trip last year. when the snow storm was going on outside the lodge and we were inside drinking hot choco and stuff =)

oh yes! and I have one more thing to thank God for! I was put in charge of settling food for SFC tmr rite? then I was quite scared that it will be too last minute cuz we only found out on mon! but PTL!! everything was settled today, and we even got variety sia! thank God! Jana, Hui Ru and Eunice, thanks u guys! hopefully all will go well tmr! thanks again! :)

wait wait! one more! lots of blessings to count today. the week b4, Raksha lost her mp3 and she was so sad la! then I went home and prayed that she will find it. When we were chatting, she kinda said, things that have to be gone will be gone. so, yeah.. anyway, I went home and prayed for her during my quiet time! guess what?! she found it!! I'm so happy for u Rakrak! haha.. I know how it feels to lose smth. and I really dont like that feeling! take care!

Charlene: I'll be praying for u! u may not be a Christian, but if u do somehow read this. Trust in God ok? dont worry too much, and please DO take loadsa care. if need be, quickly seek help.

okies, I'm off for now.. see when the next miracle happens and I'll blog again! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

woohoo!! today is my lil bro's birthday! He's jus turned 9 yrs old! haha.. well, we celebrated it yesterday. children's parties are quite fun sometimes cuz there are so many cute cute children! haha.. yesterday, dad asked me to lead in a game. well, honestly, I am always unsure of how to lead lil children in games? cuz it can be really hard to get their attention! haha.. but it turned out fine enough. dad helped me to gather the children, then I jus started to lead. They were excited and stuff, and I didnt even need to do anything! haha.. yay!

there was so much good food that mum cooked! unfortunately, I was feeling too tired and not hungry. haha.. so, jus pinch a lil food here and there, then watch tv, talk to ruying, see who else to talk to and stuff.haha.. well, SO MUCH LEFT OVER! goodness.. when it comes to cooking, I think my mum is superwoman. haha..

oh ya! and Hannah is such a cute lil darling u know! she was one of the last few to go home, so she wanted to play with me. then I played with her for a while, but had to do homework. so, I told her I have to do work. but she still wanted to follow me, so I told her: can, but cannot disturb ok? she was such a good girl la! haha.. she just asked for pen and paper, then she sat on her own and started drawing for me a picture. so sweet!! she's K2, so u can imagine her drawing.. ok ok, mayb u cant. haha.. well, it was an angel heart. u know, a heart that is an angel? yeah.. :D haha.. I was so happy. she's so cute. really! =)

today. I was so not ready to go to school for such a long day. thank God, one teacher was absent. so my day ended like, almost 2 hours early!haha.. it was a good break altho we still had assigned work. tonite, I'm so going to dive into bed and snooze for a long long long time..haha..

And I went for piano today, not knowing its a term holiday at yamaha. haiz.. so i stood there for 20mins waiting.. then still no sign of my teacher, so decided to ask the counter. then aha! found out it was a term holiday. lol.. ok lor.. so, yeah.. in some ways, it was good timing again, cuz I have not practiced my pieces for about half a month already. haha.. I definitely must find some time to go pratice..

now, its like natural to sit in front of the piano and jus play chords and sing.. so its like, I always forget to pratice my tau gehs.. haha.. oops! hee.. =) alritey, my bro wants to use the com! ciao for now =) God bless u all!

Planetshakers "concert"!!

yeah!! Past two nites, went to expo for the planetshakers "concert". It was good! It's like u can really see the band worshiping. as in like, I jus felt it was a lil different from FOP in some sense. but I wont elaborate la. however, on the first nite, the pple behind me were like more crazy about the band then God. if u know what I mean.. but, i don wanna judge la. God sees the heart, all I hear is their SCREAMS** haha.. then on the 1st nite, met like almost all my JC2 SFC seniors. They were like, in front of me. so, said hi and all that.

Last nite, went with Rung and Ruying. haha! Rung: I admit I am rather easily amused, but u ARE funny! haha.. seriously, I never knew that fruits MUST have seeds! haha.. but I am sure seedless grapes are fruits! :D hee.. then last nite, the preacher was very funny. but overall, I prefered the 1st nite's preacher. somehow, I kept praying throughout the thing that pple will come to know God.

when I looked around, I saw quite a number of malays. I was so happy! it's like, what great oppotunity!! I hope they enjoyed it, and I pray many gave their lives to Him.. okok, I gtg le. gotta go church soon.

Ruying!! see ya soon! then I can see u in your formal clothes! =D

I'm back!!!

haha.. so so so so so so sorry for not posting for so long! haha.. It has been super hectic and rush rush rush for things.


Well, quick update.


Last sunday, got to see kor! He came out of NS for the weekend. Bo tak suites you kor! haha.. =D hee..


Guess what happened today? my form wanted to see us. then we were all kinda like fretting. thinking, what did we do this time? haha.. guess what she did?! haha.. she gave us a secret Recepie banana choc cake! woah! haha.. so huge la! so the class sang birthday songs to ourselves. woohoo! haha.. chinese teach looked embarressed that we are his class. haha.. so funny. then he was like turning red and all that. haha.. The cake was yummylicious! haha.. I like SR la.. =)

ok, then it has been a loooong day also..

after taf running after school, went to caf to meet some SFC pple. people keep asking me not to let others bully me! hmm... I'm that smiley meh? tim wan and pris keep asking me to give an angry face. haha.. so funny. I cant act la.. Haha.. mayb one day.. hmmm...... dunno la! haha.. I guess I will say I can be nice to people. But if someone clearly tries to take advantage of me being nice then I may not be so nice any more.. I think la.. haha.. what say u? hmm..

anyways, CANT WAIT FOR FOP!!!!! yay!! haha.. Ruying, see ya tmr =) hopefully can have sleepover.. haha.. yeah!! It's gonna be an awesome time of praising HIM! yeah! cant wait cant wait cant wait!! =D and what's more? next friday got PLANETSHAKERS!! yeah! haha.. so excited =)

Oh ya! we had chinese debate today. haha.. it was quite funny. So many english words!! haha.. so many ideas to express, too little chinese vocab! ahhh!!! haha..

alritey, I gtg.. see when my next update will be ba~ =D See u all, and God bless!