things are getting better!!

Had class outing to plaza sing today. Hamidah's first visit! wow! haha.. only 2 pple couldnt make it. it was great! haha.. I think I am beginning to love my class and love SA. haha..Praise the Lord. I am adjusting much faster as compared to sec1. PTL for that. and today was a goooood day. haha..

It's so wonderful starting everyday with Praise and Worship. It makes so much difference. =) It is just so wonderful to feel that things are getting better and feel so blessed. I dont know how to describe everything, but I just feel so blessed. of course still gotta adjust a bit, but I think things are getting much better. Thank God! =)

and know what? I met 2 other pple today who were from my pri sch! there was this warm feeling inside to see pple whom I have not interacted with for soo long! haha.. these 2 guys were like, my pri 3 friends I think. haha.. how cool is that?! lol..

some shout outs!:

zelig: thank you so much for your pm. It made my day. =)

wz: thanks for everything. take care yeah..

jm: I miss you!! see u tmr! haha.. then I can see u in that camouflage suit. hee =D

official 1st day at SA

well, I must say I made some friends, got around a lil more, and got to buy the uniform. It was a rush to meet the supplier jus b4 flag raising, but thank God for daddy. He drove me to school, picked up the supplier who lives nearby, and dropped me off at school.

The skirt was too long, so I had to fold it. felt so weird. but no choice mah. at least I didnt stand out in my blue cedar uniform. haha.. honestly, I was quite offended when someone asked me if I was from commonwealth. but oh wells, these kind of mistakes do happen. As long as I am a cedarian at heart, that's all that matters yeah?

My goodness. SO MANY familiar faces in SA. From pri sch, from sec sch, friend's friends, etc. thank God for EVERYTHING. well, my day, all in all was pretty alright. But I dont know why I felt like crying when I was making my way home. same old adapting syndrome? I dont know. but one thing i know for sure, i am not looking fwd to pe and taf. haha! But if I dont die, ok lor.. lol. The stress seems to be getting back to me already. like, so many things la. I dont know how to verbalise it. nvm. I know I am in God's plan.

I dont wanna go on. i think I should just stop thinking, and just do the things I have to do. JC career is too short for me to think too much yeah? Well, thank God I have my daddy, mummy, kor, wz korkor, zelig, JM ruying, lio, etc etc..

JM: I am missing u so much already. I cant exactly be myself when I am there without u. haha.. pple are jus so different. but we will all survive somehow rite? ok. till next time, later~

SAJC.. God's promise, fufilled.

yes. As almost the whole world knows cuz I told them, I have been accepted into SA! what are my emotions now? well, to sum it all up, REAAAAAALLYY blessed and nervous. ha! well, I feel super lost at the moment. I am sure things will settle down and I will grow to love the school. I am so so so so so sure that this is God's plan. not only was He stretching my faith, He had it all planned such that everything was JUST NICE. just b4 I bought my uniform, SA called. Just when I was feeling that TP was still not the place for me, SA called. just when I decided to leave it ALL in HIS hands, SA called. isnt our God just so amazing? this time, my faith has been stretched a great deal. and I have learnt that with God, all things ARE possible. =D Praise be to God.

Ruying: camp is never easy, but it's the bond with the pple that makes the camp rock so much. and personally, it was the encounter with God nightly as well.

Elhannah: oh ya. thanks for the reminder dear! know what? during the camp, we built a bridge and tower out of mere wood and ropes. pple climbed on it ok! dont play play. haha.. I must say, we did even better then the guys. ok la, not we say one la. but the guys did an awesome job too! =D AJs rock! rock on man!

alritey, I feel so bad that I made my dad run around just now going all over sg to buy the SA uniform when he is already so busy. Thank God for my daddy. without him, I wouldnt have learnt so much. learnt about what? everything in general la. =) tmr gotta rush to meet the supplier to get the uniform jus b4 school so I wont stand out in my blue uniform (no matter how cool) in a sea of whites. hahaha.. I am praying for courage to make new friends, keep a positive attitude towards my 'loss-ness' and to quickly settle down so I can start with CCA and studying. haha.. It's not that I am eager to study. but I am eager to get my JC career started and ending. haha!

please keep me in ya prayers yeah? love u guys. thanks and take care!

oh ya. btw: SO MANY PPLE FROM CEDAR IN SA. goodness! and yes, thank God for ken also. it's so nice to see familiar faces. although saw one face that I didnt wanna. it's ok la. not same class neways. lol. later guys~

Advanced Junior Training Camp (AJTC), yeah!

ok, I think I only told JM that I will be going to camp. yup. another training camp. In my opinion, it was tough at times but on the whole it was SPLENDID! haha.. fun too. The prescence of God could be felt during the council fires at night. and God used the pastor to speak into my heart. at that point of time when the pastor told me what God wanted me to know, i couldnt help but weep. It was something like, i know it was a problem yet I never really saw it as a problem? ok, I bet no one knows what I am saying now. nvm.

I just broke camp at about 2.30pm. haha.. graduation was so cool! haha.. AJTC really showed what we are made of. well, ok, our presentation was very screwed up. BUT, that was only one screw up out of the millions of other skits, cheers, yells, song, etc etc.. haha.. COOL! great job AJs! I really pray that our friendship will last. In fact, this time, there was already a bond there cuz many pple in AJTC were the same as the pple who went to last years JTC.

just came back from fetching elliot from RR in church. saw many pple. serene is growing prettier and prettier! my goodness.. life's jus not fair. haha! oh wells, and during RR fall out parade, Rayvin was like watching and the expression on his face was like 'I rmbr doing this once' haha... it was cool. then saw bryan. He spoke to me as if he were so much older then me. haha.. asking me to study hard, which sch I am in, etc etc. well, it was cool. have not really spoken to him like, SPOKEN to him for some time.

Well, I really thank God for the many friends He has put in the path of my life. although some of these friends we seldom see, or we are just 'hi-bye' friends, they are still crucial to some point in our lives. haha..

oh ya! last night, during camp, out dutch oven choc cake and lasagnia ROCKED! haha.. like TOTALLY ROCKED!!! lol.. uncle sandy said our cake was 'the best cake in the world' yeah!! my dear falcons, dont give excuses ok. it's not jus bout the choco. haha.. =D Bobcats, well done! we got our Gold medal once again! indeed we have reached our goal! haha.. yeah!

may our friendships last forever and may we remember all that we have learnt in the camp. see u all next year! haha! love ya all.. It's been a great time.

(I think I've missed out a lot of things from the camp, but my pia matter is jus not functioning at the mo. lol. =D)

yesterday.....today......tomorrow.....

wat happened yester. hmm..ok.started da day by sendin may jiejie 2 the airport.she went bck 2 philippines for 3 mths cuz her mom's sick.she teared aft hugging conrad n I. =( I miss her so much already.@ the mean time,we hav a temp.she's really nice too. but jus like all pple,she'll need time 2 settle in n get in2 a routine 1st.but so far she's cool. =)

Aft tt,went 2 elliot's sch 2 watch him run in sports day.yeah! this bro of mine is a proman!haha.. I love my whole family la. =) his grp did a kind of relay thing.his grp came in 2nd!yeah!great job moosey!haha..

then I went 2 meet ruying.it was suppose 2B for lunch b4 BJTC.howeva,neither of us felt like eatin.so I ate fries at mac while she drank ice milo.haha..name e basic 2 drinks tt ruying drinks?

1) H20

2) ice milo

=D hahaa..

then for BJTC,it was quite boring.like, I sat thru it b4.lol..so I read a book 'secrets of the vine'. then started playin hp games.lol..yup..then we had alot of time 2 spare so ruying n I played keyb n slacked ard.lio was lookin super bored.haha..delson didnt cum cuz he was in m'sia.lio was like the only guy amgst us 3.haha..ok,so we revised ropecraft 4 this week's trainin camp,n learnt the theory of cleanin a bike. =) poor lio sounded kinda stressed up wen he called in the morning.mayb it was cuz of HER ba.wont go on.I'm jus guessing.he needed to bring a bike,asked me if I cud bring 1,so got my dad 2 bring 1.ok.settled..thanks dad!

In rangers I had 2 buy new rangers shirt.it was SOOO big.ok,I'm fat so the width was ok, jus more baggy.but the length was TOOO long.haha..imagine if I pull the shirt straight, it's almst at my knee.hahahah..

today,I'm happy!!haha.bought a guit bag from swee lee.haha..it was $24.but dunno y got 20% disct.so, it was only $20.15.2 think dad wanted me to jus go yamaha n get da $30++ one which i wasnt reely interested in.haha..nt my dad's fault la.he tot we wer gg 2 PS 2 eat mah.then wan me 2 spend time eatin wif da family.but in da end,mum suggested eatin @ bras basah which is where I wanted 2 scout 4 guit bags.yeah! I like da one i got.I mean,how nice can it get la.haha..but,I like it!feel a sense of POSESSION!! =D lol..

tmr got guit xchange,only playin Adante,but I'm lookin fwd 2 hearin da senirs and other schs playin their pieces.yeah!ciao pple!God bless. =D

a visit from kor..

yupps.. my kor came to visit last nite. kor, xing ku ni le. haha.. he came to visit and in the end he had to give conrad 'tuition' haha.. Thank God for that tho. but he was already so tired then still stayed up with us till 1+am before he went to meet lio. we went for supper mah. then this morning I almost coma. haha..

well, it was definitely a good time spending time with kor. It has been such a long time since the last time we ate together. (as i recall) we didnt eat dinner together, but had supper.

haha.. I wonder how daddy's doing. He has sch till 10pm this evening. then for the past few weeks he sleep very lil also. really worry for his health and feel like forcing him to go and sleep. but there's no way I can do that is there? haiz~ what to do?

today was another boring day. oh wells, just one more dead boring day to go. haha.. seriously, I'd rather be having a full timetable. lol. went with Jm to TM just now. we were so down after chinese. like depression man. haha.. kidding la. but, we were feeling so down and tired. but an ice cream healed all that! =D it's so nice to be able to see JM 5 days a week again. haha..

yesterday, had guitar pratice. I think I was the only one from the 2nd intake who went. then others just join yester. but cuz of JM I went. one word, FUN! haha! It was quite stressful to play during ensemble to think these pple I am playing with have been practicing for at least 2 months and I, a newb was playing with them. haha.. but it was so totally fun. =) JOIN GUITAR! next mon, going with them for the guitar exchange prog. cant wait! haha.. I join them for one day and now I am going on an outing?! haha.. how cool's that? lol. thank God la. if not for JM I think I will just be bumming around with nothing to do.

now, the dilema. to desire SA still or to remain content with Tp. cuz frankly, I am content. but I dont know if this is what God really wants for me. I guess I will know by the end of this week. have been praying. pray along! =)

TAKE CARE YOU ALL!!

Cycling and Orientation 2

ok, cycling. It was SUPER tiring. haha.. when we made the wrong turn I couldnt take it le. the terrain was just too tough for unfit me. haha.. I almost fainted. <- THIS IS NOT AN EXPRESSION! yes! I nearly fainted as in u know, vision blurred, heat rate speeded up loads and I find it hard to breathe etc etc? yeah. but thank God, after taking a sweet and drinking so much water, felt much better. thank God for aunty julie and kor.if not, I dunno what happen liaos. haha..

then, we all ate dinner at changi. nasi lemak! yummm.. =D had to queue for 15 mins lor. haha.. so long. but it was worth it la. =D oh ya, I forgot to say where we cycled. PULAU UBIN =)

today had first day of orientation 2. know the disease called boredom? yeps. that was basically what I suffered from during most of the day. lol. but there were definitely some ups about my day!

1) got to go crazy with JM's guit seniors: yoyo, jingxian and xiao wen. haha! one crazy bunch man! jus like JMand me

2) got to go subway and see aunties and uncle. of course, got to eat subway with Jm also =)

3) had piano lesson

well, if u notice, it has ZILCH to do with the orientation prog. lol. seriously, I was bored stiff. ok la, made some friends, got to know some pple, and got to dislike some pple. oh well, that's how the world was made rite? not everyone can be likable. or rather, I wont be able to like everyone. haha..

van: so sad lor! I separated from u. U have THREE cedarians in ya OG and I have NONE. haha.. life's not fair. I know. BUT......BUT.......BUT.... HAH! =) oh wells..

JM: I cant wait to join you in guitar on wed! I AM NOT PRO IN GUITAR LOR! stop spreading rumours! blech! *bish*

SAJC

today, I went to SAJC during shar and ken's last period. joinned them for a while in the lib then went to find a teach. I am so not used to calling ken: kenny. haha.. too used to it. then when pple just simply call him kenny, I have to refer to him as kenny. argh! haha..

met some nice pple. I went for the Saints For Christ session today. it was fun and refreshing. I met this girl that I rmbr from the Sa open house. she is so sweet and soft spoken. so nice. I liked SFC cuz I felt like I could really express myself (not go crazy la, but can share). and study the Bible, etc etc etc. then some teach wanted us to stay to learn some songs for chapel. then she ask me to hang around also. then I was like, ohh.. ok lor. I thought, anything la. then this guy, Joshua, shar's classmate. he suggested going home instead. lol. so, we just left lor. nice guy to talk too. something about fellowshiping with fellow bros and sis in Christ. it's just such a wonderful thing I dont know how to express in words. =)

so, yeah.. that's about all that happened today. oh ya! there was a rumour spreading in the SA lib that the posting was out! so, we all went to check. I saw TPJC. although I was mostly expecting it, I felt so sad I felt like crying. but, i did not la. then ken had to comfort his friend who was sad she was staying in SA. haha.. I didnt know if I should have laughed or cried. ironic isnt it? heh..

the thing I so so love about SA is that the culture is so welcoming and nice. I mean, It's not even my first proper day there or anything and I feel like crying just at the thought of probably not being able to get into Sa.

I am in a dilemma cuz I rmbr God promising me that I would be in SA. well, I will just hold the floodgates and pray about it. IF I really end up in TP, I say this trying to be optimistic, SO BE IT. Lord give be strength I pray..