knocked out..

yeah. I knocked out. again! I am such a piggy. yesterday, ma folks went to the Converse warehouse sale. They bought me this pink tee.. although i dont like pink. I liked this one. haha.. thanks mum and dad!

In the evening, we went to the beach for like seaside dinner with sherlyn, shermien and family. it was cool. It has been so long since I have seen their family. It was fun. haha.. told them about rum-rum.. Hilarious.

well, my morning was almost entirely gone. I slept at bout 11pm yester but I woke up at about 9am. lol.. 10 hours! so far, I only did one chap of Amath TYS. well, I reelie need to buck up. But got piano. going to do my theory homework now. Will try to pia more tonite.. :D hee..

12 hours sleeping..

haha.. yeah..I slept like a pig yester nite.. hee.. :D well, went to Subway with JM again.. hee.. long session again. we studied from 9am to about 6pm? yep.. of course I stopped fer lunch la. and we laughed till we had cramps sia.. hor JM? haha.. the aunty was so nice.. offered to make us something the next time we go. but we said we didnt know when wil be the next time we are going to go there.. haha..

while waiting for cell group to start, I decided to close my eyes for a while.. haha.. then I dozed of. lol.. I slept fer 12 hours! woke up at 7.30am this morning.. so yeah. I slept around 7.30pm last nite.. hee.. :D this morning did 2 emath papers.. to be precise, 1 1/2. haha..

JM. finish crescent paper le.. u are right man.. I got like B3? lol.. but I did not do the graph n locus question la..haha.. if not careless may got A2 le.. but neways. still not A1.. all in all, jia u ya'all! :D

Farewell Ms Leong.. God bless u..

Today was such a sad and emotional day. Just received smsed from many pple last nite saying it is Ms Leong's (principal) last day today. So, there was some suprise farewell thingy.so I went.. I was so sad.. Felt so empty..although i am graduating.. It would be different visitong sch and seeing a new principal.. oh ya, and our new VP also leaving for some other sch. I was like huh?! she came for hardly a month or so... and she is so nice! this is so sad..

cried and cried during the performance, slideshow and speech.. it was so touching and I was like, missing her already.. after walking out of the hall, we all gave her a hug.. she was like crying so much.. I felt so empty.. she even bothered to call us by name when she hugged us.. I truly admire her..

even when she had to give an impromptu speech.. she was stil being her humourous self.. she was making us laugh and we were crying at the same time.. it was so sad.. shar did not go.. she slept late.. hey! I am not slacker ! haha..

okie.. that's all I gotta say about today.. gotta go study soon..

Soaking wet..

Yesterday was another wild day.. JM and I were going to Subway.. then only when we reached PL did I rmbr that I left my Hp and mp3 in school with the Canteen lady.. I was like apologising to JM..I felt so bad.. then she said

'nvm. We are quits. I made u take the wrong bus that day, so now I accompany u to go take your hp' I was like. wow! haha.. then God answered my prayer at the wrong time.. haha.. no la.. Just that I prayed fer rain. and both of us do not bring brollies around de.. so, we were stranded at the bus stop fer about an hour? I think so.. and it was still pouring..

Bing puddle were everywhere and big vehicles that drove pass were like, splashing big waves near us.. lol.. so, she suggested we stand on the bus stop seat.. i was like, 'what if members of the public complain about us being inconsiderate or smth?' haha.. but we still did it neway.. then guess what?! everyone else in the bus stop copied us.. hahaha.. it was hilarious.. but by then, we were already soaking wet.

Finally, a kind soul junior loaned us her brolly. so, we went back to school to get my hp and mp3.. Then JM wanted to forget about Subway.. haha.. but do u think I would let her? hahaha.. so, we went Subway.. by then it was almost 5pm. Talk about late lunch.. haha.. Thank God for my daddy.. I thought he was unhappy that I am always going to Subway.. in the end, he even offered to fetch me home! haha.. :D

next, chem pract. I am quite happy.. I am not good at chem. and I dont have interest either. so, I give up. wait! hear me out first. Give up meaning I just study and go for the exam. Like what I do for all my other subjects.. Just that I may do minimal.. and I do not plan to count it in my L1R5. Unless by a miracle I get an A1 or smth.. hee.. I was like doing my practical and praying at the same time..sub consciously.. but somehow, I was still a lil nervous. hands were trembling.. lol.. so weird.. thank God! another prayer answered! my bunsen burner was working fine this time, and my invigilators were not my dad's friends.. no pressure.. hee.. :D yeah! I love God so much man.. what would I do w/o Him..

oh ya! on monday, ma dad bought me 5 CDs! I was so so happy.. it started with I wanted to buy e disney cd.. haha.. I know, some say kiddy.. but I wanted it.. then my dad agreed.. so that was 2 cds le.. then we were talking about studying.. so, studying, cannot study with music that has lyrics.. when memorising that is.. so, he bought me a Richard Clayderman collection.. 3 cds! woohoo.. haha.. 5 cds. price of 2.. :D happy.. lol..

I just came back from meeting PQ.got back my chem notes.. thanks dearie! while I was waiting at the bus stop, so many pple thought I was an adult then they just ignore me. Until I called out their name then they give me that shocked look.. hahaha..

okie.. I better eat my lunch.. woke up late, so have not done any work fer da whole day.. ciaos pple.. take care!

tired.. very tired..

I know this may sound like nothing to those people who can choose not to sleep for days.. but I am the type that likes to have my 8 full hours of beauty sleep . (in the end still not beautiful -.-'') on saturday decided to take a bath and stay up to study.. cuz I watched this Korean show until 12midnite.. so romantic, so nice..

neways, to cut the story short, i slept at 4.30am.. siao rite? I stopped work around 3.30am.. by the timt I did my quiet time and wind down, 4.30 le lo.. then i thought I was gonna coma the next day.. suprisingly! I woke up at nine! i mean, when I have my 8 hours, I wake up at nine.. lol.. amazing.. so i thought mayb I will knock out in the afternoon.. I didnt! studied till I was very tired, then ended up watching tv.. so,I 'recuperated'.. haha.. the wonders of tv.. :D

then at night, I was like, ok. I am gonna knock out fer sure.. guess what? I did not again..haha.. I mean.. I slept about midnite.. or slightly later..after studying summore.. I was like, ok........ tmr's (which is today) is gonna be a problem. and this time, I was right.. haha.. told ma dad to make sure I wake up at 7. he had to call me twice on the phone.. then I lay on my bed till 7.30. I decided to get up.. cuz if I did not.. I would end up sleeping again.. hahaha..

studied fer chem pract this morning.. nothing much else.. tmr is chem pract paper.. I am not good at chem..so, just study and go fer the exam lor.. all in God's hands le.. okie..I'm going off now.. gotta leave fer piano soon.. it's raining.. love it! but I dun wanna get wet.. eek! brollies dun reelie help in this kinda rain.. :D ciaoz pple! keep it real..

some things I left out yeaterday

hee.. I left out some stuffs yesterday.. In fact, I left out the most important thing.. haha.. just now JM reminded me.. she is so gonna be so malu.. hee.. ok, she was like teasing me about being streetwise yester.. just cuz I told her muct cross road to take bus back. then she laugh at me say no need.. in the end, we ended up near serangoon.. I was like, 'what did u say? u smart? huh? huh?' haha.. then she was like, we better get down now and take bus back.. so I was laughing at her all the way and made her play a game with me.. haha..

that's all la.. just wanna malu her.. then when I went home, I was walking past this house.. then this baby called out to me.. he said ''jie jie' haha.. made my day man..haha.. dunno me and still call me jie jie.. cute sia..

haha.. then at nite got CG.. Abel called me without me needing to ask him.. Amelia kept forcing me to play this rubber band game with her.. haha.. kids are so amusing.. haha.. esp babies.. ok, Abel is like, 4? but in ma eyes he is a baby la.. then also got Crystal.. she is one cheerful baby.. haha.. guess what she did? yes. she ate my cell group notes.. hee.. :D now it is like, one part gone.. good thing aunty mary took that piece of paper out of her mouth.. but nevertheless, she still bit off part of ma paper.. hee..

okie.. that's all fer yesterday.. today is boring, nothing much to say la.. besides studying and my painful crushed knuckles.. (wont say y here la.. it'll be ranting Again) okie.. ciaos pple.. bye!

Open Houses

I have to say, this day has been rather interesting.. Meridian JC was interesting..I met so many familiar people.. First Mr Chiang (u know, the muscle man who always doesnt really have nething planned fer english lessons?), Daniel, Joshua, Andes and Ken! wow.. so many pple in one place.. ok, I basically bump into Dan no matter where I go.. lol.. and ken, recently too.. Talking to Mr Chiang, was like, ok, he cant exactly hold a conversation.. haha.. when we dont say nething, he just look around.. lol..k la.. not everyone is perfect.. JM: I am esp sayin this to u.. hahahha..

Was pleasantly suprised when Andes called me and later, when Dan called me too.. Joshua was with Daniel..He said I did not change.. I was like, 'I put on so much weight'.. he said 'no la, still the same'.. haha.. Dan was like gonna laugh.. I dont think I have remained the same.. I am much much much fatter.. hee.. :D

ok, on the other hand, TPJC was not the most exciting of all open houses. Well, to put it simply and nicely, it looked deserted.. Will stop here and not go on.. not so nice.. To find out more about the sch, I think I will just ask ma mummy grace.. haha.. more reliable source.. in a sentence, TP open house didnt work fer me..

okie.. that is all fer the open houses.. I am feelin so tired, but hve not done ne work today.. looks like I have to pull thru and do some work from ma timetable.. still got piano homework man.. haiz~ I'll take that as relaxation la.. :)

Fruitful day

haha..I am talking about yester.. It was a fruitful day.. the earliest time me and JM actually went to subway.. hee.. yes! again! we met around 9am.. but both of us were early, so we met around 8.40+.. we went to eat macs breakfast then headed straight fer subway..wow! we were there from 9.30am-5.00pm? around there..that is like 7 1/2 hours? haha.. we spent 5 hours studying..

met my mum's friend there.. she was like 'are u reelie studying?' haha.. Felt so cheated.. of course I am studying.. haha.. 5 hours leh.. but we are humans ma.. need to stop fer lunch.. haha.. but she is such a nice and friendly lady..

the aunty at Subway was like, so surprised to see us.. haha.. she was like 'woah! early morning must come and eat subway already arh?' haha.. then this guy who works at Subway was wearing specs.. look so cute.. haha.. but JM said, he looks nerdy.. lol..

neways, we did so much work.. I mean, not a lot like A LOT.. but we did ten year series, had lunch, then did a timed paper under exam conditions.. so disappointing.. I was so so so careless.. I need to get rid of my carelessness.. or else my math papers will die.. =(

okie.. gonna meet JM to go fer open houses soon..

later~

Fuming.. screamed.. dont know if I should regret..

haiz~ just screamed ma head off and elliot.. the youngest bro.. I have not screamed at a person like that fer dunno how long already.. when I say scream is reelie SCREAM! argh.. he was being so rude to ma maid, even ma grandma.. whatever u say to him in a time like this never gets in, so I screamed.. but as usual, he insists on doing things his own way.. this is jus so irritating.. I mean, here I am, supposed to be alone at home so I can study most of the day away, and now he has to do this to me.. I am not exactly in the best of moods cuz of HER..

I have been praying that God will give me the strength.. I dont know if I should regret screaming at him cuz I know Jesus would never do that.. but if I dont do that, what can I do? he would be scareming.. argh!! this is so depressing.. then when we told him to just do whatever he wants, he screamed and kept hitting his own head.. I dont know.. but I find this disturbing..

We are finally giving him his way but tells him if he knows he is in the wrong, ma dad will punish him.. y hit his own head.. I just walked out of the room.. ok.. so much for that incident.. I just needed to let off steam.. i dont know if I am doing the right thing la.. but oh well.. cant believe it is smth so trivial and he cant just obey..

neways. yester's bio pract was quite a disaster.. only if the whole nation doesnt do well then do I have hope.. haha.. no la..kiddin.. my hope is in the Lord.. =) I am quite far behind in ma timetable, so revised it again just now.. this time, I HAVE not keep to it.. or else it may be too late.. or I cant do everything I want to.. =)

Ben and kenny.. thanks fer always being so encouraging.. Ben, liju, ken.. u all must also jia u for O's ok? Ken, aiya.. u get 20 can le la.. no fair.. DSA.. ok la, I am not jealous.. happy fer u.. just that now SA got one less place, and I have to work a even harder.. haha.. I think I am like exaggerating.. okie, will pray fer da best and let God do the rest.. haha.. cizo pple.. =)

Graduation Ceremony..

ok, so it was graduation ceremony on saturday... did not think I would cry, but as we sang the finale song, emotions started to well up.. then looked around.. everyone was crying. I could not take it,almost cried. was restraining.then stupid JM started tearing.. we all ended up crying.. lol.. then everyone went around hugging each other.. it was so touching. felt a sense of emptyness and sadness.. for once, I was feeling sad to be leaving Cedar. hee.. I know u may think I am crazy, but it is true.. it was only then that I felt like it was 'over'.

By the looks of it, I think I will end up crying on prom nite.. haiz~ It is quite sad for fat pple like me u know? dunno what to wear leh.. still thinking.. scared I over dress or 'under dress'.. haha.. will see how it is not that near neways.. fer now, O's is ma main concern..

special thanks to all of you who have been encouraging me.. namely wz kor, mrZ, JM, gloria, ruin, my darling commanders, classmates from 4monstars!, etc.. ok.. thanks ya all, love ya all and will definitely miss ya all after we graduate.. :)

God spoke so clearly..

Let me start by talking about last nite.. During my devotion, I prayed that God would bless me thru the service the next day. Little did I expect that it would really happen.I mean, yes, I prayed for it, but it was like those, just pray prayer? if u know what I mean..

This morning, we were 10mins late. Guess who I met on the way in? my beautiful commander, commander sera! haha.. since ruin's sick, I sat with her. It is wonderful sitting beside someone who really praises the Lord with all her heart. I love my commander. =) ok. then the last song we sang was 'Because He Lives'. When they sang the chorus, I felt tears coming.

Then God spoke to me. It was as if He was preparing me for the alter call that was coming. He kind of told me that pst Chia will call for an alter call, and I am one of those who will go to the front. At first, I doubted, was it my imagination? my own thinking? then Pst chia went up stage and made the Alter call. The alter call WAS for me. God even kind of like, told me what the pst was going to say.

My heart started racing and it was like, I knew I had to go up front I wanted that touch from God and that reassurance. There were issues in my heart that were making me so burdened.. I knew it. I knew it was for me, I knew I was going to be so blessed. (see, what u pray for, God will make happen! =) I hesitated at first. Then I told myself. No way am I going to miss this alter call. God even 'prepared' me b4hand. what am I standing there for?

so, I went up. was amongst the first few, so I knelt down in front. Tears flowed and I started weeping. yes, weeping. It was like, all my tears of bitterness were flowing out of my eyes.. Commander Sera and aunty Julie (my another commander) came to pray for me. I was so touched today. I thanked God for my commanders, and I thanked God for holding my tmr.

God then showed me a vision. Well, I believe it to be a vision. He was showing me this pipe. I was suppose to walk thru the pipe, but I was to big. Later, God showed me, with Him, I became a little man, and the pipe became so big. In the vision, I represtnted my problems.The small pipe representes my strength, and the BIG pipe represents God's strength. meaning, with God's strength, I will overcome every problem. but if I try to depend on my own strength, it is going to be impossible to sqeeze thru that tiny pipehole.

thank God, amen! what aunty Julie said to me really blessed me also. If u read this, thanks! =) ok.so that was my wonderful experience today. Praise the Lord for HIS wonderful touch and comfort. I amstill in the process of overcoming that problem which made me go to the alter. But I WILL overcome this problem, come what may, with God's strength and not my own. =)

cheers,

anthea

Praise the Lord fer everything!!

Praise the Lord! ok.. first off, thanks to ALL of you who have been keepin me in prayers.. I reelie appreciate it.. Yeah, it is always so comforting to knw that my heavenly Father has a plan already laid out for me, and all I have to do is follow it and everything will be alright.. hence, like Kenny said, I will pray for wisdom.. I have been praying for wisdom actually.. yeah..

All in all, I will give my best and let God do the rest.. =) I have been keepin up with ma timetable not too badly.. haha.. But in terms of sleep, lesser then usual la.. but not to the harmful stage la.. dun worry..

Prelim results were bad.. 20 points.. dunno where to go fer 1st three months.. any suggestions? ma folks wan me to go to a JC no matter what.. as in, first three months..

some things YOU said made me cry.. not in the touched way.. u make me frustrated, depressed, upset, discouraged, angry etc..... argh! YOU dun understand a thing la.. stop judging me when u dont know a thing.. u dont know a thing, not literally, not in terms of knowledge.. u dont know ma heart, desires, passions, hopes and dreams.. argh!

ok.. that para was ranting.. not many pple will know who that YOU is.. but seriously, YOU is so near yet... argh!

ok ok.. I should not end ma entry in such hurt and anger.. well, on the bright side, I thank God I have Him and He does not judge me like that.. I thank God for seeing ma heart.. I thnak God fer being ma comforter fer da past few days..

okie..take care ya all.. :)