monster-in-law

hiya! typed out ma whole blog entry and now it is gone. I guess I will jus summarise.

1) watched monster-in-law

2) hope ma future mother in law will not be a monster (if neone wants me marry me in da first place)

3) super tired

4) loads of remedial time tmr

5) loads of hol homework

6) feel like singing ma heart out

7) beware, u may lose ya hearing. ;)

ok.. that is so awkward.. I dun even have 15points.. hahahah.. ok ok.. I gtg.. later!

God is Good

phew~ finally chinese O's are over.. Oh! I did not answer zelig's question on the PM. sorry dude. Well, if you are reading this, it will ans ya question. Chinese O's was B.A.D. haiz~ super hard. Oh well.. It is over.. All I can do now is wait and pray that I dun haveta take it again at da end of da year..

Ok.. I wanted to share this testimony fer a long time. I dun even rmbr if I share it b4. but oh well.. I am gonna share it. It took place earlier this year.. During ma daily quiet time, I felt that the Lord asked me to pray fer ma Emath cher. I was super scared. But God promised me that if I asked her, she will not give our class trouble again. I was like, ok! I will do it!

then, after ma emath class, I asked her 'miss XXX, are you a Christian?' she said 'yes.' I was quite encouraged. then I said 'I feel that God has asked me to pray fer ya. Can I pray a short prayer fer u now?' she said 'no'. I jus behaved ma normal self. said 'ok. nvm.' then smiled and walked off..

At that moment I felt like crying. so many questions went thru ma mind. did I hear God wrongly? was it ma own voice? God, what are u telling me? is there something to learn from this? I was quite discouraged fer a while.

Then I think one day, I suddenly rmbred this incident. I believe it was God's reminder. It was like, He ask me to observe ma emath lessons. And I did. At that moment, I realised that we had not had problems with miss XXX fer a long time le. At that moment, I felt so encouraged. I think God was testing ma obedience. =)

God is good. Amen! Oh yes.. I still owe u guys the sermon on storms in life. I will type it da next time. =)

trying to come to terms with ma feelings..

Leader's Retreat svc 1

I saw da comments to ma cross country post. who was de anonymous person? haha.. yeah.. Star wars was PG, so I went to watch with ma whole family that nite. yups! =)

Ok, last nite, went to Marina country club for leader's retreat service. I think it was good. The pastor was pastor Ian something. I dont know his surname. super chim one. neways, He preached on the different storms in life. I don't have time to post about the sermon now, cuz I only have a lil more time b4 I leave fer church. hehe..

I will post it the next time. When I get back from da leader's retreat. We are goin to Pulau Ubin!! yay! haha..

basically, last nite, pastor Ian preached on the storms of life. Basic line, " in times of storms of life, run TO God and not FROM Him".

Okie. Dad's gotta use da com, so, I betta get off it.. =D okie. Luv ya guys!!

Long weekend~

Thank God there is a long weekend this week. I need to really gear up in ma chinese studying. I have not done much actually. Today, I was too tired, so only did about 3 chapters. small small bit only i guess.. Hmm.. Planning to chiong fer da weekends.

JM came over today. We studied a bit. like, 1 hour. Then after that we started playing. The usual. We search fer songs, then sing song and start laughin our heads off.. Haha.. then we had dinner and watched tv. Then she went home. I think we broke the record this time. She reached home at almost 10pm. mayb 9.40pm? there abouts.. yeah.

It is good to relax. Haha.. I feel a lil guilty, but oh well, i AM gonna make up fer it durin this long weekend. What is ma goal? erm.. well, I think I will aim to finish the sec3 books by this weekend AT LEAST. Oh well.. We'll see how it goes.

Going to Pulau Ubin on saturday I think. Cuz mum and dad got Leaders' training. So, I think it is a good time fer me to do serious studying. provided ma bros dun make too much noise and I do not have distractions. :D Hehe..

okie. Well.. So long!! =)

Cross country

woah~ Had cross country today. Last nite, I was prayin fer rain. God answered ma prayer! but at the wrong timing. JUST after we ran finish then it ran. but ok la.. In the end we can dismiss earlier cuz no prize presentation. haha.. but still had to finish da race. I walked with PQ and van gan. It was quite shuang. haha.. we are jus a bunch of slackers man.

The rain was so wonderful.. I almost sang da song Rain Down.haha.. but too many pple around. lol.. =) I love nature, so the walk in MacRitchie was wonderful. Jus that very muddy. Haha.. And some teachers keep chasing us from the back. Keep askin us to run faster and faster.might as well ask us to run. Lol.. heehee... :D

Oh well.. we were suppose to go and watch star wars tonite, cuz conrad's exams end liao. But the show is nc-13! I did not even know there was such a thang. Lol.. so, elliot cant watch. haiz~ I was kinda lookin fwd to it. But nvm la.. might be goin to watch another movie. =P

Okie.. that's all fer today.. Will end with lyrics to da chorus of da song of Here Without You:

I’m here without you baby

But your still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I’m here without you baby

But your still with me in my dreams

And tonight it’s only you and me

16th may

How to erase this day from history? I got back ma 6 papers as I have been stating fer da previous days. haiz~ well, it was good and bad news. but the bad outweighs the good. Good news: I did not fail nething. BAD news: At this point of time, ma L1R5 is 25. =(

The only thing that can save me now is tmr's lit results. But even if I get a B3, I only get an L1R5 of 23. haiz~ I am such a disappointment. I know I did not do ma best, and I deserve this. Mayb it is a lesson that God is teachin me. Cuz I did pray that God would teach me from this exams if I did not do well.. it is stressful..

well, probability of a B3 fer ma lit tmr? I have no clue. But quite unlikely. The overall MSG fer da level is 7+. So, on the average, everyone failed. =( That is not helpin to ease ma worry. I wanna study fer ma chinese. but all the bad results jus makes me feel like puting ma brains in a packet and hide it. haiz~

Oh well.. I believe God allows everything to happen for a reason.. I have to learn from this and tell maself, better get these lousy results now, then at prelims.

ok.. Ima off.. Keep me in ya prayers ok?

Luv,

anthea

Messy messy...

Oh my.. I am so messy.. Haiz~ I lost ma WHOLE packet of guitar picks. so sad. I almost could not sleep fer da whole nite. It HAS to be somewhere in da house, but I cant seem to find it altho I have tried searching everywhere. One of da factors that's leading to me being down.

Also, the horror of TOMORROW.. haiz~ 6 papers? 6 heavy blows comin up. I dun think I can take it. Oh Lord help me. =(

neways. Today is pentecostal sunday. Pastor Chia preached. I enjoyed his sermon. I think I prefer reading the new testemant. I am reading old testimont fer ma quiet time everyday and I find it very hard. Esp now that I am at the book of Numbers. A lot of facts that I dun reelie learn a lot from. Lol. But I think I will try to jus pull thru. Reading the old testimont has made me realise a lot that I do not know about the Bible.

For example, the name of other tribes, the name of the sons of other pple in those tribes, the numbers. etc etc.. Not that I have them in memory now, but at least I read thru once. Haha.. k la.. I will end here and end with a verse.

Psalms 33:2

Praise the Lord with the harp; make music to him on the ten-stringed lyre.

Praise HIM!

Psychology

Today, Rangers National planned for a seminar that teaches how to handle kids with learning disabilities. Ma dad ask me to go since he knows that I am interested in psyc. Well, I can say learn quite a lot. Like, how to tell if a kid has learnin disabilities. so on.. Cool~

Expedition gals also came over today. We did da bachelor merit. Cleaned and sanitized da kitchen. Then, we started havin some kind of praise and worship. Lol. It was fun.

Oh ya. There was flag selling today. It was fer an org. called RSVP. The pple are so hyper even tho they are not that young. such nice pple. I think it is nice to know that there are such warm, welcoming and enthusiastic sigaporeans. =)

Oh well.. I certainly do not look fwd to monday. gettin back 6papers!!! OMGoodness. I am so scared. Teachers said we did REAL bad. haiz~ well.. wat's done is done. Cant cry over spilt milk. but I think I will end up cryin on monday. still got photo takin summore. how to smile? haiz~

neways.. I think I gotta start ma chinese revision soon. mayb tonite? i dunno.. Tired tho. see how lar.. Okie.. I will end here..

The Lord is ma comforter~

Hooooooooo.........................

Deep sigh~ feelin tired. Praise God fer the light cool showers today. Rain makes me a lil happier somehow. =)

man! I am so lazy. haha.. I was super tired last nite. I was too lazy to go read the next chapter of Numbers. So, I ended up reading the verse from Isaiah. Quite a common verse. Isaiah 40:31. It is about fiding rest and renewal of strength in God.

Nothin much to talk bout today, so I will jus post da lyrics to a song yeah? The song by planetshakers. Weight of The World:

Sweetest sound I've ever heard

Sound of heaven calling out for me

Before I ever called Your name

You gave Your life for me

And all the things I ever did

You took them on the cross

You took the weight of the world on

Your shoulders

You took the weight of the world on

Your shoulders

You did it all for me

Yes You did it all for me

Greatest love I've ever known

That You would give Your life to set me free

Before I ever called Your name

You paid the price for me

And all the things I ever did

You bore on Calvary

Take me as I am

Into Your nail scarred hands

And when I run so far away

You always call me back again

Into Your open arms

No matter what I've done

Amazing grace has found me here

Because of what You've done I'm free

Remind me

Hey y'all. Well, zelig told me I sounded fierce on ma blog. That made me realise the things I have typed and the tone I have used. so, wanna say sry. I know da person I am talkin about is not mentioned by name, and she wouldnt read ma blog. But I wanna apologise to whoever reads about ma tone and it's content. Sorrie.. :) And zelig, thanks fer da reminder dude.

Ok.. I was lazy and kinda hopin ma tuition teacher wont call. So, I wont have to tell her to cancel tuition. I was hopin she would jus forget and nvr come. *evil grin* haha.. BUT BUT BUT! haha.. I jus received a call from her. Then she ask me if I wan tuition. I said nething. Lol. Then she say ok, she will come. haiz~ I feelin shack and dun wan tuition. but I also dun wanna give her da impression that I am lazy. haha... no la. not act guai. Is wanna display good attitude. Lol.

Well, I tot I have time to relax and play, but looks like chinese O's is comin up in 2 weeks. so, I should not relax and play too much. Or else I get too relaxed. hehe.. okie. I got bout one more hour b4 tuition teacher comes. haiz~ =( hehe..

later peeps~

Kingdom of Heaven

Words are jus characters that have no meaning? no tone? I dont think so. some people are jus so rude in their sms-es, I think I am wastin ma sms replying to their stupid and idiotically rude msgs. Wadeva. What did I do to u man? U cant type properly? smth wrong with ya phone? u are jus so affected. I dun like u! Thot u were nice, looks like u are jus so fake. affected is the best word I can think of.

whateva. y should I get upset over some idiot rite? waste ma energy only. she is so not worth ma anger. stupid.

neways, Wow! Watched Kingdom of Heaven today. Spent too much money today. Gonna try not to soend another cent fer da rest of da week. Oh well. I think the show was great. In ma opinion, Orlando bloom looked like the Bible Story character of Jesus. Haha.. I enjoyed da movie. The people did not even bother to check our student pass. Haha.. neways, even if they did, I am only one month away from 16 la.. haha.. *winks* should I feel guilty? no la hor? haha..

Today, last paper over. Fer now, the fear of da results. Haiz~ haha.. I think I am not gonna do well.. I was not exactly very preped. haha.. If I dun do well.. I think I very well deserve it. I pred fer today's lit tho. Twelfth nite part was tough. But neways, glad it's all over. yay!

okie. Thank God fer everything.

I have decided.

Ok. I think I have been terrible lately. short tempered. then when I am tired, I cant seem to do nething rite or speak to pple properly. So, I am determined to do things properly and control ma temper. I guess most people do not know this and do not see this fer themselves. cuz somehow I only cant tahan whenI am at home. easily agitated, blah blah blah..

kie. I dun wanna talk about it le. makes me angry with maself. Well, prayer requests gonna be listed. Need to really pray fer some people. whoever reads this, pray fer them yeah.

1) Uncle mark teo : He is goin fer a heart op today. Pray fer the op's success and comfort fer his family.

2) Me: as above

3) ma gran: pray that she will receive Christ when she goes to the yum cha session organised fer church.

Cant wait fer tmr's paper to be over. I will totally relax fer a few days, then gotta gear up again le. Chinese O's paper comin up at the end of da month. I just pray ma grades will glorify God's name in one way or another. =)

Yesterday's church, Pastor Pang preached. Dunno y but I kept yawning. I was not in the right state fer church. Durin Praise and worship, i kept cryin. I was not cryin cuz I was touched by the Holy Spirit. I cried cuz I felt like I was very sad and in some kinda pain inside. I was weeping. Then I felt a lil better, but durin sermon, I was jus copying notes, but not really absorbing. Suddenly so tired also. Dunno y. Then pastor Pang said something that shook me. He said something like,

" I feel that God is tellin me to say this. Some of you here may come into church and are not prepared to worship God. Don't you think God deserves your worship?''

At that moment I prayed and confess to God. Then pastor Pang suggest we stand up and sing a song then speak in tongues fer a few minutes. I tried but could not. Everytime I tried to speak, I ended up cryin. So, i just prayed that God would help me leave everything in His hands. And what was the song that they played? WITH ALL I AM.

Oh~ God is so wonderful and has such perfect timing. Praise Him.

Recently spoke to gene on msn, I have learnt stuffs from that single conversation. (as always) I thank God fer such a good friend. But lookin at how tired he was on sunday, I think I was quite energetic. He looked as tho his eyes could hardly open. ;)

okie. I will end with the lyrics of the song WITH ALL I AM:

Into Your hand
I commit again
All I am, For You Lord.

You hold my world
In the palm of Your hand
And I am Yours

Forever

Chorus:

Jesus I believe in You

Jesus I belong to You
You're the reason that I live

The reason that I sing
With all I am

I'll walk with You
Wherever You go
Thru tears and joys
I'll trust in You
And I will live
In all of Your ways
And Your promises
Forever

What your problem anthea?!

Ok, I don't know what ma problem is. I hate the way I am feelin. I kinda feel sad fer no reason, and very edgy also. stress? cant be. I should be the happiest person on earth rite now. i have only one paper to go, and I am not even plannin to study yet. I woke up fine. Went to pick ma mum from airport also.

But after makin mothers' day card. I was tired, then things seem to go wrong. I dunno what's goin on in me. I feel sad and tired. related? I dunno. Prayin fer peace. haiz~

neways. Yeah, mum's day tmr. I made her a card. i make one every year. I can say this year, I put in da most effort. =) Pat on ma shoulder. hahhaa.. hope she likes it. I cant do art fer nuts. haha..

ok. I am determined to feel happy. I am gonna find way to make maself happy. Haha.. I am feelin better already. Ok, whatever. I am still tryin. Haha.. endin here.

Later guys~

WoooooHoooo!!

Yeah! exam report: 8 down, one to go. I am so gonna thoroughly enjoy maself today. =) last paper is lit. That's y I am slackin. However, ma exams did not go too well. I was not well prepared. ok. I dun wanna talk about it le.

back to happy happy tone! Yay! Haha.. should be goin to watch a movie with dad and bros tonite. =) Coach Carter! Looks so cool man. I am so sure it is gonna be good. Hope can get ticks tho. Trailer looks so awesome.

ok. I dun feel like bogging le.Haha.. feelin lazy. :D Oh well.. all u people doin exams, jia u!

oh ya. Still dunno what to do fer mum's day yet. o.o